God's Got This

God's Got This

On October 8, 2019 following several months of back and stomach pain, a number of doctor's appointments and numerous tests, my gastroenterologist called to inform me that a recent CT scan showed what he thought may have been the cause of my pain. Unfortunately, the scan showed a mass on the tail of my pancreas. Soon after that, a biopsy confirmed that the mass was cancerous. 

I decided to journal this journey with daily recaps since the cancer diagnosis. I have the most recent days first. If you scroll all the way down, I have written a little about when and how this chapter of our lives began. My thinking behind this page was first, to give me an avenue to write about the events of each day along with how I was feeling and what's coming next. This also serves as a way to keep a good number of people informed as to the status of things in our life.

SPECIAL THANK YOU

I would like to thank all of you who have checked in here from time to time. Debbie and I are especially thankful for your prayers and encouragement. It has meant so much to us and to say "Thank you" just doesn't seem adequate for all you've done for us. Please know how much we love and appreciate you! Thank you for walking this journey with us. God is so GOOD

September 16 - 21, 2020

2 Thessalonians 2:16 "Now may our Lord Jesus Christ Himself and God our Father, who has loved us and given us eternal comfort and good hope by grace, comfort and strengthen your hearts in every good work and word."

God is Amazing, I know, you thought I was going to say Awesome, well He is Awesome too!! Life for us this past year and a half has been tough, but God continues to show Himself faithful. He has loved us, held us up, He has comforted us and He has given us great hope and encouragement. Debbie and I are so grateful. 

The last few days have been okay. I continue to have stomach and back pain along with the shortness of breath and some other side effects. I was so hopeful to have a glowing report to share, but I need to tell it like it is. God has given me great strength to be able to continue to push through. I certainly don't want you to think that every day is a bad day because that is not the case. Every day is a good day, there are just a number of issues that we face each day. 

As I mentioned previously, we will have our next labs and CT scan on October 15. Please join us in prayer that the tumor will be shrinking or at least stable and the tumor marker will be declining. 

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

September 8 - 15, 2020

Ephesians 1:3 "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ,"

God is faithful all the time! The past week has been pretty good. I have had a number of stomach issues, but none that have really kept me down. I continue to feel pretty well overall in spite of the number of side effects that I'm suffering. 

We met with the oncologist yesterday and he was very pleased with the blood work. This evening we received the results of the tumor marker; it has continued to rise. It is now up to 499, just a few months ago it was in the 30's. While there is no need to sound the alarm, it is something we will watch closely. 

The next CT scan is scheduled for October 15. They will also do the lab work at that time. We will let you know the results soon after we receive them. Thank you for your prayers! 

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

Ausgust 31 - September 8, 2020

Psalm 18:46 "The LORD lives, and blessed be my rock; And exalted be the God of my salvation,"

God you are good!! Thankfully we avoided Covid this time around! I'm happy to report that the last week has gone well for us. One of the meds the pulmonologist gave me seems to be helping with a dry cough I had. I have not yet started taking the other med for my lungs. The cost is rather prohibitive so we are trying to get assistance through the pharmaceutical company that makes the med. It could be a while before we know anything on that. In the meantime, the shortness of breath is still causing me difficulty. 

I started a drug that was supposed to help with the neuropathy and for about a week I thought it was getting better, but the last two days my feet have really been bothering me. Through the difficulty's life has been good, God is good, Debbie, my family, the church and community continue to be such a great support team. I am so grateful for all of you! 

Continue to look up my friends and until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

August 26 - 30, 2020

1 Peter 1:5 "who are protected by the power of God through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.

God provides that which we need when we need it, He is so good! The week has been good, just the usual aches and pains. My breathing isn't getting any better, but the Breo seems to be helping to curb the coughing. 

This week I was potentially exposed to Covid-19 so I began isolation on Thursday th 27th. Thankfully, I've not had any symptoms as yet. The medical professionals don't seem to know for sure how long things take. Some so isolate 5 days and another says 10 days. I read that symptoms typically begin between days 3 and 5. Honestly I feel better after about 10 or 12 days. 

So, Debbie and I will just enjoy the remainder of our down time. Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

August 22 - 25, 2020

2 Corinthians 1:5 "For just as the sufferings of Christ are ours in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ."

God is good, all the time; all the time; God is good. The last four days have been good days. For some reason, I had a lot of energy on Saturday. The following three days were not quite as good as Saturday, but I've got no complaints. 

Saturday evening my sister and a couple of her friends came to see us. We enjoyed some delicious pizza, wonderful conversation and a competitive game or two of cards. We stayed up later than we should have Saturday night, but the gave me plenty of strength for a full day on Sunday. 

There are no scheduled doctor visits this week, praise God! On Thursday we have a Zoom meeting scheduled with the Clinical Educator from Boehringer Ingelheim (the company that makes the medicine) to learn more about Pulmonary Fibrosis and OFEV the medicine prescribed for the treatment. The medicine, as we understand, will help slow or possible stop the progression of the fibrosis. 

We'll be sure to let you know if there is anything particularly interesting to share. Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

August 21, 2020

Luke 6:19 "And all the people were trying to touch Him, for power was coming from Him and healing them all."

Through the storms, God is good! Today was the final doctor appointment of the week. We met with a pulmonologist concerning my shortness of breath issue. After a couple of breathing tests and a review of my symptoms, the doctor determined that I have Pulmonary Fibrosis. Needless to say, we were a little taken aback by this. While there is no cure for Fibrosis, there are some meds that can stop or slow the progression.

We are confident that God is ahead of all that we face and we are believing that He has told us just as He did the Israelites, "The LORD will fight for you while you keep silent." (Exodus 14:14) We will continue to take each day He gives us trusting Him a step at a time.

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

August 16 - 20, 2020

Mark 5:29 "Immediately the flow of her blood was dried up; and she felt in her body that she was healed of her affliction."

I love you Lord Jesus, thank you for loving us! I'm happy to report once again that things are going pretty well. We missed church last Sunday as we took time to spend with out of town family. I am so glad that we have the Live Stream, though it's not the same as being there we can still be a part of the worship service anywhere in the world. 

This week has a total of three doctor's appointments. As of today, we've had two. We met with the cardiologist on Tuesday. He ordered an EKG which was done there in the office. He had also reviewed the Ecocardiogram from a couple of weeks ago. The good news is, that he didn't see anything that looked suspicious and he felt as though my heart was doing well. He did not rule out a pulmonary/cardio problem, but felt like we needed to visit with the pulmonologist before we did anything heart related. 

On Wednesday, we went to the podiatrist, I have a problem with one of my toes, but also took the opportunity to talk about the neuropathy in my feet. She prescribed some medication that she thought would help with that, not cure it, but help lessen the effects. Tomorrow, Friday, we will see the pulmonologist. I expect to be in for a round of tests related to my shortness of breath issue. 

I am most thankful that the cardiologist and pulmonologist will allow Debbie to accompany me. She has such a calming effect on me. I feel much better with her around. She is also good to remember what the doctors say to do or not do. We are hopeful that tomorrow's visit will help shed some light on this breathing problem and offer some solutions. 

Thank you all for your continued prayers! Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

August 11 - 15, 2020

Matthew 8:7 "Jesus said to him, 'I will come and heal him.'"

Grateful to the Lord, for He is good!! It's been a pretty good week as I wind down my chemo pill cycle. Like usual, there have been a couple of little bumps the last few days, but nothing bad at all. Today, I even felt up to doing a little work in the yard - praise God!!

Next week looks to be full of doctor's appointments. We will see the cardiologist on Tuesday, podiatrist on Wednesday and pulmonologist on Friday. The main issue is the shortness of breath the others are neuropathy and a toe nail problem (that seems rather petty in light of the weightier issues, but it is a concern none-the-less). 

Tomorrow will be the last day of the chemo pill cycle so next week, I will enjoy a little break. Everything else seems to be trucking right along, thankfully. Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

August 8 - 10, 2020

Hebrews 2:9 "What we do see is Jesus, who "for a little while was made lower than the angels" and now is "crowned with glory and honor" because He suffered death for us. Yes, by God's grace, Jesus tasted death for everyone in all the world.

Did you know that God is good! Seems like I was in a little slump the last few days of last week, but thank God, I seemed to have rebounded some the last two days. I have been feeling alright, but sometimes I get to feeling overwhelmed by it all. Thankfully, Debbie is always here to hold, encourage and cry with me. Even when I get ugly, that, is love. 

Today, we saw the oncologist and received the results of last Friday's blood work and CT scan. We are excited to say that things remain stable. One particularly encouraging thing the doctor said was that typically patients only go about two months on the chemo pill before they have to return to the infusions. We have made it four-months as of now and are prayerfully looking forward to many more months without the need of infusions. The only area of concern we talked about was the tumor marker, it has been moving up rather steadily. Of course, we will keep a close eye on that and again pray that it will reverse and start coming down. 

Concerning the shortness of breath issue the doctor is going to refer us to a cardiologist (even though the echo came back pretty good I have had an area of moderate blockage in the past he felt like should be looked at again). Because he really doesn't think the shortness of breath is a heart issue he is also referring us to a pulmonologist to have my lungs looked at a little closer. The CT scans show what the doctor referred to as "ground glass" a scaring perhaps due to some type of chemical exposure in the past. NOTE: This is not a new discovery, he mentioned this following the first CT scan. The reason we are taking a closer look now is because of my breathing issues. Now I like to say, 'other than my heart, lungs and this cancer, I'm in pretty good shape'. Laughter is good medicine.

Yesterday was tough as Debbie and I announced to the congregation that I would need to take a much less active role at the church, my health has made it increasingly difficult to maintain a full-time schedule. Hopefully I can hang in there and get a new guy ready to take over the senior pastor position. 

Well, now you know what we know, so until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

August 3 - 7, 2020

Psalm 116:6 "The LORD preserves the simple; I was brought low, and He saved me.

The Lord is good, I am grateful for HIs lovingkindness. This week has been pretty good. I've had the breathing issue quite a bit, but the good news is my stomach hasn't bothered me near as much. Though at times the discomfort can be somewhat discouraging, I am thankful for each day. I am thankful for Debbie, as she is here with me through it all. She has been my inspiration, motivation and given me much strength.

Today, Friday, I had a CT scan. I should have the results on Monday when I visit with the oncologist. I'll get the updates posted as soon as I can. I appreciate all of you who read the blog and pray for us - you too give us much strength and encouragement. 

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 28 - August 2, 2020

Ecclesiastes 3:11 "He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also set eternity in their heart, yet so that man will not find out the work which God has done from the beginning even to the end."

Thanking God for not just another good day, but a good week! Sorry, I seemed to let time get away from since my last post. My days have been good overall, of course I have the usual stomach stuff about every day, but I'm so thankful that I'm able to go and do.

Nearly every day I see someone who tells me they have been praying for me. It is so humbling to think that so many people are lifting us up in prayer every day. We have no doubt that it has been the prayers that have kept us going through this journey. I know it can be difficult to pray for someone day after day for months and months, but I believe our lives are testimony to the fact that prayer changes things. Debbie and I are so grateful to all of you. 

I had an echocardiogram last Monday, but have yet to hear anything from the doctor. I've always heard that no news is good news so I'll hang on to that. This Friday I will have my next CT scan (prayers appreciated) then on Monday the 10th I have a follow up appointment with my oncologist. I will share the results with you all as soon as I can.

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 25 - 27, 2020

1 John 4:9 "By this the love of God was manifested in us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might live through Him."

God is good, everyday, all day! The last few days have been good with the exception of a a spell I had Sunday afternoon and then again this afternoon (Monday). I'm inclined to think that the chemo pills bring it about. I just finished my two-week cycle, yesterday. Last time, I had a trouble for a few days following the two-week cycle. Hopefully this will be short lived.

I think I mentioned that I had been having some shortness of breath issues lately. My oncologist suggested I have an echocardiogram. Today was the day. I probably won't hear anything for a couple of days, your prayers are appreciated while we await the results. 

I remember looking at my mom and dad's calendar a few years ago. It was full of doctor appointments; now I find that my calendar is full of doctor appointments. I will have my next CT scan and blood work on August 7 then back to see the doctor on the 10th. As always, I'll keep you posted.

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 21 - 24

Psalm 34:8 "O taste and see that the LORD is good; How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him."

God is good indeed! This week has been pretty normal for me. I have felt good with very little stomach discomfort. I do think that my shortness of breath issue is getting worse though. I have an echocardiogram scheduled for Monday (July 27) to see if the breathing issue may be heart related. Other than that, I try to keep on keeping on. 

Thanks for checking in! Remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 18 - 20, 2020

Job 33:4 "The Spirit of God has made me, And the breath of the Almighty gives me life."

As I write this it is Monday evening just before bedtime. In reflecting over the last couple of days I would say that I've felt better than I did at the end of last week. The shortness of breath seems to be a little worse, but it is periodic. I still have the neuropathy issues in my feet and fingertips. Fortunately, the stomach issues have not been near as bad. I have been sleeping pretty well which helps me to feel a little better at least at the start of the day. 

I have not been able to get into a regular walking/exercise routine. I either sleep too late in the morning or have other things that need my attention. That sounds like excuses... 

Yesterday marked the start of the second week of the chemo pill cycle. I seem to be tolerating things pretty well, but as I get to the end of the second week and into the week off things tend to build up and give me trouble for a few days. I pray that won't be the case next week, we'll see.

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 16 - 17

Hebrews 8:1 "Now the main point in what has been said is this; we have such a hight priest, who has taken His seat at the right hand of the throne of the Majesty in the heavens,"

While some days I don't feel as well as others, each day is a gift from God.

 

July 13 - 15, 2020

Kings 8:60 "so that all the peoples of the earth may know that the LORD is God; there is no one else."

The last few days have been okay, nothing too bad and nothing too good. I was able to walk a mile plus Tuesday and Wednesday mornings which always seems to get my day off to a good start. 

Monday, I had blood work and met with the oncologist. Due to the Covid threat, Debbie is not able to join me so I put her on speaker phone when I visit with the doc. My labs came back good with the exception of low platelets again, but I'm starting to think that is just normal for me. I asked the doctor about some 'non-traditional' treatment methods, but he is really more a 'science' guy. A good man and a Christian, but he just doesn't go far off the mainstream path. 

All we know for now is that the cancer remains stable and for that, we are most thankful. I should have another CT scan sometime next month just to check on things. As always, we appreciate your prayers.

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 10 - 12, 2020

Psalm 63:3 "Because Your lovingkindness is better than life, My lips will praise You."

Every day is a good day in the Lord. Overall, it's been a pretty good weekend. Like much of last week it had it's ups and downs. Friday I was felling better than Thursday, but I was tired and took it easy most of the day. 

Saturday morning, I was feeling better and was able to get some work done in the yard before it got too hot out. Debbie and I went to Norman Saturday afternoon then had dinner in OKC. Then things got a little rough for me Saturday evening. 

Thankfully, I woke up feeling good this morning. Church went well, it always makes me feel good. We were busy running around this afternoon and didn't get home until about 7:30. When I hopped on the lawn mower to get the grass cut. Today, has been the best day of the last several days. 

Tomorrow, I have lab work and an oncologist appointment first thing in the morning. I don't expect to really learn much, I'm hopeful to have good results on my blood work. Tomorrow is also the start of my next round of chemo pills. As always, prayers are greatly appreciated. 

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 8 - 9, 2020

Deuteronomy 32:3 "For I proclaim the name of the LORD; Ascribe greatness to our God!"

Thankful for each day! The last few days have been like the roller coaster ride. For the most part I have felt really good, but there have been times that my stomach has just not cooperated. Thursday, I was yucky all day with a great deal of stomach discomfort. There has been a lot of ups and downs since last Saturday evening.

This has been my week to be off the chemo pill, but it seems like that medicine has built up in me and started causing these difficulties. I am hopeful that the weekend will be better. I will start back on the chemo pills on Monday, July 13. That same day I will have lab work done and visit with the oncologist. 

Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 6 - 7, 2020

1 John 1:7 "but if we walk in the Light as He Himself is in the Light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin."

The Lord has given us yet another beautiful day. The last two days have been good aside from some brief moments of discomfort. The last nights I have had some of the best rest I've had since this journey began. 

Yesterday morning, I got in a 2-mile walk and this morning a 3.4-mile bike ride. I feel the presence of the Lord strengthening me day by day. 

Tomorrow marks the 9-month anniversary from the day of my diagnosis and I am just so thankful to be doing as well as I am at this point. I'm believing the Lord has more for me to do. Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 3 - 5, 2020 

Proverbs 20:27 "The spirit of man is the lamp of the LORD, Searching all the innermost parts of his being.

The Lord is so good! I haven't posted in a few days because I felt like things were getting rather redundant. I have been feeling so good, thankfully there is not much to report. I thought about this the last couple of days and thought it might be better if I just updated every few days. I am going to try that and see how things go.

As I said, I have been feeling really good. I did have some issues late Saturday afternoon into Sunday afternoon. It was enough to cause me to have Logan fill in on Sunday. We were at church and ready to bring the Word, but I was concerned that I might have to exit at any time without much notice. As it turns out, everything worked out and by mid-afternoon Sunday I was much better. 

Tomorrow starts my week off of the chemo pills. I am excited about that. I continue to work at building my strength up. My goal is to walk / jog two-miles three days a week. We'll see how that goes. I am slowly starting to gain some weight; I need to put on about 10 - 15 pounds. I'm not in a hurry I just don't want to go backwards. 

Debbie and I are thinking about planning a fall get-a-way depending on what the virus is up to. In the meantime, we are expecting several family members to come for a visit and lay my parents remains to rest. That is supposed to happen mid-August. On the ministry front I am looking forward to increasing my home visits in the coming weeks. 

On the medical front, I will have labs and visit my oncologist next Monday, July 13. We are looking forward to another good report. We ask that you might pray that my tumor marker will be down some. Thank you! Until next time - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 2, 2020 - Thursday

1 Corinthians 6:17 "But the one who joins himself to the Lord is one in spirit with Him."

God has given us yet another beautiful day. Things have been kind of crazy for us this week. We have a lot going on around the house causing us to adjust our schedules on the fly. The crew arrived at our house a little after 7:00 this morning and worked until about 5:00, but were still not able to finish their work. So, we have one more day of disruption, well hopefully only a half day.

I continue to feel good for which Debbie and I are so thankful. While the stomach issues have subsided a great deal in recent days I am dealing with some shortness of breath and neuropathy in my feet and finger tips, caused by my chemo medication. Those are relatively minor issues or inconveniences in light of the bigger picture.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

July 1, 2020 - Wednesday

Joshua 23:3 "And you have seen all that the LORD your God has done to all these nations because of you, for the LORD your God is He who has been fighting for you."

The gift of another day is a gift from God. I got a call last night from the company who is doing some work for us at the house, to inform me that they would be out in the morning instead of Friday. So, once again, my schedule changes. I worked from home again today and will tomorrow as well. 

I did get the opportunity to make a house call this afternoon after Debbie got home. It was great getting caught up with this couple, part of our church family and good friends. He is having a procedure tomorrow so we had the opportunity to both visit and special occasion for prayer. 

I am happy to report that I feel as though I am getting stronger and continue to feel good. I was able to walk a mile and a half this morning which I know is helping me to get stronger. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

June 30, 2020 - Tuesday

Luke 17:6 "And the Lord said, "If you had faith like a mustard seed, you would say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and be planted in the sea'; and it would obey you."

The Lord has given us another day, praise the Lord! I'm half way through my two-week chemo pill cycle and feeling really good. This morning I went for a two-mile walk, I'm trying to get back to a routine of three to four days a week of walking/jogging. Getting my strength back has been harder than I thought. I guess I shouldn't be surprised, I was a couch potato for months. 

I had a rather routine day at the office. At the end of the day, Debbie and I voted then ran to pick up some groceries. It seems to me like some my stomach issues have subsided, at least a little. I am so grateful for that and pray they will continue to diminish. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

June 29, 2020- Monday

Romans 15:5 "Now may the God who gives perseverance and encouragement grant you to be of the same mind with one another according to Christ Jesus,"

Lord, thank you, for yet another day! Today has been kind of crazy. I was expecting to be working from home as we are having some work done here at the house. After hours of waiting and a few phone calls I learned that the crew would not be out until this Friday. My day wasn't a waste by any stretch as I was able to get some work done along with spending some time with some of our family. 

Debbie left early this morning to take her sister-in-law for a medical procedure, but she was back home around 10:00. We had a good day together even though things didn't go as planned.

This evening has been pretty routine around the house. I continue to remain thankful for feeling as good as I do. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 28 - Sunday 

Psalm 7:17 "I will give thanks to the LORD according to His righteousness And will sing praise to the name of the LORD Most High."

Thank you, Lord, for the gift of this day! This was a special day indeed. At church we returned to our 'normal' Sunday schedule which includes Sunday school and just one worship service. During worship, we honored God and paid tribute to our country. Our celebration included a number of patriotic songs. It was so uplifting. It is also more enjoyable when a person feels good, which thankfully I did! 

After church we went to the city with family for lunch. A little later in the afternoon we caught a little nap. Early this evening we took a little ride to Guthrie.

I did have a little time of 'trouble' this evening, but after a couple of hours things were much better. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 27, 2020 - Saturday

Proverbs 28:25 "An arrogant man stirs up strife, But he who trusts in the LORD will prosper."

The Lord is good. What seems to be my now 'normal' Saturday routine is to get after up, out and after the lawn. The lawn was needing me. Since I didn't use the weed eater last week, I had a little extra to do today. After a full morning outside I still had the strength to run Debbie to the city to make a return and pick up a few things. 

This evening we've mostly relaxed here at home, although I was been busy moving the sprinkler around (during commercials). Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 26, 2020 - Friday

Isaiah 53:6 "All of us like sheep have gone astray, Each of us has turned to his own way; But the LORD has caused the iniquity of us all To fall on Him."

Thank you, Lord for the gift of this day. This morning I went for a 1.25-mile walk, I had intended to go for 2, but a delivery arrived at the house causing me to cut it short. After a shower and some breakfast (which Debbie always spoils me with) I headed to the office. I spent several hours in the office today working on Sunday's message. 

About mid-afternoon I knew I had to stop so I could run to the city and get my chemo pills and a couple of other prescriptions. Just before I left I started feeling a little off. My stomach was rather unsettled and I just felt kind of yucky. I left for home where I took a little time to relax and get to feeling a little better. Then we were off to the city. 

As we often do, spend more time than we intend while running our errands and ended up grabbing a sandwich while we were out. The rest of the evening I just took it easy (which is what I'm best at). Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 25, 2020 - Thursday

2 Thessalonians 3:5 "May the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God and into the steadfastness of Christ."

The Lord is good! I am so grateful to be feeling as good as I am. I had a long day in the office today and it seems like I still have a lot to do. This afternoon I took a short break to do some banking and stop by the post office. It was a little warm out, but otherwise a real nice day for the walk uptown. 

Thankfully it was a peaceful and rather uneventful day. This evening I had a nice nap after dinner, I hope I can get to sleep at a reasonable hour tonight. I continue to be thankful for all of you who have been so faithful in prayer and support. It's those prayers that have kept us moving forward. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 24, 2020 - Wednesday

Romans 15:13 "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

This is the day that the Lord has made! Whoo hoo!! Grateful beyond words once again to have a full day and feel so good. I did a little work in my home office this morning before heading out to officiate a graveside service in Edmond. After the service I met Debbie for a quick lunch and then I took care of some business in OKC.

This evening right after dinner I ran up to see how youth was going on this there second meeting after being shut down for the last two months. After the youth service started, I headed back to the house, I was tired from a full day of running and ready to settle down for the evening. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 23, 2020 - Tuesday

Proverb 21:31 "The horse is prepared for the day of battle, But victory belongs to the Lord."

So grateful for another day! Today was a good day in many ways. I had a lot to do and spent the day in the office trying to get caught up. The day didn't start out so great (I felt good though). As I was getting ready to leave for the church I couldn't find my car key. Finally, I called Debbie at her office and asked her to look in her car (which I had driven the night before) to see if perhaps my key had fallen out in her seat. Sure enough, she found it. I was glad to have found it, but it didn't do me any good 30 miles away. I called Judy at the church and she was gracious enough to come pick me up. 

As the day wound down Debbie arrived to pick me up from the office. Some friends came by the house and we went to dinner together and enjoyed a good time together. Back at home we settled in for the evening and I think I fell asleep soon after sitting down on the sofa. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 22, 2020 - Monday

1 Chronicles 29:13 "Now therefore, our God, we thank You, and praise Your glorious name."

God is good! Today was another long day. We started early with an appointment with the oncologist. I had lab work and a CT scan last Friday, today was the day to hear the 'official' results. Blood work is all good other than those darn platelets were low again. My tumor marker was up just slightly over three weeks ago, the doctor said they put more stock in how the patient feels and the results of the CT scan. The CT scan showed no change! In my world that is good news. The doctor said we will continue the current chemo pill treatment until such time as something changes. I was also so glad to hear him say that I was clearly in the small group of individuals who have surpassed expectations as far as my response to treatment thus far. I know that is due to our incredible support group. Thank you all so much for your continued prayers. 

After the appointment Debbie and I had breakfast then headed to the church. I got caught up on a few things while Debbie changed out the decorations in the sanctuary. This afternoon I met with a family to prepare for an upcoming funeral. This evening we ran over to Kingfisher to watch one of the grandchildren's ball game. We didn't get home until after 9:00. I think I'm ready for bed at this point:) God bless you and remember - God loves you and so do we!

 

June 21, 2020 - Father's Day

Psalm 89:26 "He will cry to Me, 'You are my Father, My God, and the rock of my salvation."

Thank you, Lord, for the gift of this special day. Today was the last day for having two services. In some ways I'm going to miss having two gatherings. Next week we return to our normal Sunday morning schedule. It looks like it will still be some time before things return to normal. 

Today was a great day! After church several of the kids and grandkids came to the house to help us celebrate Father's Day. It was so good for us to get together again. Later this afternoon, I was ready for a Sunday afternoon nap. I can't believe I slept for over two hours! 

Other than some brief times of stomach discomfort I had a good weekend. Tomorrow morning, I have an appointment with the oncologist to discuss my blood work and recent CT scan. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 20, 2020 - Saturday

Psalm 115:9 "Oh Israel, trust in the LORD; He is their help and their shield."

Lord you are so GOOD! Today was a full day and a good day. I spent most of the day working on tomorrow's message. Later this afternoon I took a little two+ hour nap. After dinner, I was able to get the grass cut. 

I am looking forward to a good night's sleep and celebrating Father's Day tomorrow. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 19, 2020 - Friday

Matthew 6:34 "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Thank you, Lord, for another day. Today started with a trip to the cancer institute to have some lab work and a CT scan done. We will get the official results on Monday, but the nurse did call me later today to tell me that the tumor was stable. Good news. The rest of the mostly rainy day, Debbie and I did some shopping. Like our little trip to Tulsa, we just enjoyed the day together.

This was a good day especially in terms of my stomach issues. I didn't have any issues or episodes today, praise God! Hopefully this will hold true throughout the weekend. I will be starting back on the chemo pills on Monday. I'll try to make the most of the next two days.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!!

 

June 16 - 18, 2020 - Tuesday through Thursday

1 Corinthians 10:13 "No temptation has over taken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it."

This is an unusual post as I've combined the past three days. On Tuesday, Debbie worked a half day while I took the car in for some maintenance and ran a few errands. At noon, we left for Tulsa for the next three days. This is the first 'get-away' we've had for over a year. We did some shopping and a lot of sleeping. Tuesday was up and down for me so we went to the hotel early. After a good long night's sleep we were ready to spend the day Wednesday just messing around Tulsa. 

Wednesday and Thursday were pretty good days at least until this evening when things acted up again. Even though I have those stomach issues going on I still feel good overall. 

Tomorrow I will have lab work and a CT scan - prayers appreciated. I will see the doctor Monday morning when we'll find out the results of the lab and CT - prayers appreciated. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 15, 2020 - Monday

1 Chronicles 16:23 "Sing to the LORD, all the earth; Proclaim good tidings of His salvation from day to day."

Another day - Praise God!! I didn't sleep as well as I had hoped. That caused me to get off to a slow start today. I did go for a 2-mile walk first thing this morning. I didn't necessarily feel like walking, but I know that in the strength of the Lord I have to get myself moving. This trying to get my strength back is challenging for sure. 

I didn't feel great this morning, but fortunately it wasn't because of my stomach. As the day went on I got feeling better and better. It's a good thing I felt good because it was a really busy day! We had our weekly staff meeting this morning then it seemed like I was on the phone all afternoon. 

This evening after dinner, I was busy moving sprinklers around the yard and picking up branches from the tree we had cut down yesterday. I'm so thankful for a couple of my friends who are always helping me out around the yard. I'm grateful to at least be able to help a little:) 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 14, 2020 - Sunday

Psalm 20:6 "Now I know that the LORD saves His anointed; He will answer him from His holy heaven With the saving strength of His right hand."

What a great day, thank you, Lord! Of course, Sunday's are always good. We had a good group at both of our services this morning. The 10:30 service we had a baptism, that is always so exciting. The days are certainly "better" when I feel good and I am so thankful to have been feeling as good as I do. 

We had board meeting after church then Debbie and went to OKC for a late lunch. Unfortunately, around 5:00 this evening my stomach started acting up. I felt so bad that I wasn't up to eating dinner which also meant I couldn't take my last three chemo pills for this cycle. 

If I can get a good night's sleep maybe my stomach will be better tomorrow. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

 

 

June 13, 2020 - Saturday

God is good!! Thankful for another day. This morning I was able to get out and get the yard work done and spent about two hours outside. This was a big accomplishment for me as I was not completely worn out. After cleaning up Debbie and I ran to Edmond. 

My stomach hit a little bump this evening, but I'm hopeful that it won't last very long. I am so appreciative to be feeling so much better. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 12 - 2020 - Friday

Psalm 7:10 "My shield is with God, Who saves the upright in heart."

Praise God! He is so good!! Today we didn't start out with a lot to do other than take the car in for a recall notice. Funny thing, we ended up doing a lot of running around and never did get the car in. That's another story. Debbie and I spent the day in OKC shopping. 

We came home about mid-afternoon to rest for a minute. After we grabbed a quick nap it was time to for dinner, then back to the city for one of the grandkids events. 

It was a good day. It was a full day. I am so glad to be feeling this good 12 days into my chemo pill cycle. Thank you, Jesus. I pray the next few days will go well and then I get a week off! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 11, 2020 - Thursday

Ecclesiastes 3:1 "There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven-"

God has given me another good day! I was in the office all day. I finished up this Sunday's message and started working on next week's. This morning I met for a time of prayer with a couple of pastors from the community. 

Debbie was out of town with some family so I had to fend for myself. I did have a lot of watering to do this evening so that kept me busy. I did hit a bump this evening when my stomach started acting up again. For the most part it wasn't too big a bother. Unfortunately, it's now time for bed and it's acting up. Hopefully I can get to sleep quickly. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 10, 2020 - Wednesday

Luke 10:9 "and heal those in it who are sick, and say to them, 'The kingdom of God has come near to you.'

Thank you, Lord, for the gift of this day! I failed to mention yesterday that I had walked a mile and half yesterday morning. Likewise, I walked a mile and a half this morning. I am trying to get my endurance built back up along with some muscle. I know that when I get exercise, whether it's working in the yard or walking, I feel better. The Lord has given me the desire and the ability to start getting back into shape. 

Today was a good day; I spent a large portion of it in the office. About mid-afternoon I my stomach started making some noise. I decided to head home a little early. An hour or so after I got home my stomach let up and I felt a little better. 

This evening I've been in and out of the house watering the yard. I like and need to get up and move around more than I do. 

I am hopeful for a good night's sleep and another walk in the morning. I need to keep it going, moving forward. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 9, 2020 - Tuesday

2 Corinthians 13:14 "The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit, be with you all."

Praising God for another good day! It was what I think of as a "normal" Tuesday. Debbie goes to her office for the day and I was at the church all day. Nothing exceptional today just business as usual. My 'issues' were at a minimum today and I am so thankful. This is day #9 of 14 on the chemo pills before getting a week's break. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 8, 2020 - Monday

Jeremiah 25:4 "And the LORD has sent to you all His servants the prophets again and again, but you have not listened nor inclined your ear to hear,"

Today has been good Monday, thank you, Jesus! Like most Monday's, we had our weekly staff meeting this morning. It is so exciting to be making plans to get things back up and running around the church. The rest of the day was full of administrative activities, but it went by pretty fast. I hope to get started on Sunday's message tomorrow.

This evening, Debbie had dinner ready when I got home. After eating I had a couple of tasks to complete. One of them was successful:) I am truly thankful for another good day. Funny, what I used to take for granted now means so much to me. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 7, 2020 - Super Sunday

Acts 10:45 "All the circumcised believers who came with Peter were amazed, because the gift of the Holy Spirit had been poured out on the Gentiles also."

A great day indeed! Thank you, Lord. As you know, Sunday is my favorite day of the week. Of course, some Sunday's are better than others, today was just pretty good. We had our two services this morning and it was nice to see a few more people starting to come out. It's great to see everybody and worship together. To really highlight the day, at the conclusion of the second service a little girl came forward to acknowledge her faith in Christ and desire to be baptized. That is just about as good as it gets!

This afternoon Debbie and I did a little work around the house before heading to the city for a bite to eat. Unfortunately, as we were eating, my stomach issues returned. I was hopeful that I would make 11- or 12- days before on the chemo pills started to make me feel this way again; it has only been 8. I will be trying a few things the doctor suggested to help be get through these next few days. I sure don't want to reduce the number of chemo pills if at all possible, but that is an option. We'll just see how things go. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 6, 2020 - Saturday

Psalm 24:1 "The earth is the LORD"S, and all it contains, The world, and those who dwell in it."

Another glorious day, thank you, Jesus! Before I could get started on my tasks for the day we had some company. We enjoyed a nice visit. About 10:30 I started to work on the yard. It was hot out! After getting the edging and weed eating done it was time to cut the grass. 

I finished up the yard work about noontime. I was worn out! Debbie had lunch ready, but I wasn't up to eating. I grabbed a shower and hit the sofa. I guess I was tired; I slept from 12:45 until 3:00.

This evening we went to visit some friends and enjoyed a cookout and some wonderful birthday cake. It was a full day for me anyway. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

June 5, 2020 - Friday

Nahum 1:7 "The LORD is good, A stronghold in the day of trouble, And He knows those who take refuge in Him."

The Lord is good indeed! Today I had a dermatologist appoint in Edmond. Because of my weakened immune system and fair skin, I have to the dermatologist a couple of times a year. Debbie and I left this morning and went through Guthrie to grab a breakfast sandwich and coffee on the way to Edmond. 

After my appointment, we did a little shopping. Since I've lost so much weight, I really needed some clothes that fit a little better. I now have a variety of sizes available:) We had an enjoyable afternoon together. I don't think we could ever spend too much time together; we have so much fun!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 4, 2020 - Thursday

2 Timothy 2:7 "Consider what I say, for the Lord will give you understanding in everything."

As another day draws to a close I thank God for this day and the strength He provides. After a quick stop at the office this morning I was off to the city to take care of some ministry related business. I managed to make it through a full day in and out of the car. I was ready for a nap which I did shortly after dinner.

It might be in my head, but I think I can sense the chemo pills building up in my system again. We'll see how the next few days go, but I have permission to cut back or cut out the pills if things get too rough. The down side of that is what the cancer might do in the absence of the chemo. I pray for the strength to get through this round. Thank you for your prayers. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 3, 2020 -Wednesday

Once again, I'm grateful to God for another day. I woke up about 5:30 this morning which would be alright if it hadn't been after 11:00 when I fell asleep. I did get out before 7:00 to finish by weed and feed treatment and pull some weeds.

When I got to the office this morning I was a little sluggish. Of course, my stomach was bothering me and I was kind of sleepy. Not too long after I got to the office I felt the need to spend a little time in my recliner. 30 minutes later I felt much better and was ready to get after it! 

I was able to get a few admin tasks completed and best of all, I finished Sunday's message. I even had a little time to get some reading done. It was an unusual day because as the day went on I actually got to feeling better, typically it is the other way around. 

This evening was rather typical for us. After we ate we had a couple of visitors come by to see the house. It's always fun to have friends stop by. The rest of the evening I was in and out of the house getting the yard watered. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 2, 2020 - Tuesday

Hebrews 3:13 "But encourage one another day after day, as long as it is still called 'Today,' so that none of you will be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin."

Thanking God for another day and a very good one at that. I really appreciate these days that have very few chemo side effects. Fortunately, I do have quite a few 'good' days. It just seems like the bad days are the ones that get all the attention. 

I got up a little earlier this morning so I could take advantage of the dew and spread some lawn fertilizer. It felt good to do a little early morning activity/exercise (I don't usually get up early enough - haha). Today was an office day again, but I think the early morning caught up to me as I was pretty tired by late afternoon. 

I got home a little before Debbie did so I grabbed a quick nap before dinner. We spent the evening relaxing as I have to get up early again in the morning to finish the job I started this morning. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

June 1, 2020 - Monday

Psalm 135:3 "Praise the LORD, for the LORD is good; sing praises to His name, for it is lovely."

As I had hoped and prayed, today was a good day, thank you, Jesus! We have officially returned to our 'normal' work week at the church. It was nice to have our staff meeting for the first time in about 10 weeks. Though we don't have much of anything else going on, it was good for us to get together. 

I went home at lunch time to spend a little time with Debbie and then right back to the office. At day's end Debbie had all the trimmings ready for dinner and I put the steaks on the grill. After dinner I spent quite a bit of time in the yard. Moving sprinklers and digging up weeds were on the list of priorities for this evening. I was outside until nearly 9:30. I am enjoying working on the landscaping, but it sure would have been nice to have it included in the build. 

Earlier this evening we received the results of last Friday's blood test. It seems my tumor marker is slowly creeping up again. It was 61 up from 39 three weeks ago and 31 three weeks before that. Of course, we appreciate your continued prayers as we would so like this cancer to be gone. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 31, 2020 - Happy Sunday

Psalm 21:13 "Be exalted, O LORD, in Your strength; We will sing and praise Your power." 

Thank the Lord for a beautiful Sunday! It was good to see our family gathering once again, although we are still missing a good number of them. One of these days before long (I pray) we'll all be back together. 

Today was a good day, today was a very good day. I had very little to deal with in the way of my 'issues' today, I am so thankful. Debbie and I went to the city for lunch and a quick errand after church. We had a lite dinner this evening. When the heat of the day cooled off a little (about 7:00) I was able to get out and cut the grass. Before I came back in to the house I sat on the lawn mower thinking how blessed I was to be able to get the yard cut and feel so good. The remainder of the evening we enjoyed watching a few episodes from some of our favorite television shows. 

Tomorrow I will start the next cycle of chemo pills. Hopefully, I will have less trouble toward the end of my two-weeks on. Thank you for your prayers!! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 30, 2020 - Saturday

Psalm 111:4 "He has made His wonders to be remembered; The LORD is gracious and compassionate."

The Lord is faithful and I am grateful! Today has been a good day and much better than some of the recent days. I was able to get some things done around the house. I also made a couple of visits early this afternoon. I finished working on the lawn mower about 5:00 then hit the couch for a much-needed nap. 

This evening we have just chilled and watched a couple of movies. It will most likely be an early evening as I like to get up early on Sunday mornings. Hope to see some of you at church tomorrow. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 29, 2020 - Friday

2 Timothy 2:7 "Consider what I say, for the Lord will give understanding in everything."

Thanking God for today and feeling better. We had a full day of running around.

I had a doctor's appointment this morning. So thankful that my bloodwork was the best it has been since we started chemo seven months ago. (We won't know the results of the tumor marker until early next week) That has a lot to do with the difference between the infusions and the chemo pills. I wish the side-effects would reflect the difference, but that's not to be, at least for now. The doctor made some suggestions that might help me with the stomach issues. Debbie and I appreciate your prayers that these additions will help. My next appointment with the doctor will be June 22, following a CT scan on June 19. The CT scan helps us see whether the tumor is growing, shrinking or remaining stable. It also shows other possible cancer activity.

After the doctor's appointment we grabbed some lunch and did a little running around before heading back to Crescent. I was pretty tired after our day of running so we settled in early this evening. I hope to be feeling well enough to get out and do some yard work tomorrow. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 28, 2020 - Thursday

Joshua 3:5 "Then Joshua said to the people, 'Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the LORD will do wonders among you."

Thank the Lord for another day! Today, things starting to turn around for the good. I didn't feel great, but things were better today than they have been for the last several days. These cancer meds are not kind to the system, but they are necessary. As tough as it gets at times I just trust God and lean heavy on the love and support of my family, church family and friends. So thankful for all of you, your prayers, encouragement and support are making this journey bearable. 

I was in the church office all day today and able to get a lot done. I'm so excited to be studying and working on our current series about the Holy Spirit. It is amazing the things that Holy Spirit does. The deeper I go the deeper I want to go and I hope that is true for all of you as well.

Once again, we look forward to a better tomorrow, until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 27, 2020 - Wednesday

Matthew 9:27 "s Jesus went on from there, two blind men followed Him, crying out, 'Have mercy on us, Son of David!"

After a rough go last night, with the help of a couple of sleeping pills, I was finally able to get to sleep. I did, however have a tough time waking up. After getting up and around I made my way to the post office and then the church office. I spent the day in the office and did alright, but still not feeling as good as I though I would at this point. 

I was able to get a good start on the next message on the Holy Spirit. This is such an exciting time to be living. So much going on, so many opportunities. 

I see the oncologist day after tomorrow. I'm looking forward to getting the next CT scan scheduled. I'm also excited to see how my bloodwork comes out. I let you know! 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 26, 2020 - Tuesday

1 Timothy 2:8 "Therefore I want the men in every place to pray, lifting up holy hands, without wrath and dissension."

Back to work today! I felt alright, but still had issues throughout the day and evening. Debbie also went to her office today. We met at home at 5:0 and had some friends from church stop by for a little visit. 

Debbie fixed dinner, but I wasn't up to eating. A little later in the evening I had a light snack. This evening hasn't been great for me, but I'll get through it. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

\May 25, 2020 - Memorial Day

Luke 22:19 "And when He had taken some bread and given thanks, He broke it and gave it to them, saying, "This is my body which is given for you; do this in remembrance of Me."

Today we remember those who gave their lives in service to our great country. I hope everyone had a safe and enjoyable day and were mindful of those who have protected our country. 

Thankful for another day! This morning I did some work in the yard. We have an area in the back that does not have sod. It's a shady area so I'm planning on seeding it, but there are a lot of roots and branches that have to be cleaned out first. I was able to complete about 2/3 of the area and hope that I can finish it next weekend. Though I still can't do much I so enjoy the physical activity, it makes me feel good when I accomplish a project. 

Early this afternoon, my stomach started acting up again. I took a little nap and thought I felt better. About the time we made it to Edmond things got rough for me. The first store we stopped at both of us went in a picked up a few things. When we got to the second store I knew I was not going to make it so i dropped Debbie off at the door. 

When we got home I had a really bad spell leading to what I call a "meltdown". When you face the same obstacles day after day it gets very tiresome. God bless Debbie, she hangs in there with me through it all. She holds me tight, prays for me and cries right along with me. 

As the evening wore on I did get to feeling a little better. This stuff seems to hit and knock me hard then sometime later it goes away. We are working on trying to figure just what is causing all this difficulty. I have adjusted or dropped some of the supplements I've been taking in hopes of getting some of this stuff under control, but if it is the chemo pills I guess there is not much else we can do. 

Thanks to all of you who keep us in your prayers, we couldn't do it without you. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 24, 2020 - Sunday

Psalm 18:31 "For who is God, but the LORD? And who is a rock, except our God,"

Today was the second week for our live services and we had about the same number of people as last week. Again, it was nice to see a number of our family members back in the sanctuary. After church Debbie and I went to the city for a bite to eat. Shortly after our lunch I began feeling yucky. While we had intended to do some shopping I just was not up to it. A little later Debbie wasn't feeling so well either. 

We didn't get much done apart from church today and I had a rather long evening, which means Debbie had a long evening as well. Maybe things will be better tomorrow, until then, remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 23, 2020 - Saturday

2 Corinthians 13:11 "Finally, brethren, rejoice, be made complete, be comforted, be like-minded, live in peace; and the God of love and peace will be with you."

The weekend is here. Actually, the weekend for me is typically Friday and Saturday so, the weekend is half over. This morning and early afternoon (feeling good, by the way) Debbie and I worked around the house. Cleaning up a bunch of branches that were strewn about by the strong winds the other night. 

We knocked off by mid-afternoon, we had to get cleaned up as we were expecting some friends for dinner. I wasn't in the house very long before the stomach started hurting. Fortunately, by the time our friends had arrived it had let up some. The discomfort returned a little later, but we were able to have a nice meal and visit. I'm thinking that this may be the last of the 'bad' days for a couple more weeks. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 22, 2020 - Friday

Psalm 30:10 "Hear, O LORD, and be gracious to me; O LORD, be my helper."

Today, I will give thanks to the Lord for He is my Helper. My day started off getting new tires on the car then off to the city for some other car maintenance. After I got the car taken care of I had a number of errands to run.

Things were going good until about 3:00 this afternoon and it was like someone threw a switch and I started feeling bad quickly. I had a few more things to do, but I did skip a couple of others. I headed home about 4:00. 

With my stomach feeling bad Debbie fixed me potato soup for dinner. Once again, I didn't feel up to doing anything around the house. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 21, 2020 - Thursday

Luke 1:49 "For the Mighty One has done great things for me; And holy is His name."

Praising God for another day! As I've mentioned I think the chemo pills are starting to build up. Today was a good day, but I just haven't been where I was a few days ago. I did cut back a little on my dosage today, but there is certainly a bunch of the chemo in my system. 

I spent the day at the church office and pretty well got this Sunday's message written. Because I wasn't on top of my game today we took it easy this evening. I had another rough go shortly after bed time, but nothing like last night's episode. And tonight I woke Debbie up to hold me through tonights rough spot.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 20, 2020 - Wednesday

Psalm 146:2 "I will praise the LORD while I live; I will sing praises to my God while I have my being."

Our God is an awesome God! I felt good most of the day. As far as routine goes it was a little different day. Much like yesterday. I went to the post office and then into the office. I met with Logan and went over to see the improvements in his office and the youth room. About that time I got a call that the carpet people were on their way to replace the carpet in one of the guest rooms. So I had to drop and run home to let them in. Meanwhile the fence guys had arrived and were hard at work. I decided I would just work at home again today.

I mentioned it was a pretty good day and it was, but I wasn't feeling as good as I had been. As evening came along things got a little more difficult. For some reason, it seems to hit me the hardest at bedtime. I tossed and turned and was up and down for about an hour then my stomach really started giving me fits. It is currently a little after 12:30 a.m. I have been in the living room fighting this discomfort for about an hour. I just couldn't stay in bed knowing that I would eventually end up waking Debbie. She doesn't sleep good as it is so when she is a sleep I try not to wake her.

I'm thinking that this is a result of the chemo pills as I am just about at the end of this two-week period. The chemo tends to build up in my system and it can be difficult those last few days. Relief is just around the corner and I should start feeling better in a few days.

Thankfully, things seem to be settling down now. Maybe I can return to bed shortly. Thanks for listening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

NOTE: Things are rough sometimes, but God is always faithful. 

 

May 19, 2020 - Tuesday

Psalm 23:4 "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me."

Once again, I have felt good today, thank you, Lord. This morning I walked for a mile and a half to get my day started off. It was tiring, but felt good. I worked from my home office today as we had some work done at the house. I had a nice surprise visit from Clint late this afternoon. We had a nice visit out on the front porch, the weather was so nice.

Debbie arrived home shortly after 5:00 and got busy preparing dinner. While she did that I cut the grass. I'm starting to feel more and more like my old self, though I have a long way to go to get my strength back. After cutting the grass I cooked our main entree on the grill. Debbie took care of the dinner clean-up while I went back outside to spread sulphur around the yard. It's supposed to help keep snakes away. It was nearly 9:00 before we finally got our to-do's ta-done. Time enough to clean up and get ready for bed.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 18, 2020 - Monday

Hebrews 9:28 "so Christ also, having been offered once to bear the sins of many, will appear a second time for salvation without reference to sin, to those who eagerly await Him."

Thanking God for the gift of life! Today was a good day! That is to say, over all, I had some ups and downs during the day, but it was all good. I worked in the church office all day today, but don't know if I'll get back to the office again until Thursday. I will be working at home the next couple of days because of some work we are having done around the house. 

This evening Debbie and I attended an open house for Oneness Ministries. They are a group of very special people who come along side those who are hurting to help them find healing in Jesus. They also offer a number of classes to help people grow in the grace and the knowledge of the Lord Jesus. Check them out! 

We didn't get home until after 9:00 so it wasn't long before we turned in for the night. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 17, 2020 - Back to Live Worship Sunday

1 John 4:14 "We have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son to be the Savior of the world."

Thank you, Lord for another day! Today we reopened for live worship. It was so good to see many of our family coming together for worship again. It worked out pretty well as we had just enough people at each service to be able to maintain safe distancing. While we had a good start we were still missing a good number of our family members. We continue to look forward to the day we can all be reunited.

I felt good again today that is until the middle of the afternoon when I started with the stomach stuff again. That has been with me throughout the evening. A little earlier, Debbie and I were talking about how difficult this past year has been. While there have been many victories, we've had so many challenges. Thankfully, we've had Jesus, each other our family and so many wonderful, supportive friends. We could not be where we are today without the Lord and all of you. Thank you for loving and encouraging us, you all have helped lighten this heavy load. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 16, 2020 - Saturday

James 5:11 "We count those blessed who endured. You have heard of the endurance of Job and have seen the outcome of the Lord's dealings, that the Lord is full of compassion and is merciful."

Praise God!! Last night I had a little set back, but things were good once again today. Debbie and I worked in the garage for a couple of hours before heading to the city for the afternoon. This evening we have been a little less energetic. When we don't have the energy, we take it easy. 

We are looking forward to seeing some of our church family tomorrow as we return to live worship services. Trusting God to give us the strength to get through what will be a long day. I hope we can get a good night's sleep. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 15, 2020 - Friday

2 Chronicles 30:20 "So the LORD heard Hezekiah and healed the people."

Thank you, again Lord, for another day. While today was not bad it wasn't as good as the last several. I started back with some stomach cramps about mid-afternoon and they continued for several hours. Perhaps those chemo pills are building back up in my system. Time will tell. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 14, 2020 - Thursday

Luke 7:22 "And He answered and said to them, 'Go and report to John what you have seen and heard: the BLIND RECEIVE SIGHT, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, and the deaf hear, the dead are raised up, the POOR HAVE THE GOSPEL PREACHED TO THEM.'"

What a great week it has been so far, thank you, Jesus! This is the longest 'feeling good' stretch I've had since this journey started. 

I have been pretty busy this week both here at the church as well as around the house. I am a little more tired than usual. Tonight, will be an early evening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 13, 2020 - Wednesday

John 1:4 "In Him was life, and the life was the Light of men."

Thank you, Lord, for another very good day. Again today, I spent the day in the office. I think we're all ready to slowly and safely begin to have in-person services starting this Sunday, May 17. 

After a week off the chemo pills I started back last Saturday and so far things seem to be going better than they did during the first two-week cycle. I am feeling so much better and just praying that this will continue. If it does, I will be able to concentrate on getting my weight up a little and building my strength back. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 12, 2020 - Tuesday

Psalm 86:3 "Be gracious to me, O Lord, For to You I cry all day long."

Praising God for another good day! I can't tell you how thankful I am to have been feeling so good these last few days; what a gift. 

Today I was in the office at church all day. I was a little tired from all the outdoor work I did yesterday, but I felt really good. After a full day, I met Debbie at home for dinner and a relaxing evening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 11, 2020 - Monday

Psalm 16:11 "You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever."

Today was another good day with a lot to do. I decided to take off today instead of Friday because I had some work to get done around the house and the forecast for the rest of the week didn't look so good. I spent with the exception of maybe two-hours, hard at work. Well, I do as much as I can sitting down, but the rest of it I had to be up and moving. It was a long day and I was exhausted this evening. 

After a quick bite to eat we settled in for what little was left of the evening. For me, that would have been almost an hour before I was fast asleep. 

It was a good day, but I'll bet I'm a little sluggish tomorrow, we'll see:) Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 10, 2020 - Mother's Day

Exodus 20:12 "Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be prolonged in the land which the Lord your God gives you."

Another good day, praise God! Like Easter, Mother's Day was quite a bit different. Debbie and I had burgers cooked on the grill for lunch and Orange Chicken for dinner. We spent a good part of the afternoon running around in the city. We did go into a couple of stores, but we wear our masks and keep our distance from others. 

This evening we watched a mystery movie and just relaxed. We are thankful for each day. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 9, 2020 - Saturday

Proverbs 16:20 "He who gives attention to the word will find good, And blessed is he who trusts in the LORD."

Thank God for a good night's sleep and for carrying us through another day. We had a lot to do today and at the top of the list was to get our shed put together. We had a delay a couple of weeks ago when we started to put it together and found that there was an extra roof, but no floor. I notified the company and they promptly sent the floor sections. So, a couple of our kids were coming over to help us finally get the shed put together. 

After getting all the pieces laid out and the process underway we discovered yet another problem. Not just a problem, the contents of the box were all messed up. We were missing a panel, the doors and a couple other parts, but we had extra of some panels and hardware. I was just a little upset. I have all these shed parts, but they are worthless. I emailed the shed company again, we'll see what they have to say.

Since the shed project was a bust we decided to go to the city and pick up some items for a couple of other projects we need to get done. When we got back from the city we started digging a hole for our flag pole (that was hard work, we only got it about halfway done). 

After dinner, we put together a couple of sets of shelves to go in the garage closet. By the time we had them put together and in place we were whipped. Time to clean up and get ready for bed. We should sleep good tonight. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 8, 2020 - Friday

Luke 6:19 "And all the people were trying to touch Him, for power was coming from Him and healing them all."

This morning we got up a little early to get to the cancer institute for a 7:45 appointment. After having my blood drawn I made my way to the oncologist's office. Among other things, we discussed the possibility of radiation. He didn't feel like the radiation would really be of much benefit at this point. For now, we'll continue the chemo pills, two weeks on and one week off. I will have another CT scan in early June.

We spent the rest of the day in OKC. I had some other business to take care of and we did some shopping. When we got home this evening, Debbie and I were both pretty tired. We had spent twelve hours in the city. 

Unfortunately, later this afternoon my stomach started it's revolt, of what I'm not sure, but the next few hours were rather tough. I just never know when this stuff will kick in and kick me, but by bed time I was feeling a little better.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 7, 2020 - Thursday

2 Peter 1:3 "seeing that His divine power has granted to us everything pertaining to life and godliness, through the true knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and excellence."

Though it wasn't quite as good as yesterday, I have no complaints, thank God! I spent the day in the church office finishing up Sunday's message and preparing procedures for returning to 'in-person' services. It was a really good day! 

This evening Debbie and I ran to Guthrie for a quick grocery pick up (we don't go in the store, we order online). I cooked a couple of steaks on the grill for dinner. After we ate we went for a little walk through the neighborhood. 

So thankful for another good day! Tomorrow I have an early appointment with my oncologist, I'm excited to hear what he has to say about things at this point. I'll let you know! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 6, 2020 - Wednesday

Psalm 18:46 "The Lord lives, and blessed be my rock; And exalted be the God of my salvation,"

Oh that everyday could be as good as this one. Thank you, Jesus! I had all kinds of energy and felt great all day today. I'm coming to the end of my 3-week cycle on chemo pills. For two weeks I take 8 pills a day and then I take none for a week. I'm supposed to start back on them tomorrow for the next two weeks, but I'm going to wait and talk to my oncologist Friday morning before I return to the schedule. 

Today, I worked in the church and got a lot done. It is much easier to get things done when you feel good, I'm just saying. 

I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow, in my mind I think I will feel as good or maybe better; we'll see. Debbie and I enjoyed grilled hot dogs tonight and a relaxing evening following dinner. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 5, 2020 - Tuesday

Thank you, Lord, for another day. I had a tough start mostly because I didn't get enough sleep last night. The afternoon was much better. I'm thinking it will be an early night tonight. 

We were having some work done at the house today so I worked in my home office. I was able to get the first draft of our reopening precautions and a great start on this Sunday's Mother's Day message. Though I didn't get enough sleep last night I managed through the day pretty well. 

I get one more day until I start the next two-weeks on the chemo pills. I am looking forward to a good night's sleep tonight. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 4, 2020 - Monday

Jeremiah 17:14 "Heal me, O Lord, and I will be healed; Save me and I will be saved, For You are my praise."

Thanking God for another great start to the day after a restful night's sleep. I went to the office this morning and worked until about 1:00. I went home for lunch and worked in my home office a couple more hours. I felt good most all day. That is until late afternoon. Once again, I had a couple of rough hours, but as bed time draws near I am feeling a little better. 

How about a little good news?  I probably haven't mentioned that I monitor my weight daily. I've lost about 50 pounds since I started feeling bad about a year ago. Well, this past week I have gained nearly 5 pounds! While most people don't like the idea of gaining weight, but for me this is a big win. I know it is due to the many prayers that I have started this recent upswing, thank you!!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 3, 2020 - Sunday

Hebrews 4:16 "Therefore let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace, to help in time of need."

Unlike yesterday morning, we were up and around rather early. Debbie fixed some breakfast and I was out the door on my way to church. Things were much less stressful this week we were finally able to get the Facebook Live to simulcast with our website live stream. Following church we had our monthly elders meeting. With so little going on we didn't have much business to discuss. 

When I got home, Debbie had our lunch all ready. After lunch I got back out to the yard to clean up the branches and piles of sticks we had gathered yesterday. Once again, I thank God that I was able to put in about 3 hours of work in the yard. It wears me out, but it feels so good. I am hopeful to keep working out in the yard regularly so I can get my strength and wind back.

Debbie and I had another run to the store in Guthrie before dinner. This evening we just relaxed. It will probably be an early evening since we are both pretty tired. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 2, 2020 - Saturday

1 John 4:16 "We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him."

We were a little slow getting around this morning, but once we got going we were busy. We spent most of the morning working in the yard; cutting branches, raking up sticks, etc. I've go to say I had a good work out today. This afternoon I worked on Sunday's message before we made a quick trip to Edmond for supplies. Seems like we make a lot of supply runs:) 

I thank God for a good day and the ability to get some physical work done. I was tired this evening and ready for a good night's sleep. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

May 1, 2020 - Friday

Psalm 59:16 "But as for me, I shall sing of Your strength; Yes, I shall joyfully sing of Your lovingkindness in the morning, For You have been my stronghold And a refuge in the day of my distress."

Thankful for another day and a pretty good day at that, thank you, Jesus. I usually take Friday as my day off, but I had a lot of interruptions the last two days so I went into the office to try to get Sunday's message done. I felt pretty good, but did have some issues for a few hours this afternoon. 

I got home a little before 3:00 planning on going to the city to pick up an order at Lowe's. Since I wasn't doing great we decided to hold off until I felt better. Debbie prepared a nice roast with the fixings for dinner. After we ate I was feeling a little better so we ended up going to pick up our order. 

That's how things go quite often, I feel good then I don't then I do. Sometimes it makes me weary, but I have my angel of inspiration who holds me, comforts me and encourages me to keep on keeping on. Thank you, Jesus for Debbie. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 30, 2020 - Thursday

Psalm 55:8 "I would hasten to my place of refuge From the stormy wind and tempest."

I would not consider this the ideal day, but I've had far worse. Today was day one off of the chemo pills. I get six more days before I start back on them. 

I was in the office most of the day and able to get a fair amount of work done. I left about mid-afternoon to get Debbie and head to the city to pick up a couple of prescriptions. After a romantic dinner in the parking lot of Johnnies we returned home. 

This evening we spent about two hours in the yard I was even able to get some weed eating done - Yay!! Now it's time to relax:) Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 29, 2020 - Wednesday

Psalm 62:2 "He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken."

Thank you, Lord for another good day! I'm thankful for the other days too, but I'm especially fond of the 'good' ones. Today was crazy! I started the day with an appointment at my house then headed into the office. Just before I got in I realized that I hadn't locked the house so back I went. When I finally arrived at the office it seemed like there was one phone call after another or someone stopping in. I love it, but don't understand why it all comes at once. After lunch I was back in the office for a little over an hour when I had to leave for yet another appointment out of the office.

This evening was another "take it easy" evening. I don't like to just sit around all evening, but sometimes I just have to. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 28, 2020 - Tuesday

1 Kings 4:29 "Now God gave Solomon wisdom and very great discernment and breadth of mind, like the sand that is on the sea shore."

Praise God! A good night's sleep and feeling good all day today!! Whoop, Whoop! I spent the day in my office at church. I was able to get quite a bit done today; making plans for our official reopening (May 17) and I had several hours of study time. It is so much easier to get things done when you feel good:) 

I met Debbie at home about 5:00, she prepared all the side dishes and I grilled two New York strip steaks - yummy! After dinner, we went for a little walk then did some yard work. I'm really tired tonight and looking forward to another good night's sleep. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 27, 2020 - Monday

Psalm 72:18 "Blessed be the Lord God, the God of Israel, Who alone works wonders."

Like most mornings, today was a good one, thank you Lord. In fact, I felt pretty good overall, all day. I spent the day in the office after a late morning appointment at the house. About mid-afternoon my "issues" kicked in again. I dealt with that for about four hours. 

Debbie made a Guthrie run to get some groceries. I met her at home about 5:00. We had dinner and because of my situation, just took it easy for the evening. I did get a chance to talk with my Minnesota brother who many of you have been praying (he has esophageal cancer). He sounded great and said he was feeling good, even gaining some weight back. Thank you for your continued prayers for Greg.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 26, 2020 - Sunday

Titus 2:13 "looking for the blessed hope and the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Christ Jesus,"

Sunday is finally here! I got up feeling good and looking forward to our worship service. I arrived at church pretty early in order to finalize the message and get things ready for our service. I ran into some frustrating technology challenges which were rather frustrating, but we got things worked out just in time. Speaking of church, we announced today that we will start 'live' worship service on May 17. We will have two services, one at 9:00 and the other at 10:30 in effort to provide adequate space for social distancing. I'm looking forward to these first steps and praying that all will go well and we can move forward soon, to return to our regular programs and events. 

This afternoon, Debbie and I went for a long drive just to get out of the house for a while. When we returned home I got a little more yard work done. This evening, I had a couple hours of stomach upset similar to yesterday. I'm hopeful it will have settled down by the time I go to bed. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 25, 2020 - Saturday

Romans 5:6 "For while we were still helpless, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly."

Today was a good day overall, thank you, Jesus. I spent the morning until early afternoon working on tomorrows message. This afternoon Debbie and I worked in the yard. As evening came on, I had a little trouble for a couple of hours, but not too bad. While the days haven't been 'perfect' the last few have been better. I am hopeful that these symptoms will ease, but I'm thankful to be feeling better overall. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 24, 2020 - Friday

Mark 5:29 "Immediately the flow of her blood dried up; and she felt in her body that she was healed of her affliction."

Thank you, Lord, for a much better day today. A couple of our kids and grandkids came up to help us out once again. We had an outdoor project we needed help with. I was able to work outside most of the day (when I say 'work' that doesn't mean a lot other than I was there and occasionally helped out). The good news is that my stomach didn't seem to bother me much all day. I'm so excited! 

Debbie fixed dinner and we ate pretty early, both of us were wiped out. I imagine we'll be asleep on the sofa before 8:00. I can barely keep my eyes open now. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 23, 2020 - Thursday

1 John 4:10 "In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins."

Things started better today than yesterday for sure. While I wouldn't rate it among my best days, it wasn't too bad. I worked a good part of the day at the church office. I met with Logan and Courtney for awhile this morning and found myself on the phone for a good part of the rest of the time. I headed home a little before 2:00 to catch my second Zoom meeting of the day. 

After the Zoom meeting, Debbie and I ran to the Integris Pharmacy to pick up a couple of my prescriptions. After that I took Debbie to her doctor's appointment in Edmond. After dinner this evening we worked in the garage a little and I moved some patio blocks (with the help of my tractor). 

I am so thankful to be able to function even on days I don't really feel like it. Debbie is my inspiration, she works so hard at taking care of me and making our house into a home.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 22, 2020 - Wednesday

John 15:13 ""Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends."

Thankful for every day, some days are diamonds, just not this one:( A lot of stomach trouble today and into this evening. I was able to work in the church office all day, I just didn't feel as good as I have the last few days. Today was day seven of the chemo pills and while I feel better overall, they have not helped my digestive issues. Another week of pills then a week off. I will have lab work and see the oncologist again on May 8. 

Maybe tomorrow things will be better. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 21, 2020 - Tuesday

John 14:23 "Jesus answered and said to him, "If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him, and make Our abode with him.'"

Thank you, Jesus for a good night's sleep. I woke up feeling really good this morning. I felt good most of the day. I have an hour or so here and there that aren't so great, but all in all it was a good day. This morning a good friend brought my some of my lawn equipment I had stored in the little garage at the church. We enjoyed a few minutes of fellowship over a cup of coffee. 

After our visit I made my way to the post office and then into the church office. I spent the whole day in the office. Nothing out of the ordinary, other than being pretty quiet, it was just another day. Debbie spent the day at her office too.  We met at home about 5:00 then ran to Guthrie for some supplies. 

This evening we participated in the drive by happy birthday for Courtney then worked a little more on getting the garage organized. Before the sun set I took a ride on my bike. I told Debbie that my original goal was to go for a five-mile ride, but wasn't sure if I could make a mile:) As it turned out I was able to ride a little more than a mile and a quarter, but I was spent. This getting back into shape is hard work. I thank God that I'm able to do what I am and look forward to the day I can ride my bike 20+ miles. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 20, 2020 - Monday

2 Thessalonians 3:5 "May the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God and into the steadfastness of Christ."

Praise God! I woke up feeling really good this morning! I did sleep a little longer than normal today, but it felt so good. On the way in to the church office I stopped at the post office and picked up the mail. I spent the day in the office and must say that other than a little hiccup for an hour or two this morning, I felt really good. I was able to get a good amount of admin work done. 

This evening my stomach was a little funny, but not bad. I am hopeful for a good night's sleep tonight. The previous two nights I didn't sleep very soundly. 

Today marks five days on the chemo pills. They seem to have similar side effects to the infusion, maybe not quite as severe. We pray they will be effective at keeping the tumor in check or better yet, shrinking. We sure do appreciate all of your prayers and well wishes. Thanks for hanging in there with us. God bless you!!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 19, 2020 - Fifth "on-line" Sunday

Matthew 8:13 "And Jesus said to the centurion, 'Go; it shall be done for you as you have believed.' And the servant was healed that very moment."

I woke up feeling good this morning, thank you Lord! I got around and made my way to the office at church to put finishing touches on things. We had a nice service, but continue to miss the larger family. 

Debbie had lunch ready when I got home. After we ate, we ran to Guthrie to get some groceries. When we returned, I spent some time out in the yard on the tractor. I'm trying to prepare a spot to put up our shed. In the meantime, we still have some work to do in the garage. I think all of this physical activity is helping me. I still tire very easily, but I seem to slowly be getting stronger. Thank you again, Lord! 

After dinner this evening we settled in for a mystery movie. If things look good in the morning I plan on working in the church office. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 18, 2020 - Saturday

Matthew 8:7 "Jesus said to him, I will come and heal him."

Thank you, Lord, for this another day! I woke up early this morning and went right to work in my office. I spent most of the morning finishing up tomorrow's message. My day was a little better than yesterday, but still off from how I felt just a few days ago. 

Later this morning a friend stopped by. Debbie showed her the house and they visited for a while. I worked in the garage and the planters. After lunch Debbie joined me and we worked at getting the planters looking good. About mid-way through the afternoon another friend came by. We invited him in to see the new home and had the opportunity to visit for a little while. After he left, we were back at it in the yard. 

It was a tiring day for both of us. Though I didn't feel real good all day I was able to slowly get some things done outside. This evening we both rested. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 17, 2020 - Friday

Romans 6:8 "Now if we have died with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with Him,"

The yucky from yesterday carried over to today. I have been tired and dealt with stomach trouble most of the day. I was hoping to go into to church today, but ended up working from my home office. I don't think the trouble is being caused by the chemo pills, I just haven't been on them long enough. I believe the trouble is from the chemo infusions. The doctor said it would be three to four weeks, I'm about three and a half weeks out since the last infusion. I remain hopeful that this stuff will let up, soon.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 16, 2020 - Chemo Pills Thursday

Romans 6:4 "Therefore we have been buried with Him through baptism into death, so that as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, so we too might walk in newness of life."

Thanking God for another day. Sadly, I haven't felt all that good today. I did start taking the chemo pills, but I don't think they had anything to do with how I felt today. I had intended to spend the day at the office, but after a busy morning and not feeling too well, I went home a little after noon. I was able to watch an online training this afternoon and made some headway on this Sunday's message. 

I'm posting this a little before 7:00 this evening which is quite a bit earlier than usual, but I think I'm going to bed early tonight. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 15, 2020 - Not Tax Day (This Year)

2 Corinthians 4:6 "For God, who said, 'Light shall shine out of darkness,' is the One who has shone in our hearts to give the Light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ."

Thanking God for another really good day! I put in another full day at the office and it was a good day. Debbie worked her half day. When she got off at noon, she picked up my prescription for the chemo pills. We met at home for lunch about 1:00 I returned to the office at 2:00. 

When I got home this evening, we had dinner then got busy in the garage for the next three hours. Whew, we were both feeling the burn of the lifting and moving stuff around. We are trying to get things organized. 

I will begin taking the chemo pills tomorrow four pills twice a day on top of the dozen or so I'm currently taking. To be fair, most of the pills I'm currently taking are vitamins. I spoke with the pharmacist on the phone, he went over all the do's and don'ts of taking the chemo pills. 

Debbie and I ask that you would join us as we pray for high effectiveness and minimal side effects. Thank you! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 14, 2020 - Tuesday

1 Corinthians 15:20 "But now Christ has been raised from the dead, the first fruits of those who are asleep."

There was a lot going on today. We had our closing this morning, our storm shelter was installed and we had three or four deliveries to watch for. Thankfully, I have been feeling good and able to keep pace with all that we've had going on. 

I heard from the Integris pharmacy this afternoon, they will have the chemo pills ready to pick up tomorrow. Debbie will pick them up on her way home from work. I guess I'll start that regimen either tomorrow evening or Thursday morning. Of course, we are praying that this will continue to cause the tumor to shrink or at least keep things stable. 

I look forward to being in the office the rest of the week and maybe even hearing from some of our church family. We are really missing you all. We know that this too is just for a season and we'll make the most of our situation, hopeful we'll be back together again soon. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 13, 2020 - Monday

1 Corinthians 15:6 "After that He appeared to more than five hundred brethren at one time, most of whom remain until now, but some have fallen asleep;"

Today I was back in the office all day. It was really quiet. Debbie also spent the day at her office. I felt good all day. It's been nice not having a chemo treatment last week. It looks like I'll start on the chemo pill this week. We ask that you join us as we pray that it will continue to keep the cancer in check and that the side effects will be limited. I sure wouldn't mind if these stomach issues were to subside. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 12, 2020 - Easter Sunday

Matthew 28:6 "He is not here, for He has risen, just as He said. Come, see the place where He was laying."

This is now the fourth Sunday that we have had to do "online church". For many people, this was the first Easter they ever remember not being in church. We had to do things quite different, but that didn't stop the celebration, for Christ is risen! I felt good today of course I had my regular issues most of the day, but that is just part of it. I'm thankful to be where I am today. 

When I got home from church, Debbie had our Easter luncheon all ready. We enjoyed our noon meal before heading to Guthrie for some supplies. The rest of the day we spent inside as the temperature dropped crazy between noon and 2:00.

I hope you all had a happy Easter. I'm sure that you, like us, had to do things differently this year. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 11, 2020 - Saturday

John 19:30 "Therefore when Jesus had received the sour wine, He said, "It is finished!" And He bowed His head and gave up His spirit."

Today was another busy day and thankfully I felt up to the task. I worked on the Easter message for a while this morning and early afternoon and again this evening. We had a nice visit with a couple of friends from church who brought us a cross to put in our yard; we're so proud of it. 

About mid-afternoon, I joined a couple of guys from church who were hauling off a pile of dirt and sticks for us with their tractors. I used my little tractor to do what I could. It felt good to be outdoors and getting some work done. 

Tomorrow is Easter Sunday and it is going to be so different for all of us. As others have said, "You can cancel church, but you can't cancel Easter; Jesus is risen! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and He sent His only Son to show you just how much! God bless you!

 

April 10, 2020 - CT Scan Report (Friday)

John 19:17-18 "They took Jesus, therefore, and He went out, bearing His own cross, to the place called the Place of a Skull, which is called in Hebrew, Golgotha. There they crucified Him, and with Him two other men, one on either side, and Jesus in between."

We left early for the appointment with the oncologist. Unfortunately, Debbie could not come in with me. I had her on speaker phone while we spoke with the doctor. The bottom line is that things are stable, there was no significant change. The good news is, there is no evidence of cancer in any other organs and my CA19-9 (the tumor marker) is in the normal range. The doctor gave us several options including, staying on chemo, taking a "chemo holiday", moving to a chemo pill or taking radiation and a chemo pill. Please join us as we pray for direction from God as to how to proceed. 

Thank you all, once again, for all of your prayers and support! We are so thankful for you! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 9, 2020 - Thursday

John 19:15 "So they cried out, 'Away with Him, away with Him, crucify Him!' Pilate said to them, 'Shall I crucify your King?' The chief priests answered, 'We have no king but Caesar."

While not as good a day today as yesterday, I have no complaints. This morning Debbie and I went to Guthrie for a nourishing donut breakfast. Then I dropped Debbie back at the house and went into town to get the mail and take care of a few things in the office. I wasn't feeling too bad, but was experiencing (I know you're sick of hearing this) stomach issues. So, I went home a little before noon and worked the rest of the day there. This evening we had to go back to Guthrie to pick up more supplies before coming home for dinner. 

This has been an unusual day as far how I've been feeling. Typically, I will feel bad for a period of time, maybe up to several hours, then, like someone flipped a switch I feel better. Today, it has been on and off; I'll feel bad for about an hour then I'll feel better, then bad again, then better.

Tomorrow is kind of a big day as I will meet with the oncologist (Debbie can no longer come in with me so we'll try to Facetime). We will discuss the treatment progress and what's next. We are optimistic that we will have good news to share with you all following the appointment. As always, we appreciate your prayers. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 8, 2020 - Wednesday

John 19:12 "As a result of this Pilate made efforts to release Him, but the Jews cried out saying, "If you release this Man, you are no friend of Caesar; everyone who makes himself out to be a king opposes Caesar."

Today marks six months since my cancer diagnosis; what a tough six months it's been. Thankfully, we have such a wonderful support team in all of you. Debbie and I believe that God is healing me, we see the signs of this in my life. Of course, we won't know how well I'm really doing until we meet with the oncologist this Friday. 

I have felt good all day today. I had a rough evening, but finally managed to get to sleep and I slept hard. This morning I went to the post office and to the office for a while. This afternoon I worked on the Easter message at home. 

I am so thankful to not only still be here with my family and friends, but to be witnessing first-hand the work of God in our lives. Thank you, Jesus! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 7, 2020 - CT Tuesday

John 19:1-2 "Pilate then took Jesus and scourged Him. And the soliders twisted together a crown of thorns and put it on His head, and put a purple robe on Him."

I went into the office this morning to get caught up on a few things. I was having some of those nasty stomach issues, but they seemed to go away around noon. I was scheduled to be at the cancer institute at 12:15 for my CT scan, we arrived right on time. Debbie was not able to come in with do to stricter virus screening regulations. Fortunately, they are pretty efficient and I was out in just a little over an hour. 

We were home by mid-afternoon and got busy around the house. Our back patio was full of boxes from the move so we got those broken down and hauled off, for the most part. Then we had to run to Guthrie to pick up a grocery order. 

After returning home, Debbie fixed dinner and we settled in for the evening with the exception of moving the water sprinklers every so often. As the evening progressed my stomach issues returned in a big way. I had a few very uncomfortable hours before finally falling asleep sometime after midnight. The good news is, that I felt great all afternoon! Thank you, Lord! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 6, 2020 - Monday

John 12:15 "FEAR NOT, DAUGHTER OF ZION; BEHOLD, YOUR KING IS COMING, SEATED ON A DONKEY'S COLT."

Today was Debbie's day to go to her office, I worked from home. I didn't feel bad today, but not as good as yesterday. I spent my day in my home office mostly trying to figure out some newer technologies. I do kind of like doing these short videos and placing them on Facebook, it helps me to think I'm reaching our church family and offering some encouragement to them and our community. 

Tomorrow I will be in the office for a while in the morning then off to OKC for my next CT scan. Once again, we are praying that the tumor is gone! Watch for the update on Friday, April 10, that is when we will get the latest from the oncologist. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 5, 2020 - Palm Sunday

John 12:13 "took the branches of the palm trees and went out to meet Him, and began to shout, 'Hosanna! BLESSED IS HE WHO COMES IN THE NAME OF THE LORD, even the King of Israel'."

I woke up feeling really good this morning, looking forward to worship service. I arrived at the church early so I could prepare things for our elders meeting and make sure I had my notes for our service. Things went well with our live stream today, thank you, Jesus. Following the worship service, we held our monthly elders meeting.

This afternoon Debbie and I went to the other house to finish cleaning and gather any remaining items we had left there. So grateful for the generosity of allowing us to stay in their home these past three months, amazing people. After that we returned home. I was actually able to get some work done moving things around in the garage so we could get our cars in tonight. I think it wore me out as I napped from 8:00 to 10:00:)

Again, so thankful to God for such a good day. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 4, 2020 - Saturday

Isaiah 40:31 "Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary."

Thankful for another good night! This morning Debbie and I worked on getting stuff out of the garage and into its place in the house. I felt really good all morning. 

This afternoon, Debbie continued with the unpacking process while I worked on tomorrow's message. About the middle of the afternoon my stomach started acting up again. At one point I was able to get a little nap in, but that didn't seem to help the stomach problem. As it became evening things finally began to settle down. I continued with my message most of the evening. 

I'm looking forward to tomorrow knowing that it just isn't the same. Hopefully our church family will tune in for the live stream and at least know that we are together spiritually. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 3, 2020 - Friday

Proverbs 19:23 "The fear of the Lord leads to life, So that one may sleep satisfied, untouched by evil."

I'm happy to report that both Debbie and I had a good night's sleep. The morning went by rather quickly. We had called our builder yesterday to report the dishwasher was not working. He stopped by this morning followed by a couple of electricians. A few minutes later the dishwasher was up and running. 

Later this morning Debbie ran over to the other house to do some cleaning. I went to town to get the mail and run into the office for a while. This afternoon Debbie worked on putting things up while I worked on Sunday's message. The day was going really well. Unfortunately, my stomach took a turn late this afternoon and continued into the evening. It's nearly 10:30 now and I'm still having issues. When the stomach thing is happening I'm not able to go to sleep, so there's no telling how late I'll be up tonight:( The good news is that this usually doesn't last more than a few hours. Here's praying it goes away soon!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 2, 2020 - Thursday

Luke 12:20 "And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and do not keep worrying."

Debbie and I both had trouble getting to sleep last night. It was our first night in our new home. The short night didn't stop us from getting up and around this morning. We continued unpacking, once again thankful to have some help from our family. I helped (slowly) this morning, but had church work to do this afternoon. 

Today was a good day, thank you, Jesus! God has been so good to us and shown us His love in so many ways through this most difficult trial in our lives. He has expressed His love through our family, church family, our community and beyond. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

April 1, 2020 - Moving Day (2)

Romans 4:5 "But to the one who does not work, but believes in Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is credited as righteousness,"

As I suspected, my over doing it yesterday caused me to feel very sluggish today. Most of the day I was not able to do much of anything. Today was a day to put together furniture, unpack boxes and more. Thankfully, we had family members who worked tirelessly alongside Debbie to help us out all day. We (meaning those who worked) were able to get a lot done today, but we still have a garage full of boxes full of stuff.

I hope I am able to be of more help tomorrow, until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 31, 2020 - Moving Day (1)

Jeremiah 31:25 "For I satisfy the weary and refresh everyone who languishes"

Today was a big and very tiring day. I picked up our rental truck and met a group from our church family at our storage unit. We are so thankful for their help with our move, there is no way we could have done this without them. I am physically not able to do very much, but I did what I could. I know I over did it today because this evening I am exhausted. We still have a lot to do, but at least we've got all our stuff at the house.

Of course, I thank God that I felt good and was able to do what I could. Debbie was amazing! She works and works and doesn't stop until she is literally ready to drop. She will be up and right back at it in the morning. 

I expect I'll have a similar daily summary tomorrow, until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 30, 2020 - Monday

Psalm 73:28 "But as for me, the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge, That I may tell of all Your works."

Today started off great! Praise God!! I felt good until mid-afternoon, I started feeling bad and decided to go home. I felt  yucky until sometime after dinner when I started feeling quite a bit better. I meet with Logan this morning then worked on several admin duties until leaving around 3:00.

Debbie went to her office today and when she got home we went to pick up our grocery order. When we got back home we had dinner and settled in for the evening. All-in-all it was a good day, I just had a few hours of yucky. 

We are planning on moving into the new home tomorrow. Please pray and thank God for those who will be helping us. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 29, 2020 - Sunday

Psalm 86:3 "Be gracious to me, O Lord, For to You I call all day long."

I woke up feeling pretty good again, thank you, Jesus. I got around and headed to church a little after 9:00. Debbie stayed home to watch services online, we do try to be careful about being in public. This is now the second Sunday for us to have online 'only' worship service. It was nice to have communion added back in to the service. As this quarantine goes on, we will most likely try to add some more of our normal worship service elements into the online service. For now, there seem to be a couple of technical issues that need some attention.

I have felt fatigued the last couple of days so I've had a few more naps than usual. Aside from the fatigue, I still struggle with the stomach issues, but they don't seem to be as bad as they have been. I am so looking forward to having an extra week off of chemo this time around. We won't know if there will be more chemo treatments until we visit with the oncologist on April 10. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

March 28, 2020 - Saturday

John 20:31 "but these have been written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God; and that believing you may have life in His name."

Once again, I am happy to report a fairly good day. Debbie and I went to Guthrie this morning to pick up our taxes and to get our appliance dolly from the storage unit. Since the appliance store would not set up our appliances our Mustang kids came up to get us all hooked up. I didn't do much, I can't do much, but what I did wore me out. When we got home this afternoon I took a two-hour nap. After my nap I spent the next few hours preparing tomorrow's message.

It looks like we will have church online again tomorrow, I hope you'll all join us. We are going to celebrate the Lord's Supper tomorrow so if you have some crackers/bread and juice/wine please plan to celebrate the life, death and resurrection of our Lord. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 27, 2020 - Friday

1 Timothy 2:5 "For there is one God, and one mediator also between God and men, the man Christ Jesus."

Today was a pretty good day, thank you, Jesus! Debbie and I picked up a few supplies in Guthrie before heading to the cancer institute. At the cancer institute I had my pump removed. I appreciate what the chemo does, but I sure don't miss the pump. We came home for the afternoon and waited to hear from the appliance company as to what time our appliances would be delivered.

When we received the call concerning the appliance delivery we headed over to the new house to wait for them. The delivery men are not allowed to enter the home now, due to the corona virus, so they just unloaded our appliances into the garage. 

As usual these days, we spent the evening in. I'm happy to report that I feel better than I did following the last treatment. We'll see how the weekend goes. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 26, 2020 - Thursday

Psalm 103:12 "As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us."

Today I felt rather blah. We had to make a couple of trips to town (Crescent), but those were quick ones. For most of the day I worked on Sunday's message. I am looking forward to having the pump removed tomorrow and hopefully feeling better. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 25, 2020 - Chemo Wednesday

Acts 5:30 "The God of our fathers raised up Jesus, whom you had put to death by hanging Him on a cross."

Thank God for another good night and a great start to the day! We arrived at the cancer institute about 8:30 this morning. The first thing is to have blood drawn then down the hall to meet with the oncologist. Once again, my platelets were a little low. Since they have been low nearly every time the doctor said we could go ahead and have the treatment. Then we discussed what was ahead.

The doctor said he would like to give this treatment (#10) about two weeks to do what it will do against the cancer then I will have a CT scan. So, the next scan is scheduled for April 7. When we met with the radiologist (March 13) he told us that he would like the case to be brought before the tumor board again,the oncologist agreed. The tumor board will meet on April 9. On April 10 Debbie and I will have our next appointment with the oncologist. During that appointment we will be updated on the effectiveness of the chemo then we will hear the suggestions of the tumor board. At that time, we will determine what comes next. As of right now we are only aware of two options; more chemo or move to a chemo pill and radaition. 

God knows what's next, we pray that He will remove the tumor completely. If that is not His plan, we trust Him to lead us and the medical professionals He has given us to make the right decisions considering my health. 

Debbie and I are so thankful to God for HIs healing work. We are very thankful to all of you for the countless prayers, constant support and encouragement. And we are thankful for our oncology healthcare professionals, they have been amazing.

It's been a long battle and it's not over yet, but we know God is working a miracle and because He is, we ask that you all continue the prayers as we believe they are the answer, thank you! 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 24, 2020 - Tuesday

Psalm 62:2 "He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken. 

Praise God for another good night's sleep and waking up feeling good! Two days in a row I arrived early (for me) to the office. It was a busy day for me. I had a lot to get done as I'll be out the rest of the week. On top of the things that had to get done we are trying to make preparations for working from home. During this time, I'm also working on ways to stay connected to our church family. 

Today was Debbie's half day at her office. She got off at noon went home and made lunch to bring up to the church. We enjoyed ham sandwiches at my desk. After she left I continued working through the issues of the day. 

I felt great today, thank you Jesus! Again I'm praying for a good night's sleep for both of us as tomorrow I have treatment number 10. We are thinking that the chemo treatments might be coming to an end, at least the IV ones. The last time we spoke with the doctor we got the impression that he might move me to a chemo pill and radiation. I guess we'll find out more tomorrow; until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 23, 2020 - Monday

2 Corinthians 1:20 "For as many as are the promises of God, in Him they are yes; therefore also through Him is our Amen to the glory of God through us."

Thank God for a good night's sleep! I woke up feeling really god I got around rather quickly (for me) and made it in to the office earlier than I have in quite a while. I put in nearly a full day and felt good the whole time. Debbie also went to her office for the day.

Later this afternoon Debbie and I met at the house to see how the carpeting was coming along. Have I mentioned we're getting excited? Afterwards we went home and had dinner. After dinner, we were able to get in a mile walk, it was nice to be out in the fresh air. 

Today was a good day, praise God! I'm looking forward to another good night's sleep and another good day tomorrow, to the glory of God! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 22, 2020 - Quiet Sunday

Romans 8:21 "that the creation itself also will be set free from its slavery to corruption into the freedom of the glory of the children of God."

I woke up feeling good and looking forward to church. I knew attendance would be down because we encouraged everyone to stay home and watch online. It was very awkward preaching to 10 people and a camera, but we made it through. Actually, we all kinds of technical difficulties and got started about 15 - 20 minutes late; I hope no one gave up. 

After church I stopped by the house to get Debbie and we ran to Guthrie for some more supplies. Afterwards we returned home for lunch and a nap. After I woke up we went for a short walk, but it was kind of chilly out there. The rest of the evening we just hung out at home. I guess we'll be doing a lot of that the next week or two. I am happy to report that I have felt good all day, thank you Jesus!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! -- Missing you all!!

 

March 21, 2020 - Saturday

1 Corinthians 1:18 "For the word of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God."

There isn't much to write today as Debbie and I stayed home all day. Knowing we were not going out of the house today, we slept in this morning. When we finally did get up and around Debbie cleaned house while I worked on Sunday's message. I felt better today. I'm thinking that maybe the improving trend will continue at least until Wednesday when I have chemo again. I hope so. 

Hope you will all join us online for tomorrow's live stream service. You can find it at fcccrescent.org under the "Watch Live" tab. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 20, 2020 - Friday

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 "Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. For momentary light affllction is producing in us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal."

I was feeling a little less yucky today, but still not where I would like to be. Debbie and I made a trip to the pharmacy to pick up a couple of my prescriptions this morning. We had lunch at home and I worked on Sunday's message for a while. Later this afternoon we ran to Guthrie to pick up an online order. That's kind of nice; you fill out your order online and when you arrive you call a number and out they come with your order. All we had to do was pop the trunk and they loaded the order for us. It was a completely hands-free experience and we didn't have to risk being exposed to a bunch of people.

The rest of the day and evening we stayed in and expect to stay in tomorrow as well. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 19, 2020 - Thursday

1 Peter 1:23 "for you have been born again not of seed which is perishable but imperishable, that is, through the living and enduring word of God."

This week hasn't been the best, but I am thankful that it sure hasn't been the worst. Like many weeks before this week, it has been one of ups and downs with a few pretty rough spots. So thankful to have the love of God, my wife, family, church family and friends. Today, was perhaps a little better in some ways, but I did have a rather uncomfortable afternoon. Thankfully this evening has been better. 

I sure did miss our Bible study group and I hate that we won't be able to gather as the church family for at least two weeks. Sunday's mean so much to me, not the day, but the time with my brothers and sisters in Christ. As this virus spreads we must all be so careful. Though I don't "feel" like I'm at risk, the reality is I'm a double risk considering my age and my compromised immune system due to the chemo. The risk is real and it is all around us, so please, limit your exposure. Stay home! 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 18, 2020 - Wednesday

Ephesians 1:7 "In Him we have redemption in His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of His grace."

After a rather rough night, I was able to sleep in a little this morning. Debbie left about 8:00 for her office while I slept until my phone chimed a little after 8:30. After getting around, I went to Guthrie to pick up a breakfast sandwich and of course a donut. When I got back to Crescent I stopped to pick up the mail before heading to the office. I felt 'so-so' with some stomach discomfort throughout most of the day.

At noon I met Debbie and our builder to go over a few things. The builder told us the house would be complete by March 30, yeah!! Needless to say, we can hardly wait. Following the meeting I returned to the office as Debbie went for lunch with her sisters. 

I had a relatively productive afternoon even with the stomach trouble. As evening came I had some troubles similar to last night, fortunately it was earlier this evening and hopefully I'll be able to get to sleep at a reasonable time tonight. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 17, 2020 - Tuesday

Hebrews 10:20 "by a new and living way which He inaugurated for us through the veil, that is, His flesh,"

So today was ok. I didn't feel great, but I didn't feel really bad either. Debbie had her full day at the office, I got around and went into my office. Nothing really special about today one way or another. I was able to get some admin items taken care of as well as getting a little done on Sunday's message. 

This evening, about bedtime, which is before 9:00 these days, things went south on me. Of course, the stomach issues and related events started. I was in a great deal of pain and Debbie, bless her heart, woke up to hold and comfort me. It was a long two hours, but things finally settled down and I was able to get to sleep about midnight. Maybe things will be better tomorrow. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 16, 2020 - Monday

John 4:14 "but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him shall never thirst; but the water that I will give him will become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life."

I woke up feeling really good this morning. That is not unusual, typically as the day gets going my stomach starts hurting. While that was the case today, I felt pretty good otherwise. This morning we had our weekly staff meeting the rest of the day was business as usual. 

This evening, Debbie and I ran some more hardware items over to the house. We are expecting the plumbers in the morning. They will be hooking up appliances, faucets etc. We're another day closer.

Another rather uneventful day (thankfully). Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! - Please be safe out there.

 

March 15, 2020 - Sunday

Titus 3:5 "He saved us, not on the basis of deeds which we have done in righteousness, but according to His mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewing by the Holy Spirit,"

It's Sunday and fortunately I usually feel good on Sundays, at least part of the day. I had Billy give the message today because I wasn't sure how I would feel. My friends Jared and Bethany led our music today, it was nice to have them back with us. Following the service, we had a fellowship Irish Stew luncheon. The membership ministry team did another great job getting us all fed. As lunch was ending we played a game or two of bingo. 

Debbie and I had to make another run to the city for a couple of things for the house. It was a good day all-in-all even though I didn't feel great. I am looking forward to feeling better with each new day. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! -- PLEASE be careful out there!!

 

March 14, 2020 - Saturday

Job 10:12 "You have granted me life and lovingkindness; And Your care has preserved my spirit."

It's been a quiet day around the house. Debbie and I ran into town late this morning to get the mail and take care of a couple of things at the church. After that we ran by the new house to drop off some fixtures. Since it was noon we came home for a bite to eat. 

This afternoon Debbie went to the city to get some supplies, many of which were out of stock. I stayed home, I just felt punky all day. After dinner we made another run by the house to drop off a few more things. Not a very exciting day, but this too shall pass. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 13, 2020 - Friday

Deuteronomy 32:4 "The Rock! His work is perfect, For all His ways are just; A God of faithfulness and without injustice, Righteous and upright is He."

We had to get up at out this morning as we had to be at the cancer institute at 8:00. We met with the radiologist and learned what all would be involved with radiation treatments. This is the most likely next step after the chemo has done the best it can do. If we decide on radiation we will have to go to the cancer institute every week day for 28 to 30 treatments. We are trusting God to lead us as before long we will have to make some changes to the treatment routine.

After our meeting with the radiologist we went upstairs to the infusion room to have my portable pump removed. Free, once again! Afterwards we grabbed some lunch made a stop or two before heading to the church. I had to work on a few things at the office, we ended up spending most of the rest of the afternoon there. 

I starting feeling bad so well so we called it an early day and headed home. Tonight was yet another night of relaxing around the house. Looking forward to getting out for a while tomorrow.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 12, 2020 - Bible Study Thursday

Our day started out just right. We got around and left the house to head to church for our mid-week Bible study. We made a quick stop for a breakfast sandwich on the way in. Not knowing how I would feel for sure I had asked Diane to lead the study today. What a great time! We learned so much and I was so relaxed that I asked Diane to lead for the remainder of the study. Everyone participated, we had a lot of good discussion. 

After Bible study we enjoyed a brief time of fellowship as we recognized those individuals whose birthdays are in March. Next week we are looking forward to going to lunch in OKC then on to see the movie "I Still Believe". 

Debbie and I grabbed a sandwich for lunch. We had to run by the house to grab some papers as we are preparing for the big upcoming move. I met with Logan briefly this afternoon and wrapped things up at the office about 5:00. 

This evening has been like many others as we relaxed and watched some television. Today was another good feeling day. When I have these good days, I realize all the more how important those prayers have been and how God does in fact bring comfort and healing. I have so much to be thankful for; especially the thing I once took for granted - good health. Thank you, Jesus!

Tomorrow we are meeting with the radiologist first thing in the morning. A little later I will have the pump removed. Once again we seek your prayers concerning our ongoing treatment. We want to hear from God and the direction He has for us. Thank you!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 11, 2020 - Wednesday Treatment Day

Romans 5:10 "For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having heaving been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life."

Debbie and I got up early to head to the city for the treatment routine. First, I have blood drawn then we go meet with the doctor. Some of my counts were a little low, but the doctor thought I could take the treatment. Four and a half hours later, treatment number 9 was officially in the books. Except for that which continues through the portable pump for the next 48 hours. Now to see how the side effects will be over the next two weeks. Again, we appreciate your prayers!

After treatment we got a bite to eat and stopped to pick up some household supplies before heading home for the evening. Fortunately, things went well and today was another day of feeling good. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 10, 2020 - Good Day Tuesday

2 Timothy 2:13 "If we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot deny Himself."

Oh, if every day could be as good as today. I went in to the office this morning and took care of a few things before heading to OKC shorlty after noon. I spent the afternoon running errands etc. I felt so good. I picked Debbie up a little before 5:00 and we had dinner before picking up her car from the shop. 

When we got home this evening we dropped a car off and went to check on progress at the house. So thankful to God for such a good day! Tomorrow is treatment #9 we appreciate your continued prayers. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 9, 2020 - Monday

Deuteronomy 7:21 "You shall not dread them, for the LORD your GOD is in your midst, a great and awesome GOD."

I didn't feel very good this morning so I stayed in bed a littl onger than usual. I did get up and gone by 10:00 so I could makr our weekly staff meeting at 10:30. As the day went on I did begin to feel a little better, but as evening came things went back down hill. 

I was a little disappointed since the past few days I had been feeling better. I know this happens and I'm hopeful that tomorrow will be better. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 8, 2020 - Sunday

Hebrews 2:4 "God also testifying with them, both by signs and wonders and by various miracles and by gifts of the Holy Spirit according to His own will."

You know I love Sunday's and today was a very good one. Though fighting this cold, I felt so good today. We had a great service followed by our monthly board meeting. At 12:30 Debbie and I hit the door to head for OKC. After a special luncheon with our praise team we made a quick stop at Lowes to return a couple of items and then back to Crescent. 

A little later I did have some minor stomach issues, which I thought were cleared up, but I guess not. At any rate, things have been good for the past three days! A big shout out to Jesus! Thank you, Lord!! 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 7, 2020 - Saturday

Psalm 69:34 "Let heaven and earth praise Him, The seas and everything that moves in them."

This morning I felt pretty good once again, praise God! I worked at home until the early afternoon on a graveside service and Sunday's message. I had to be out at the cemetery a little before 3:00 this afternoon. Things went well and I was able to hold up for the hour I was out there in the crazy Oklahoma wind.

This evening Debbie and I went by the house. It is getting close to being ready and we are both ready to get in and get settled. Afterwards we picked up a pizza to eat at home. 

I am so thankful to God and for all of you who are keeping us in your prayers for these days that I feel well. It seems there are not near enough of them lately. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 6, 2020 - TGIF

Deuteronomy 10:21 "He is your praise and He is your God, who has done these great and awesome things for you which your eyes have seen."

After a rough day yesterday and a restless night I felt better this morning. I ran up to the office to grab some notes so I could work at home today. A couple of the grandkids spent the night last night and the day with us today. I worked on Sunday's message while the kids played, Debbie attended a luncheon in Edmond. About 1:30 the kids took me for a walk :) we walked a mile and a half and my legs are feeling it. It was such a nice day and felt so good to be outside. 

Later this afternoon, we all loaded up and ran by the house to check out the progress on the tile work. We took a quick trip to Guthrie to the store and then for burgers and ice cream. After the kids went home Debbie and I settled in for the evening. So thankful for feeling so much better today! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 5, 2020

Psalm 118:29 "Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; For His lovingkindness is everlasting."

Today started out a little questionable, sadly, it didn't get a whole lot better. We attended the midweek Bible study which is always a good time. I spent about an hour in my office before Debbie and I went to lunch. This afternoon I grabbed a short nap in the recliner and was able to do some reading. I was having some trouble (stomach) and had a hard time getting focused to study.

This evening I ate lighter than usual. It has just been a difficult day all around. I laid down about 7:00, though I relaxed, I wasn't able to get any sleep. I did feel a little bit better when I got up a little before 9:00. Unfortunately, I've caught a cold and that doesn't help things. 

Today, was rough, but we continue to trust and lean into God. He is doing some amazing things! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

March 4, 2020 - Hump Day

James 5:13 "Is anyone among you suffering? Then he must pray. Is anyone cheerful? He is to sing praises."

Today was one of those up and down days. I didn't feel too bad, just kind of yucky a lot of the day. Unfortunately, I think I may be coming down with a cold. I was able to get a lot of work done as I was parked at my desk from 10:00 until 6:00 with a 30-minute break to run by the house. 

Debbie brought lunch by about 1:30, but I wasn't really feeling much like eating. I did manage to eat about half of the sandwich and a few chips. After that we ran by the house to check on the tile work progress. I wasn't feeling all that well so we made a quick trip of it.

Late this afternoon I was probably at the lowest point of the day. I took a pain pill, grabbed a book, my note pad and crawled up in the recliner for a good hour or so of reading. During that time, I started to feel better. 

I got home a little after 6:30, but didn't feel like eating much. It seems like every time I eat my stomach revolts so I'm going to try some protein shakes and see how it goes and limit the 'hard' food for a day or two. We'll see, I'll keep you posted.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 3. 2020 - Tuesday

John 15:12 "This is My commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you."

Things were off to a great start this morning. Debbie went in to her office and I went into church. After a time of visitation and meeting briefly with Logan I picked up a sandwich. I began to study and work on this week's message. Bill came by this afternoon and we worked on Bible study questions. I left the office about 4:00 to vote and make a home visitation. 

Today was a good day, keeping in mind that a good day doesn't mean a pain free day. I just felt really good otherwise, thank you, Jesus! I am learning to really appreciate the good days. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 2, 2020 - It's Monday

Isaiah 35:3 "Encourage the exhausted, and strengthen the feeble."

Today was probably as good a day as I could hope have through these treatments. On my way into church this morning Debbie and I stopped by the house to meet briefly with the builder. After arriving at church, I was able to get a few admin tasks knocked out before we had our weekly staff meeting. After our meeting I had to make tracks to the city. 

I attended a luncheon meeting sponsored by Spire Network a network of Christian churches and Churches of Christ (formerly known as the NACC). We had a very nice lunch and informative meeting. After the meeting several of the ministers played Top Golf. I did take several practice hits off the tee. It felt good to exert a little extra energy, but I tired quickly. 

Debbie and I were so blessed to pull up to our house yesterday and find our pile of trees being removed. Some guys from church and the community pitched in to clear out all of the trees we had stacked up from when the dirt work was done on our lot. Not only did they clean up that big mess they were kind enough to take out a bunch of cedar trees on the north side of our lot. It looks so much better. We are so grateful for your time and hard work. Thank you just doesn't adequately convey our gratitude to you men. What a great job and one that we would have never been able to complete on our own. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

March 1, 2020 - Another Sunny Sunday

Colossians 3:14 "Beyond all these things put on love, which is the perfect bond of unity."

Here we are back at Sunday already. We had a good group for church this morning though a few of our regulars were missing. While I felt alright I was just a little off. We got through church just fine and Debbie and I made our way to lunch in Guthrie. 

I was pretty tired and of course my stomach was not feeling too good. After lunch I came home to relax. Debbie and her sister-in-law made a trip to the city (the house lights again). I had elders meeting at 7:00, but got to the office at 6:00 to get things ready.

Our meeting was going along very well, about half way through I noticed that I was feeling really good. It was as if a switch was turned on or off. I had a rough go through the afternoon, but come evening I was feeling much better, thank you, Jesus! 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 29,2020 - Fellowship Saturday

1 John 3:2 "Beloved, now we are children of God, it has not appeared as yet what we will be. We know that when He appears, we will be like Him, because we will see Him just as He is."

As the day began I was feeling really good. I attended the men's fellowship breakfast at 7:30 this morning. We had a nice breakfast and devotion along with a time of fellowship. After the men's meeting I did some work in the office while waiting on Debbie who was attending the women's brunch. 

We went by the house to make sure we had all of our lighting fixtures labeled for the electricians and to double check we had all that we needed. Naturally, we didn't have any light bulbs so off we went to OKC for one more light fixture and a bunch of light bulbs. Once again, after lunch I started feeling bad. I was able to push through long enough for us to get the things we had come to OKC for.

I have to keep in mind that typically the third/fourth day after chemo are usually the most difficult ones. By the grace of God I am hopeful that tomorrow will be better.

This evening I finished studying for the tomorrow's message. I have Logan on standby just in case I am not feeling well in the morning. I'm pretty optimistic though because usually the mornings are the best time of day for me other than when I'm sleeping:) Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 28, 2020 - Pump Removal Friday

Romans 8:2 "For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death."

As we had anticipated the pump started to run low by 9:00 this morning. Debbie and I got around and headed to the cancer institute to have the pump removed. Afterwards we had some lunch before heading back to Crescent.

What started out as a really good day once again "went south" on me this afternoon. Fortunately, by evening I was feeling a little better. Even in the worse part of the day I felt alright just had those pesky stomach issues. I expect that will be a way of life as long as the chemo treatments continue.

Thank you for your continued prayers. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 27, 2020 - Thursday

Mark 1:27 "They were all amazed, so that they debated among themselves, saying, "What is this? A new teaching with authority! He commands even the unclean spirits, and they obey Him."

My day started at 4:30 a.m. I woke up and was unable to get back to sleep. I finally got out of bed a little before 6:00 and went to work on this week's message. Debbie was awake when I woke up, but she was able to get a little more sleep. 

We had breakfast and had to head to OKC for a meeting. Unfortunately, we had to miss Bible study. We got back to Crescent early this afternoon and spent the remainder of the day at church. 

As I mentioned yesterday, we decided to cut out one of the chemo's (I've been taking three). I felt so much better after the treatment and again today, I'm hopeful that this trend will continue. 

I think my short night is starting to catch up with me... Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 26, 2020 - Treatment Day and CT Scan Results

Luke 1:64 "And at once his mouth was opened and his tongue loosed, and he began to speak in praise of God."

Today was a big day for me and Debbie. It started early in the office of our oncologist. We received news that the tumor had been reduced by a total of 32% - 1/3 gone; Praise God!!! The doctor recommended that we consult with a radiologist concerning the possibility of treating the tumor with radiation. In the meantime, we'll continue with the chemo. As it stands, there will be three more treatments including todays before the next scan. The doctor agreed to stop the one of the chemo meds, the one that has been causing the bulk of the difficult side effects. By leaving that chemo out, the treatment time will be reduced by an hour to an hour and a half and reduce some of the most difficult side effects. Hopefully, the remaining chemo's will continue to produce positive results. I must say that I have felt better during and after today's treatment than I have following any of the past treatments; praise God!

Our prayer is that God will give the doctor and us the wisdom to make the right decisions and that the chemo will continue to cause the tumor to shrink. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

February 25, 2020 - CT Scan Tuesday

Matthew 4:23 "Jesus was going throughout all Galilee, teaching in their synagogues and proclaiming the gospel of the kingdom, and healing every kind of disease and every kind of sickness among the people."

First stop this morning, Guthrie for a breakfast sandwich and a donut. Then off to the city. I took Debbie to her office and ran some errands until she got off at noon. 

We had to report to the cancer institute at 2:00 for lab work and CT scan. All that went well. We met with some friends for an early dinner and a nice visit. After dinner, Debbie and I returned to the hotel. Today has been the best day I've had over the past two weeks, praise God!

We will meet with the oncologist first thing in the morning to get the lab work and scan results. Based on those, results the doctor will determine whether of not I can receive chemo and any adjustments to the regimen. Please join with us as we pray that I will be able to have a lower dose of chemo. We are also praying that the tumor will be gone! Thank you so much! You all have been so supportive and encouraging, we are truly blessed to have such a wonder extended family. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!  .

 

February 24, 2020 - Monday

Colossians 1:5 "He predestined us to adoption as sons through Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the kind intention of His will,"

As far as the days go, thankfully today was a little better. This morning Debbie left for her office and I headed to the church. I had a good meeting with Logan and Courtney then Judy and I left for some training on our church membership software in OKC.

After dropping Judy off at her car, I went up to the museum fundraiser to pick up dinner for Debbie and me. Tomorrow I will have a CT scan and Wednesday a chemo treatment. Once again, we are asking for our prayer warriors to be in prayer that the tumor is gone, to the glory of God. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 23, 2020 - Love My Sunday's 

Matthew 11:28 "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest."

Once again, our day was off to a good start. We got to church and finished up a few last-minute details before heading over to join the gang for breakfast. So thankful to those who get up early and spend their own money to provide this special fellowship time before Sunday school. 

As always, it was great to be at church and spending time with the saints of God. After church we attended the Pairs and Spares class luncheon, but by that time my stomach had begun to give me trouble. I didn't feel like eating, but I did have a good time of fellowship. 

Debbie and I got home about 2:00 and I put my pj's on hoping to catch a nap and expecting to be in the rest of the day. As the day went on my stomach got worse. I got really discouraged, but my sweet Debbie held me and reassured me. She has been so very good to me and I am so thankful that God has provided so much comfort and reassurance through her. By early evening I was starting to feel a little better.

We have a big week health-wise. On Tuesday I have a CT scan, Wednesday we will visit with the oncologist then have a chemo treatment. We are asking that our prayer warriors be praying that the tumor is gone to the glory of God. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 22, 2020 - Saturday

1 Thessalonians 2:13 "For this reason we also thank God that when you received the word of God which you heard from us, you accepted it not as the word of men, but for what it really is, the word of God, which also performs its work in you who believe."

After a good night's sleep Debbie and I were up and out shortly after 8:00 this morning. We attended the stock show in Guthrie to watch Kealie show her sheep, she did really well. Afterward I met Logan at the church to go over Sunday's message.

Debbie and I ran to Edmond to get some groceries and returned home by late afternoon. I managed pretty well all day, but as has been the routine of late started having those stomach issues again after dinner. Fortunately, they weren't as bad as they have often been this past week. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 21, 2020 - Friday

1 Corinthians 14:33 " for God is not a God of confusion, but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints."

Yay! Today was much better, though I had a little trouble for a couple of hours later in the day. I'll take that over what the past 8 days have been like. I sure hope the doctor feels like it's safe to scale back my next treatment. I guess we'll find out next Wednesday.

Debbie and I took care of some business matters this morning and I went on into the office at about 11:00 a.m. I was able to get a lot done on Sunday's message which I'm so thankful for. 

We had Cason with us this evening. We took him to the elementary school dance then ran by the house to check on the painting progress. It was just a little dark to be able to see very well so we'll try a little earlier tomorrow. 

At 8:00 we ran back to town to pick Cason up. We returned home and settled in for a mostly pleasant evening. 

Thank you all for the many prayers, I would not have near the strength, comfort and encouragement without them. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 20, 2020 - Bible Study Thursday

2 Timothy 2:15 "Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth."

The day was off to a good start thank you, Jesus. I felt better than I have for the last week. I made a quick trip to Guthrie for a breakfast sandwich and some goodies for the Bible study group. We have such a great time reading and discussing God's word. 

After Bible study I met with Logan to discuss this Sunday's message and just visit a bit. Following our meeting, Debbie and I went to lunch. when I got back to the office I got busy working on the message. Unfortunately, the stomach issues came back in a big way. It was pretty from about 3:00 until nearly 10:00 this evening. Here's praying for a good nights sleep and a better tomorrow. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 19, 2020 - Hump Day

2 Corinthians 1:3 "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of all mercies and God of all comfort,"

The story is getting old, for the last week one day has been the same as the next. I just don't seem to feel any better since the treatment last week. I did go into the office this morning and had the opportunity to visit with a couple of people. Debbie and I had a meeting with our builder at noon, afterwards I returned to the office. Due to my discomfort, I went home about midafternoon. 

Again, I would ask that you continue to prayer and I am optimistic that I will get feeling better soon. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 18, 2020 - Tuesday

Romans 8:38-39 "For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." 

This morning started off well, Debbie went into her office and I went to church. Unfortunately, by late morning the stomach cramps returned and just seemed to slowly get worse as the day went along.

Bill came by and we were able to get the next chapter of the Bible study done. It always feels good to check things off the list. It was Debbie's half day so she picked up lunch and brought it to church. I was able to get a few more things done before I needed to head home for some rest as we were planning on attending B.C. Clark's annual sales and awards banquet this evening. However, around 3:00 I was really hurting and realized that there was no way we could make it to the banquet. We were so looking forward to being with the B.C. Clark family. I have been associated with them since the late 1990's, they too, are like our extended family. 

So, tonight ended up being another evening to relax. The issues with my stomach didn't lighten up until after 9:00 this evening. Here's to a better tomorrow. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 17 - Monday

Psalm 146:8 " The LORD opens the eyes of the blind; the LORD raises up those who are bowed down; The LORD loves the righteous."

Here it is Monday already. Once again, I wake up feeling good and head off to church. Within an hour or so the stomach cramps return. We had our weekly staff meeting and then went about our tasks for the day. For me, it was sermon information gathering time. I spent most of the afternoon working on that. 

So, I didn't feel great, but that's not all that unusual so I push through. I got quite a bit done today so I headed home a little earlier. I was thinking about taking a nap when I got home, but the weather was so nice and I haven't been out for a walk in several weeks. I managed to walk a mile in the neighborhood. It felt good even though I didn't. 

Debbie and I had a nice dinner then stopped by to wish Carter a happy birthday as we have plans for tomorrow night (his actual birthday). We were able to settle in by 8:00 and relax the rest of the evening. That's what I seem to do best these days, relax.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 16, 2020 - Sunday

Romans 12:1 "Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God to present you bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship."

Like usual, it was another great Sunday. That is, for the early part. Debbie and I enjoyed church and seeing our church family. Afterwards we went to Guthrie for lunch. In the meantime, my stomach started giving me trouble again. I can't wait till the day I don't have to deal with all of these side-effects, but I have to keep in mind the big picture; the treatments are working.

After lunch we came home and I crawled into bed for the rest of the afternoon. We had a light dinner and stayed in for the evening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 15, 2020 - Saturday

John 4:24 "God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth."

I woke up feeling pretty good this morning, but it wasn't long until I started having stomach cramps which have lasted all day. Debbie went to breakfast with her sisters and I just took it easy around the house and got started on next week's message. Late this afternoon we took a drive to check out the house, as the painters finished their work on the outside today. 

Debbie was feeling the effects of a full day (meaning she over did it) so we settled in early this evening. I sure hope we can make it to church tomorrow, we'll see how things go overnight. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 14, 2020 - Valentine's Day

John 1:4 "In Him was life, and the life was the Light of men."

This morning we were slow getting around, but feeling alright. When we finally got around we ran to town to get the mail and then by to check on the house. After that we headed to OKC for a couple of other errands before going to the cancer institute to have the pump removed. While we were at the cancer institute we stopped by the doctor's office to get the results from Wednesday's lab work. Once again, we are praising God as the tumor marker has come down to 34 which is now into normal range (less than 37). 

After the pump removal we stopped for some lunch and then headed home. By the time we got home I was ready for a nap. Unfortunately, about the time we got home the side-effects from this week's treatment had started. Hopefully they won't get too bad. 

Debbie and I didn't have a 'traditional' Valentine's Day, but we did get to spend the day together. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 13, 2020 - Pump Day Thursday

Galatians 3:13 "Christ redeemed us from the curse of the Law, having become a curse for us--for it is written, 'CURSED IS EVERYONE WHO HANGS ON A TREE--'" 

Not too much to report today. Like usual, after chemo, when I have the pump we stay pretty close to home. Erin and Ashley came by for a visit and Diane stopped by and brought us some cake from the Bible study February birthday recognition. It was nice having the company. 

This afternoon I had a nice nap. As evening approached my stomach issues returned. Hopefully they will be short lived. 

Debbie and I don't expect to have a big Valentines celebration, but we are looking forward to getting the pump removed tomorrow. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 12, 2020 - Treatment Day

Zephaniah 3:17 "The Lord your God is in your midst, A victorious warrior. He will exult over you with joy, He will be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy."

Our lab and treatment were scheduled for 11:30 a.m. so we were slow to get around this morning. About 8:00 the phone rang and the cancer institute asked if we could come in at 10:00 instead of 11:30. We are always about getting it done, the sooner the better. We hustled to get ready and out the door. We went through Guthrie to pick up some breakfast sandwiches.

Upon arrival at the cancer institute we checked in for lab work then headed to the doctor's office. When I checked in with the doctor's receptionist I learned that we didn't have to see the doctor today. I was kind of bummed out because I wanted to hear what he had to say about the latest tumor marker. I guess it will be two more weeks till we see him.

Next up will be a CT scan on February 25 followed by what should be the last of these aggressive treatments on the 26th. We sure need the prayers for the CT scan, we are so looking to God to cure this cancer! 

We got home about 5:00. and expect to just relax for the rest of the evening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 11, 2020 - Tuesday

Psalms 92:4 "For You, O LORD, have made me glad by what You have done, I will sing for joy at the works of Your hands."

This morning I took Debbie to her dentist appointment before coming into the office. After getting to the office I got busy with mail and admin duties. I enjoyed lunch with a friend in town. This afternoon I was able to get our Bible study questions typed up for the next chapter. 

I am starting to feel so much better and looking forward to getting back in the groove. I made a couple of phone calls and managed two visits today. I have been missing making the hospital and residence visits. It will be a little longer before I'll get to make hospital calls, but I'm so ready mentally to get plugged back into that part of the ministry.

I am happy to report that Debbie is almost back to normal, she is so much stronger and gaining every day. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 10, 2020 - Happy Monday

Psalms 84:2 "My soul longed and even yearned for the courts of the LORD; My heart and my flesh sing for joy to the living God."

Debbie left early this morning for her surgery follow-up and then to her office. I stopped to pick up a breakfast sandwich on my way to the church. We had our staff meeting and I had a nice lunch with a friend. Bill came in this afternoon and we worked on Bible study questions. 

Praise God, Debbie's follow-up went well. Praise God the side effects I experienced yesterday had subsided. Debbie and I met at 5:00 to check the progress on the house. The painters are now doing their thing. Following that we made our way to town for some pizza. While in the car, Debbie checked the Integris medical sight for updates. We are praising God again, as the chemo marker has dropped to 46! We are continuing to thank and count on Jesus for doing a complete healing. We thank all of you who are praying for us, it's made such a positive difference. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 9, 2020 - Sunday

Psalms 99:9 "Exalt the LORD our God And worship at His holy hill, For holy is the LORD our God."

As is our custom, we got up and around and off to church. I spent time in my office on last minute adjustments to the message then printing off the outlines. Both Debbie and I were feeling pretty good. 

There was a good turnout for worship and it seemed to go very well. I so love connecting with the family of FCC and the opportunity to meet visitors. After church we had a board meeting then it was off to Guthrie for lunch.

We returned home by mid-afternoon. Before long, I started to suffer some unpleasant side-effects. For me, it was an early evening as I laid down about 6:00 and didn't get up the rest of the evening. Thankfully, Debbie is feeling better each day. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

February 8, 2020 - Saturday In The Park

Mark 14:62 "And Jesus said, "I am; and you shall see THE SON OF MAN SITTING AT THE RIGHT HAND OF POWER, and COMING WITH THE CLOUDS OF HEAVEN."

I am happy to report that both Debbie and I had a good day today! This morning, we ran to Guthrie to get a few things out of storage before heading to OKC. We met my sister, sister-in-law and my oncology nurse (she is good friends with my sister) for lunch. We enjoyed visiting for nearly two hours. We're hopeful they will join us for church tomorrow. 

After lunch we had several stops to make before heading back to Crescent. We checked on the house and then called it a day. Both of us were plenty tired. When you get your strength zapped it takes a while to get it back. We both make ourselves go and do because we know that's the only way we'll get our strength back.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 7, 2020 - Friday

Isaiah 55:9 "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts."

Today was my day to take care of some business in OKC. In anticipation of next week's chemo treatment and a couple of doctor appointments, Debbie went in to her office this morning. I managed to finish by early afternoon so I came back to the office for a while. 

Today was a good day for both of us, of course Debbie is still a little sore. She has her post-op follow up on Monday. Hopefully that will go well, your prayers are appreciated. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 6, 2020 - Thursday

Luke 18:16 "But Jesus called for them, saying, 'Permit the children to come to Me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.'"

This would have been a normal Thursday, but we canceled Bible study thinking I would be out from my chemo treatment and Diane was not available. So, I took advantage and got a lot done. Debbie is doing better and better, but still needs to take things slow and easy. I'm so thankful that she is healing so well. I have to keep an eye on her to make sure she doesn't try to do too much:) 

Today was a good day for both of us. Debbie got our weekly groceries (with help from Ashley) and I spent the whole day at the office. Thank you, Lord, for being so good to us and thank you, friends, for your continued prayers and support. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 5, 2020 - No Go Wednesday

Proverbs 16:9 "The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps."

Debbie and I arrived at the cancer institute about 7:45 this morning. As usual, we checked in at the lab then had the line attached to my port and blood drawn. Following that we met with the onocologist. While most of my blood work was good, once again, my platelet count was too low. We had to reschedule treatment #7 for next Wednesday.

After leaving the cancer institute we picked up a few things at the store and had a bit to eat before making our way back to Crescent. I am happy to report that I was finally able to fix my printer issue, yeah!! After talking with Logan, we decided to change who would take which topic for the sermon series, "Reach, Grow, Build". I will be doing the message this Sunday so this afternoon I got off to a good start. You could say I'll be reaching this Sunday:) 

I think the let down of not be able to have the treatment today wore us both out. We had an early dinner and some nice early evening naps on the sofa. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 4, 2020 - Long Lonesome Highway

Psalms 71:18 "And even when I am old and gray, Oh God, do not forsake me, Until I declare Your strength to this generation, Your power to all who are to come."

So, the plan was to take Debbie to work and for me to take care of some business in OKC. After working a couple of hours on Judy's computer yesterday and not getting it fixed I felt it was important to get her back up and running. I dropped Debbie off at her office and made my way to church. I worked on Judy's computer a while and I worked on my computer/printer issues. At 11:20 I hit the highway again to get Debbie for lunch. After lunch I returned to church to pick up where I left off.

Eventually I was able to get the download going that would get Judy's computer back to working right. Unfortunately, I had no success getting my computer to 'find' my printer. By now it was past time for me to leave to pick Debbie up from work. Back down highway 74 I went.

After picking up Debbie we picked up some meds, had dinner and filled the gas tank before getting to the hotel to settle in for the evening. Thankfully, I felt great all day and Debbie keeps getting stronger. 

I had a nice visit with my brother this evening as he filled me in on the events of his first day of chemo. I hate it so much that he and his wife, Jean, are having to go through this, but thankful that perhaps God will use what Debbie and I have gone through to help encourage my brother and his wife. 

Well, tomorrow, assuming my blood work is good, I will receive treatment #7. As always, your prayers are greatly appreciated, please remember Greg and Jean as well. Thank you! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 3, 2020 - Frustrating Monday

3 John 1:2 "Beloved, I pray that in all respects you may prosper and be in good health, just as your soul prospers."

Debbie and I got around a little earlier this morning as she was going to her office as I was mine. First, I had to go to Guthrie to get an egg sandwich and some donuts for our staff meeting. The staff meeting went really well, I so enjoy this team that God has brought together. After that I started on some administration tasks before meeting with our builder at noon. This afternoon it seemed like we had computer issues everywhere. The FLC internet had been down for several days, Judy's Microsoft Office quit working, I lost the connection with my printer. Normally I can get my printer back by just rebooting it and/or my PC, but nothing worked. 

Early afternoon I called my computer friend to help us with the problem at the FLC. While waiting on him I struggled with the issues on my PC. Fortunately, my computer friend discovered our problem and fixed it quickly. After he left I went back to work on Judy's computer. A little after 6:30 this evening I threw in the towel and shut the computers down and left for Guthrie to pick up dinner for me and Debbie. I arrived back home about 7:15 and we sat down to eat.

Both of us had good days today, thank you, Jesus. Debbie was really tired as she continues to get her strength back. I had one of my better appetites to date, eating was fun! 

Tomorrow we will spend the day and night in OKC as we have another early appointment for labs and chemo Wednesday morning. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 2, 2020 - Super Sunday

Ephesians 3:20-21 "Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen."

Thank you, thank you, thank you, to the First Christian Church and the entire Crescent community! Debbie and I are so humbled and overwhelmed by the show of love and support we received today. Moved beyond words to tears as hundreds of people attended the luncheon and auction. From the bottom of our hearts we say thank you, to all who worked, attended and donated to our fundraiser. We never imagined such an incredible turnout. 

Church was such a blessing too, we had a good crowd and I thought the service went really well. Thank God, I was feeling good all day and Debbie is getting stronger and stronger. We were both exhausted by the time the fundraiser was over. 

As we prepare for bed this evening we are in awe of how God does far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think. We know that God's got this, we see His hand at work in our lives in such an incredible way day after day. Thank you, Jesus and thank you friends. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

February 1, 2020 - Sunny Saturday

Isaiah 40:31 "Yet those who wait for the Lord Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary."

Since yesterday was a long day, Debbie decided she would stay in today looking to build up her strength. We have our next chemo treatment in a few days and she needs her strength to take care of me. 

I went to Edmond then Mustang to see a couple of the kids and grandkids and finally had a chance to catch a one of their basketball games.  I had a good day, but I'll be darn if my stomach issues didn't deal me misery a good part of the afternoon. Debbie had a nice quiet day here at home. 

Please pray for us as we mentally, emotionally and spiritually prepare for round #7.  Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

January 31, 2020 - Friday

Psalms 44:8 "In God we have boasted all day long, And we will give thanks to Your name forever. Selah"

Today was a good day for both of us. Well, good for the most part. I took Debbie to work this morning after driving through Missy's for a breakfast sandwich and cinnamon rolls. I set up my laptop at Debbie's office and worked on Sunday's message while she did her thing. About 1:00 we finished up our work and headed to lunch. 

We had a few errands to run, but never imagined we'd be in the city until 4:30. We headed to Crescent to get our mail and to check out progress on the house. I should have gotten Debbie home sooner; the day was entirely too long and she was exhausted. I had some late afternoon stomach issues myself. We didn't get home until 6:00. We quickly put dinner together and found our spots on the sofa to settle in for the evening.

We are looking forward to a good night's sleep, soon. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 30, 2020 - Improving

Ephesians 5:9 "(for the fruit of the Light consists in all goodness and righteousness and truth)."

Neither of us slept very well last night, but we got up and around about 7:30. Debbie noticed that her soreness was not quite as bad, for that, we give thanks. I headed into church to attend Bible study and work on Sunday's message. 

I wasn't feeling well enough to lead Bible study, thankfully Diane, is always willing to step up. We had a good study from John chapters 11&12. Afterward I went back to my office to dig into my tasks. As the day went on I started feeling much better, again, thank you Lord. I was able to get quite a bit done before heading home. 

Debbie wants to go into her office to finish up some year end details in the morning. I'm glad she thinks she up to it. I'll take her along with my portable office and be able to do my work at her office. Here's praying that we're both feeling up to it. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 29, 2020 - Lord Be With Our Family

2 Thessalonians 3:16 "Now may the Lord of peace Himself continually grant you peace in every circumstance. The Lord be with you all!

I have a big day ahead, a lot to do along with bringing the message to the youth group tonight. Debbie is still sore and weak so Judy is planning on coming out and staying with her while I go to church.

I received a call from my older brother this morning. I thought maybe he was calling to check on me, he was, but he had also received some bad himself. He had been diagnosed with Esophageal cancer, like pancreatic cancer, it is aggressive and hard to treat. I'm starting to feel a little like Job felt, perhaps. So much, one thing after another. I know God's got this and I trust Him with it completely. It just makes my heart so heavy now anytime I hear of someone going through cancer treatments. 

I didn't go to church until mid-afternoon, but when I got there I got busy. Along with finishing up/touching up this evenings message I had to get our contributions software downloaded and restored, thank the Lord for backups! I also had a few other administrative tasks to see to. As time drew close for the youth to come in I realized I still had a chapter worth of questions I needed to get typed up for tomorrow's Bible study class. My little typing fingers were busy. 

I enjoyed the opportunity to speak with the youth on the topic of why church is important. Many of them seemed very receptive. Because I seem to be very short of breath I had to leave before they finished their church service. I am confident that God accomplished what He set out to do.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 28, 2020 - One Up - One Down

Colossians 2:14 "He canceled the record of charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross." 

Today is day two following Debbie's surgery. She has been sore and sleepy; she didn't sleep too well last night. She does seem to be getting up and around a little better and hopefully be back to herself before long.

I went to the office this morning, had a couple of meetings and went through the mail. I am feeling much better today than the past several, thank you, God. I continued my 'office' duties from home. Working with the people who support our contributions software (remember Judy's computer went down last week) and working on tomorrow evenings message for the youth. 

We were blessed to have another meal brought to the house this evening from a few more of our church friends. A couple of the grandkids stayed with us through most of the evening; they are such good helpers. 

Here's to good days ahead! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 27, 2020 - Healing

Matthew 8:7 "Jesus said to him, 'I will come and heal him.'" 

Debbie was discharged from the hospital this morning, we got back home about 10:30. I had very little sleep last night and Debbie was awake quite a bit. I guess it's true that you don't get good rest in the hospital. 

Today was one of taking it easy and trying to get some rest. We were treated to a nice dinner from a couple of our church friends. Three of our girls helped us out by bringing us home from the hospital, running to the grocery store and doing some house work. Life gets a little tough when you're both down. Thankfully we have a great family, church family and friends to get us over this obstacle. 

Our main prayer at the moment is for strengthening for both of us. If you would join us in that we would greatly appreciate it. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 26, 2020 - The ER

1 Corinthians 8:3 "but if anyone loves God, he is known by Him."

What a day! I wasn't feeling great, but good enough to get through the installation service. I will say it wore me out. The fatigue, as the doctor warned, has gotten worse following chemo. However, I wasn't the "sick" one today, it was Debbie. She had been feeling bad since Friday afternoon. She was hurting all through church and afterwards I told her it was time for me to take her to the hospital (with some help from Karen). I know she felt bad because she won't go to the hospital. We arrived at the ER about 1:30 p.m. after a number of tests and a CT scan the doctor informed us that her gallbladder was infected and needed to come out. She was in surgery a short time later. Praise God, all went well and she was feeling much better by 8:00 p.m. 

We'll spend the night at the hospital and expect to go home in the morning. We are thankful for the many prayer warriors who lifted Debbie in prayer and all who continue to pray for us. Your prayers are providing strength and encouragement for us. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 25, 2020 - Fellowship Saturday

Psalms 55:14 "We who had sweet fellowship together Walked in the house of God in the throng."

Today was men's fellowship and ladies brunch Saturday. After a rough night Debbie decided to stay home this morning. I attended the men's fellowship, which is always a good time. Afterwards, I went to the office to work on getting Judy's new computer up and running. 

Though I was having the all too often stomach issues, I was able to get some of the programs up and running on the new computer. I had really hoped to get some more things done in the office, but I was not up to. 

This afternoon we've just been taking it easy trying to get to feeling better. I'm hopeful for a good night's sleep for both of us and expect it will be an early evening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 24, 2020 - Friday

Ephesians 5:20 "always giving thanks for all things in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God, even the Father:"

Today was pump removal day - Yay!! This morning we went to Best Buy to pick up a new computer for Judy. After that we went to the cancer institute to have the pump taken off. While I felt well enough to be out, I just didn't feel great. 

Before a couple of other stops this afternoon, we ran through the drive through so Debbie could get a burger and fries, I wasn't up to eating. We got home about mid-afternoon. Soon after, Debbie got sick. Now it was my turn to take care of her. I'm nowhere near as good at it as she is, but I did what I could. 

The two of us spent the rest of the day on the sofa with blankets up to our necks sleeping on and off until bed time. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 23, 2020 - Day After Treatment

Philippians 2:10 "so at the name of Jesus EVERY KNEE WILL BOW, of those who are in heaven and on earth and under the earth,"

The day started off really well. Debbie and I ran to town to get the mail and stop in on our Bible study group. After a quick check on the house we ran to Guthrie for a prescription and some groceries. 

Unfortunately, this afternoon things went south on me. The stomach issues returned and that has made for a long afternoon and evening. We would appreciate your prayers that these side-effects would pass quickly. Here's to a better tomorrow...until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 22, 2020 - Treatment Wednesday

Psalms 4:1 "Answer me when I call, O God of my righteousness! You have relieved me in my distress; Be gracious to me and hear my prayer."

We arrived at the cancer institute at 7:20 this morning and immediately went to have the lab work done. Following the blood draw we went to visit the oncologist. The blood work was good so I was cleared to receive treatment #6. I was feeling alright, but suffering with nausea, which continued throughout the day. 

The doctor didn't have much to tell us from the tumor board meeting. His plan for me now is to receive three more treatments (including today's) then have another CT scan before formulating the next steps. He did say that the tumor marker was at a great place (we don't have today's number yet). He told us that it was likely to fluctuate up and down some as we go forward. We should have the latest marker number by the end of the week. 

We remain hopeful in the Lord and thankful for our many prayer warriors. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 21, 2020 - 'Twas the Day Before Treatment #6

Romans 8:16 "The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are children of God,"

Today was yet another good day, thank you, Jesus. Bill came in this morning and we worked on two more chapters for the mid-week Bible Study. Unfortunately, Judy's computer locked up. I had spent some time yesterday working on it with no success. I tried a couple of other things today before giving up and taking it to Best Buy. 

Returning about mid-afternoon I went by the house and got Debbie and our overnight gear. Because of the early appointment time tomorrow we are staying in OKC tonight. 

I went back to the office to finish up the Bible study questions and a couple of small admin tasks. 

Tomorrow is treatment #6 we are hopeful to hear more positive results when we meet with the doctor in the morning. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!
 

January 20, 2020 - Monday

Psalms 95:6 "Come, let us worship and bow down, Let us kneel before the LORD our Maker."

I seem to feel a little better each day. It's been two weeks since the last chemo and the side-effects have been much less than the previous treatments. The doctor did cut back a little on the one chemo that was given me the most trouble. 

Debbie and I are very optimistic concerning the effect the chemo is having on the cancer. We'll meet with the doctor Wednesday morning and look forward to hearing what the tumor board recommended. Thank you for the prayers in advance, we are confident that God is doing big things through this. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!


January 19, 2020 - Sunny Sunday

Psalm 29:2 "Ascribe to the LORD the glory due His name; worship the LORD in a holy array."

Today I arrived at the office early for one last run through on the message. As usual, the FCC family coming together for our weekly gathering was great. Worship service went well (I may have preached a little long). Following our service, the youth had a fund raising luncheon for their upcoming mission trip. It was good to see a nice crowd there in support of our youth program. The FCC family has got be the best there is when it comes supporting ministry events and outreach. They always show up big. 

My stomach was not feeling good so I didn't eat, instead I mingled and visited. When we got home I hit the sofa for a nice little nap before watching one of the playoff games. By late afternoon my stomach felt a little better so Debbie and I went to Guthrie to pick up a pizza (of all things). 

Even through the stomach trouble it was another great Sunday. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 18, 2020 - Saturday at Home

2 Timothy 2:15 "Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needth not be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth." 

This morning Debbie had her monthly sister's breakfast while I moved from the bed to the sofa. I didn't get a real good night's sleep so I expected a nap or two would be necessary to get through the day. Other than two little naps I spent the whole day working on Sunday's message. It took a long time because of all the background I felt was necessary to include. I pray God gets His message out through me. The good thing about today is other than being a little sleepy, I felt really good. 

In the evening Debbie and I enjoyed our time watching a movie. While I didn't go far today I felt like I got a lot accomplished. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 17, 2020 - Rainy Friday

1 Peter 2:24 "and He Himself bore our sins in His body on the cross, so that we might die to sin and live to righteousness; for by His wounds you were healed."

Debbie and I had quite a bit to get down today, the worse weather day of the week. Fortunately, I was physically up to the tasks of the day. We had a quick breakfast in Guthrie then drove to the city to accomplish our mission. From the city back to Crescent and Crescent back to the city. I know many of you know what that's like. 

Before the day ended we checked on the progress of the new house. We are getting increasingly excited about the house as move in day (though still a way off) is drawing nearer. Later in the evening we were talking about the fact that had we known I had cancer we would have never started  the new house project. But last spring ('19) things were falling into place so easily; we got the land bought, sold our house quickly, interviewed builders and by July we had all the main pieces in place and were ready to begin the project. All the while I had been going to doctors in an attempt to figure out what was wrong with me. We broke ground on the house (began building) about mid-August. It would be another 6 - 8 weeks before we received the cancer diagnosis. By this time the house was too far along to consider anything other than finishing it. Not knowing whether or not we would ever get to live there we thought it best to see it through to completion.

In many respects the house project came at a good time. Although, it probably hasn't been as enjoyable as it would have under different circumstances, it has been a good distraction for us. It has also been good as far as keeping us looking ahead. 

We got home about 5:00 and I was wiped out. I hit the sofa with eyes closed for the next hour and a half. While it was a nasty day outside and we were outside all day, it was a good productive day for us. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 16, 2020 - Bible Study Thursday

Colossians 1:15 "Christ is the visible image of the invisible God. He existed before anything was created and is supreme over all creation," 

It was so good to back with the Bible study group this morning. We have so many serious Bible students and it is a joy to share God's word with one another. The morning went great! After Bible study I was ready for a little rest so I grabbed my Bible and notepad and climbed into the recliner. I was able to read several chapters, take a page of notes have two phone conversations and about 30 minutes of sleep all before 2:00. 

Unfortunately, my stomach went south on me this afternoon and carried into the evening. I really hate that because I feel so good. I want to go and do, but these issues keep me close to home. 

I was able to get Sunday's PowerPoint well underway before calling it a day. The nice thing about technology (ICloud) is the ability to open up my laptop at home and continue working. Looks like I have my Saturday morning all lined out.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

January 15, 2020 - Wednesday

1 Peter 5:6 "So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and in His good time He will honor you."

Not much to tell about today, Debbie worked this morning and I had business in OKC. This afternoon we both had dermatologist appointments. We were busy all day and thankfully I was feeling good and able to stay on the go all day. I did have some help from a chair here and there:) 

Thankful to God for these good days. One more week until the next chemo round so I am hopeful we'll get through the upcoming days continuing to feel better. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 14, 2020 - Sleepy Tuesday

Lamentations 3:57 "Yes, you came at my despairing cry and told me, "Do not fear".

While I didn't feel bad, I seemed to have trouble with sleep last night. After breakfast I started feeling yucky (best way I can describe it). I went into the office, but quickly realized that I wasn't going to be able to get much done the way I was feeling. I grabbed my Bible and notepad and climbed into my recliner. I started reading and taking notes for Sunday's message. It wasn't long before my eyes got pretty heavy. After a little nap I continued my reading and note taking. By noon I found myself feeling much better. What I thought might be a bad day turned into a very productive one.

At the end of the day I met Debbie at the house then we got a hamburger before heading home for the evening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

January 13, 2020 - It's Monday!

Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me."

He not only gives me strength He is my strength. I am so thankful that Jesus has carried me through this most difficult journey. Not only has He carried me, He has given me the very best wife to be at my side. Believe me, this journey has been every bit as hard on her as it has me, maybe more so in some ways. The Lord has also provided me with an incredibly supportive family and friends.

Today has been a good day. I was able to put in a full day at the office without a nap. With little exception the side-effects have been far less since my last chemo treatment. I know I owe it all to the Lord and the countless prayers. To God be the glory!! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

January 12, 2020 - Happy Sunday

Romans 8:21 "that the creation itself will also be set free from it's slavery to corruption into the freedom of the glory of the children of God."

Well, this is day number 5 since the last chemo treatment and I've got to say that I am feeling really good. Side-effects have been very limited, thank you, Jesus. Of course, this is Sunday, my favorite day of the week. Today, Debbie and I got to enjoy the church experience as part of the congregation once again. Following church, we had our first board meeting of 2020, that went well. 

We went to the city for lunch and Debbie had one store to stop by before we made our way to the new house to check on things. Unfortunately, while we were there my stomach got hit pretty hard all of the sudden so we had to make short our visit. The stomach issue carried into the evening, but had seemed to settle by bed time. Here's to side-effect free Monday. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 11, 2020 - Chilly Saturday

Psalms 86:13 "For your lovingkindness toward me is great, And You have delivered my soul from the depths of Sheol."

Thank you, Lord, for you continue to bless me with a lot of good rest. I felt really good when I got up this morning, but as I would move about the nausea would kick in. I made myself at home on the sofa with my blanket and pillow. I was able to sleep a good part of the day, not sure that's what I should be doing, but when I would get up the nausea would return so I pretty much stayed down. Of course, Debbie was busy all day long. She does such an incredible job of staying on top of everything that needs to be done along with taking such good care of me. She is the love of my life. 

Other than the nausea, I have felt really good. I am hopeful the side-effects will not get any worse in the days ahead. We are looking forward to attending church tomorrow. I'm thankful for men of God who so willingly fill in for me on my chemo weeks. We are very blessed to have them in our family. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 10, 2020 - Friday

Psalms 22:5 "To You they cried out and were delivered; In You they trusted and were not disappointed."

I have been so blessed these last two weeks as I have felt so much better (all-in-all). It's now been three days since my chemo treatment so I expect that things might get a little rough over the next couple of days, but we'll see.

I spent several hours in the office today and felt like I got quite a bit accomplished. Yes, I have felt good today with the exception of some nausea. Since I had an extra week off of chemo I am hopeful that the side-effects may not be so bothersome these next two weeks. 

Debbie and I were also excited to learn that the tumor marker has dropped again! It was 106 two weeks ago, this week it was down to 76. Please join us praying to get the marker down below 37. Thank you so much!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 9, 2020 - Pump Removal

2 Samuel 22:20 "He also brought me forth into a broad place; He rescued me, because He delighted in me."

After the final 48 hours of treatment the portable pump comes off, I look forward to that. It's not that the pump is too much trouble or hurts or anything, it's just kind of bulky to carry around and it's hard to sleep good worrying about it. While today was a good day I fought nausea on and off throughout the day. I have some meds, but they just don't seem to last very long.

Debbie and I went to the city and ran a couple of errands while we were waiting for the pump to run dry. We made our way to the cancer institute about 2:30, had the pump removed, the port flushed and we were on our way home.

Today was a good day and I am thankful I felt as good as I did. As it has gone in the past the side- effects seem to kick in about two or three days following the main treatment. I mentioned yesterday the hiccups had returned, earlier this evening my stomach started stirring again and i can feel the energy draining from my body. I hope to get into the office for a few hours tomorrow, we'll see how it goes. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 8, 2020 - Wednesday

Psalms 62:8 "Trust in Him at all times, O people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Selah.

Sleep was a little hard to come by last night, but I really didn't notice it at all today. Fortunately no real side effects to speak of opps I forgot the hiccups, they come on quite often. Debbie and I ran into town to get the mail and stopped by the house to check on things and then back home. While I have the pump on I don't go far from home. Tomorrow I'll get the pump removed and remain hopeful that I will feel as good as I have today. 

We have not yet received the results the tumor marker, but will post as soon as possible after we get them.Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 7, 2020 - Chemo Day Round 5

Isaiah 4:6 "There will be a shelter to give shelter from the heat by day, and refuge and protection from the storm and the rain."

After a big breakfast, Debbie and I went to the cancer institute for lab work, a visit with the oncologist and round 5 of chemo. Fortunately, the labs came back looking good. The platelet count, which was too low last week had doubled, so we were cleared to receive this week's treatment. 

Our case will be considered by the tumor board this week. They will make recommendations concerning the course of treatment going forward. The doctor will let us know the outcome. We will pass the word along as soon as possible. For now, the next chemo treatment is scheduled for Wednesday, January 22. 

It's been a long day so until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 6, 2020 - Another Night Before Chemo

Psalms 94:22 "But the LORD has been my stronghold, And my God the rock of my refuge."

Today turned out to be a typical Monday (not bad, busy). We had our staff meeting this morning then I had a noon meeting with our builder. This afternoon Bill came in and we worked on the Bible study questions. The time went by too fast, but it was productive. 

I met Debbie at the house a little before 5:00 so we could check the progress. Then it was home for a quick meal and back up to church for the parents meeting for the upcoming youth mission trip. Through it all I felt pretty good as I have for much of the last 10 days. It's been nice having the extra week between treatments, but tomorrow the chemo is back. The doctor is thinking there will be two or three more of these aggressive treatments before we can start cutting back.

Hopefully my bloodwork will be back in line tomorrow and we can get on with the difficult task ahead. Once again, we appreciate all of the prayers and support. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 5, 2020 - Sunday

Hebrews 10:25 "not forsaking our own assembling together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another; and all the more as you see the day drawing near."

You know Sunday is my favorite day and today was no exception. The only thing is I didn't feel like I had enough time to get around and say hello to everyone as I like to do. After church we went to Guthrie for lunch then Debbie went on to the city and I went home for a little nap.

We had elders meeting this evening so I didn't get home until well after 9:00. Any more that's past my bedtime. So, until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

January 4, 2020 - Beautiful Saturday

Luke 1:78 "Because of the tender mercy of our God, With which the Sunrise from on high will visit us,"

I tried going the night without any sleep aids, that was a mistake. I laid in bed wide eyed until 3:00 a.m. when I finally gave in and had some melatonin. My short night made me rather lethargic during the day. About mid-afternoon Debbie and I went by to check on the house then make a trip to storage to rearrange some things. I'm so glad Debbie encouraged me to get out because it was a really nice day. I think the fresh air helped.

Aside from the fact that I was sleepy most of the day, it was a good day. Needless to say, it was also an early evening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 3, 2020 - A Fine Friday

Nahum 1:7 "The LORD is good, A stronghold in the day of trouble, and He knows those who take refuge in Him."

Thanking God for what has now been 8 pretty good days in a row. Obviously not having chemo this week has helped that. I was able to put in a good day at the office and have Sunday's message about 2/3's done. This evening we are watching a couple of the grandkids. Looking forwared to having them around. A little earlier this evening Debbie checked the latest test results on the Integris website and found that the tumor marker is down to 106; thank you Lord! When we started the chemo, the marker was in the 1400's. The ideal or normal is between 0 and 37. We are praying that it continues to drop. Needless to say, upon that news a good day even got better.

Once again, thank you for your continued prayers, support and encouragement - God is surely working a miracle! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

 

January 2, 2020 - Thursday

Psalms 23:6 "Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever."

Today was back to the grind. Debbie went into her office and I went to mine at the church. I'm so excited to still be feeling pretty good. Though today was not quite as good as the last few have been I'm not complaining. I did have a couple of hours of upset stomach during the afternoon, as evening came I started feeling better. 

I had a lot to do in the office, while I was productive I have a full day again tomorrow. Since we are now just over two weeks away from the last chemo the side effects seem to be greatly reduced. I'm looking forward to a good night's sleep and a good day tomorrow. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

January 1, 2020 - Happy New Year

Proverbs 4:25 "Let your eyes look directly ahead And let your gaze be fixed straight in front of you."

Hard to believe, but here it is 2020 (no eye/vision jokes). As far as new year's go I don't typically get too excited about them. However, this year is going to be different. This is the year that we will see and hear about God's miraculous power. Personally, I look to see things steadily improving in my health and maybe by mid-year I'll be at a much better place physically. Spiritually, I can't wait to share how God has worked through this journey and how Debbie and I got to be right in the middle of it. 

Today we enjoyed the holiday by getting out and shopping for some items for the new house. Like the previous five days I felt good, maybe even a little better. As ready as I am to get this cancer out of my body, I am thankful to have this little one week break from the chemo treatments. 

Debbie and I pray that you all will have a happy and healthy 2020 and look forward to serving the Lord together with you. God bless you all! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 31, 2019 - New Year's Eve

2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come."

We arrived at the cancer institute at 8:00 this morning had the usual blood work done and then went to see the doctor. Of course, we were on the edge of our seats awaiting the results of yesterday's CT scan so the doctor got right to it. The good news is the tumor has been reduced by 17%, likewise, previously existing lesions had shrunk and there were no new lesions. This tells us that the chemo is working! Unfortunately, my platelet count was too low for me to receive a chemo treatment today. The next chemo will be next Tuesday. Honestly, I'm looking forward to a week of feeling better. 

My sister had come to town planning to surprise me while I was receiving the chemo treatment. Instead of sitting around that little room we enjoyed a nice lunch together. Today was now the fifth day I have felt pretty good. I'm planning on getting a lot done between now and next Tuesday because I know full well what happens after the chemo treatment. 

Please join us in praising God as He does this healing work in me. I look forward to having similar positive results when we get the tumor marker results later this week. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 30, 2019 -- Monday, Monday

1 Samuel 2:7 "The LORD makes poor and rich; He brings low, He also exalts"

We stayed the night in OKC to be close to the cancer institute for an early morning CT scan. Later After the scan I took Debbie to her office and I took care of some business I had in OKC. So thankful for yet another good day! 

Tomorrow will be a big day for us in terms of how effective these treatments have been. I will post just as soon as I am able. Thank you for walking with us through this most difficult journey. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 29, 2019 - Beautiful Sunday

Psalms 57:5 "Be exalted above the heavens, O God; Let Your glory be above all the earth."

Sunday, my favorite day of the week and this particular one could not have been much better. I felt very good, was able to see the church family and share the word of God from James 4. It just doesn't get much better than that. After a rough several days over Christmas week, things seemed to settle down last Friday. Thankfully, I've now had 3 days in a row of feeling good. 

In the afternoon, Debbie, along with a number of family helpers took a load to storage and got us packed up for a couple of nights in OKC. Tomorrow is our long-awaited CT Scan and then Tuesday we are scheduled for round 5 of chemo. We are very hopeful for good news when we meet with the doctor Tuesday morning. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! -- Thank you for the prayers, please keep them coming.

 

December 28, 2019 -- Dreary Saturday (Outside)

Psalms 19:1 "The heavens are telling of the glory of God; And their expanse is declaring the work of His hands."

Fortunately, I don't have a lot to say about today outside the fact that I felt good and had a good appetite. I had already planned on staying in today because I had a lot of work to do on my message. 

Of course, I am hopeful that this feeling better will carry over into tomorrow, I sure don't want to miss church again. I am so looking forward to seeing everyone and sharing a New Years message.

Next week will be a big week for us. We have the CT scan on Monday and then round 5 of chemo on Tuesday. Please continue to stand with us in prayer for good results from the CT scan and the lab work. We would also appreciate your continued prayers that these side effects would not be as bad following this next round of chemo. Thank you, from the bottom of our hearts!

Until tomorrow -- remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 27, 2019 -- TGIF

James 1:2-3 "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have it's perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."

"Consider it all joy", that's one of those scriptures that we like to use to encourage others when they are going through a tough time. I've discovered that it's kind of tough to consider it joy when you're in the middle of a trial. As time goes on, it truly becomes more of a test of faith. I'll admit, I have trouble counting it "all joy". I can see how these things cause us to lean more into our Father and to call on the strength of Christ in me, I sure don't have it within myself. 

As the days have been going, today was much better. Debbie and I had a big breakfast before a brief meeting with our builder. After that, I came in to the office. I managed to spend several hours catching up and preparing for Sunday. While the evening wasn't quite as good as the day, it was better than what many of them have been of late. 

I have an optimistic outlook for the weekend as I spiritually and mentally prepare for the next round of chemo. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

 

December 26, 2019 -- Thursday

Romans 10:9 "that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved;"

Debbie and I were up and out the door by 8:00 this morning. Our first stop was at her dentist in Kingfisher. While there I had a chance to go by and see my buddy Joe. From Kingfisher we headed to the city we had a couple of errands to take care of and we did a little shopping, I mean "little". 

Today, while it had its challenges, was a little better than the previous two. I seem to continue to battle digestive issues it's just that some days are a little less intense than others. By mid-afternoon I was getting tired so we called it a day and made our way home.

I may have mentioned this earlier this week, but this has been the toughest recovery since we began chemo at the end of October. We appreciate your continued prayers and encouragement. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

 

December 25, 2019 -- Christmas Day

Luke 2:7 "And she gave birth to her firstborn son; and she wrapped Him in cloths, and laid Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn."

Here it is, the big day has finally arrived! We didn't get up any too early because we were out late last night, but we were up in time to watch the kids open their presents. Later in the morning Debbie and I had our gift exchange.

 

 

December 24, 2019 -- Christmas Eve

Isaiah 9:6 "For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called Wonderful Counseler, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace."

The excitement is getting thick with anticipation of what this day will bring. About noon time the whole family will be gathered to celebrate our Christmas, that will be 23 of us in all. Once gathered we enjoyed finger foods and a time of fellowship. Then the kids gathered on the flour and we handed out their Christmas presents. Following that the adults played Dirty Santa with gift cards. That was fun as everyone schemed to figure out how they could get the gift card they wanted. 

It was a great day because all the family was gathered, unfortunately it was a difficult day for me physically. By 5:00 all of the out of town family had left and I laid back in the recliner. The kids and grandkids continued playing games, but I was out for the next two hours.

Of course, this evening we'll have our Christmas Eve service at church. Though I don't feel well at all, I don't want to miss the service.  Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 23, 2019 -- Monday, Monday

Jeremiah 17:14 "Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed; Save me and I will be saved, For You are my praise."

Today was a productive day. I had a couple of different meetings with individual staff members, a couple of visitors came by a couple of phone calls made and a couple of orders placed. It just seemed like I had one thing on the heels of another. I am happy to say, that I didn't feel too bad most of the day. While the chemo effects seemed to be a little more difficult after this fourth treatment I am sensing that they are winding down somewhat (it could just be wishful thinking). 

Well, it's getting late and I have an early appointment in the morning and day that won't end until after our Christmas Eve service tomorrow night. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

 

December 22, 2019 -- Not the Usual Sunday

Proverbs 16:9 "The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps."

As you probably know by now how much I look forward to Sunday and church. Well, the stomach prevented from attending this morning. I love you all and miss you when I can't be there with you. I did get to watch the live stream which was good, but not the same. Shout out to Harold for taking care of the message for me today. I really appreciate the godly men who are willing to step up and share with the congregation, it sure helps me. 

By early afternoon the stomach had settled down, not gone, just let up. Once again Debbie and I had to run to Stillwater to finish the sale of our travel trailer. That was hard; as we had waited two years to get our camp site and were so looking forward to spending our days off at the lake. We will just be thankful for the few months we did get to live there. Our plans don't always go as we would like. Debbie and I are trusting that God has something better for us so we tearfully drove away for the camp site for what will most likely be the last time. 

So, today, while I was up and down physically, emotionally it was a tough day. Now, we'll focus on getting me healthy and our house finished up so we once again will have our own home. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 21, 2019 -- Up and Down

Ephesians 1:3 "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ,"

Debbie and I got up fairly early, stopped at the corner for a breakfast sandwich and headed to town to get Cathy and her truck. We headed to the lake to finish getting our things from the trailer. We ran to Stillwater, loaded up and returned to Crescent. I didn't realize how out of shape I've gotten, but I was not able to do much at all before tiring out. After we unloaded, I came back home while Debbie and Cathy went back for another load. This is hard for me to have to watch my wife doing things that I should be doing. She has to work so hard with all the things she has to do along with things that I would normally do. So, instead of helping, I spent the afternoon and evening on the sofa once again with stomach issues. 

Once again, it was an uneventful early evening. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 20, 2019 - A Little Rebound

Galatians 3:13 "Christ redeemed us from the curse of the Law, having become a curse for us-for it is written, "Cursed is everyone who hangs on a tree"

Thank God for a good night's sleep! I woke up about 9:00 this morning, got cleaned up and dressed. For some reason the sofa was once again calling my name. I laid down and slept another two hours. I guess the fatigue from yesterday carried over into this morning. Just after noon I went into the office. Grand-daughter Mattie came by to wrap my Christmas presents while I took care of some admin tasks. While I was alright, I was pretty weak and of course the stomach issues continued. 

The evening was quiet as usual without much change in the way I was feeling. I hope the worst of this over as we get ready to move into Christmas week, there is a lot going on this week. 

Debbie and I are grateful for all the love, support and encouragement and especially the prayers of all our family, church family, friends, the community and beyond. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

 

December 19 - Pump Removal

Psalms 8:1 "O LORD, our Lord, How majestic is Your name in all the earth, Who have displayed Your splendor above the heavens!"

We estimated that the pump would time out by late morning so we left a little early so Debbie would have time to run some errands. After they removed the pump we had some lunch and had to run downtown for one last stop. During this time, I'm feeling pretty good, but noticing that I am starting to decline. By late afternoon I was feeling the fatigue setting in. We managed to attend the children's Christmas program, but I wasn't able to make it to the fellowship time. We arrived back home about 7:30 and I hit the sofa and slept hard for the next two and a half hours. I woke up just in time to go to bed.  

We had a productive day, but I don't remember feeling as bad as I did this evening since we started this process. Hopefully that's out of my system soon. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

 

December 18, 2019 - Pump Day

1 Chronicles 16:10 "Glory in His holy name; let the heart of those who seek the LORD be glad."

Today was a hang loose kind of day. We don't do much running around while the pump is attached. Ashley and Erin (thanks for the Missy's) stopped by and we had a nice visit. I felt good all day and even ate pretty well. The hiccups have made their return and the stomach issues continue, but God is good! About mid-afternoon Debbie and I ran to town and went by to check on the house progress. I also had the opportunity to get the Christmas Eve service all lined out. It will be here before we know it. 

The good news today came about 6:00 p.m. when I spoke the nurse. She was happy to report another drop in the tumor marker. We are praising God as He kills off this cancer in me. Of course, I also thank God for my constant companion and home nurse, Debbie. She has truly been heaven sent. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

 

December 17, 2019 -- Treatment Tuesday

Luke 2:20 "The shepherds went back, glorifying and praising God for all that they had heard and seen, just as had been told them."

Our day started at the Integris Cancer Institute at 7:40 this morning. As usual, we had lab work done and a meeting with the doctor followed by chemo treatment #4. We are praising God for the very encouraging meeting with the oncologist. While we won't know for certain until we have our next CT scan, the doctor was very optimistic about our treatments to this point. I asked him how he thought I was doing overall and his response was "remarkable". Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes; we are believing God is truly working a miracle.

Needless to say, I was a little more excited about receiving the chemo as a result of the doctors' comments. For the next five and a half hours the chemo flowed in. We left the cancer institute, with the portable pump attached, about 3:00. After a couple of stops for prescriptions and supplies we headed home. Now I guess we'll be going back through the cycleof side effects and trusting God for continued success.

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 16, 2019 -- Wintry Monday

Ecclesiastes 1:6 "Blowing toward the south, Then turning toward the north, The wind continues swirling along; And on its circular courses the wind returns." 

I started the day taking Debbie to her office and returning to the church. We are staying in OKC tonight (Thanks Phil and Maritza) because we have an early treatment tomorrow. I was able to have a staff meeting and tie up a few loose ends before returning to the city. 

Some of my stomach issues from yesterday followed me throughout the morning, I started feeling better in the early afternoon. While visiting with some friends this afternoon I was asked several questions concerning I was feeling. I told them I was doing pretty good and mentioned the main thing seems to be stomach/digestive issues. Someone asked how's your appetite? I thought a minute and said, "usually, not very good". On the heels of that another person asked if I was sleeping alright. Again, "not usually". Then another asked if I was keeping my weight on, "not really". I started to laugh. "Here I'm telling you all how good I'm doing, but everything you ask about I'm not doing so well with." I figured out that if it's a side effect that doesn't cause me pain (i.e. not sleeping well) I don't associate that with how I'm feeling. 

By mid-afternoon I realized that I was starting to get hungry. I had only had a breakfast sandwich and banana to eat to that point. I picked Debbie up at 4:00 and we headed to Texas Roadhouse. I am happy to report that I ate the entire 6 oz. steak, about half of a baked potato, some green beans and a lot of peanuts. After dinner we had one stop to make and then to the hotel so we could turn in early tonight. 

I believe through this God has given me so much strength to "feel" good and get through each day as it comes. Likewise, He has granted Debbie a great deal of strength to do such a good job of taking care of me in the middle of everything else that goes on especially during this time of year. I know that she feels every pain that I do and she suffers a great deal of sleeplessness worrying about how I'm doing especially when I'm hurting. I pray that He will grant her a good night's rest tonight.

Please pray that all will go well tomorrow and that we both can get a good night's rest; thank you. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

 

December 15, 2019 -- Up and Down Sunday

John 17:22 "The glory which You have given Me I have given to them, that they may be one, just as We are one."

As I've said in the past, "I love Sunday!" Today was a wonderful day at church followed by a great time of fellowship at our FCC Family Christmas Dinner. We got home around 2:00 this afternoon and I quickly got comfortable. However, the rest of the day was going to be a lot of up and down with stomach issues. Of course, Debbie was right with all the way through it. Now I'm hopeful I can get to sleep and avoid any more of this nasty stuff. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 14, 2019 -- Pleasant Saturday

Psalms 100:1 "Shout joyfully to the Lord, all the earth."

Today started early with men's fellowship breakfast. We had a really good time together, great food (physical and spiritual), great fellowship it just doesn't get much better than that. Debbie and I had to run over to Stillwater this afternoon to show the trailer to some prospective buyers. Of course, we had to go to Walmart too before heading home for the evening.

Today was about as good a day as I could hope for as far as feeling good. Like I've said before, even a good day is not without a good degree of discomfort. I feel very blessed to have had it as good as I have to this point. I know many people seem to suffer far more than what I feel I am. I thank God for that! 

Excited about tomorrow, as the church family gathers for a full morning of study and worship followed by our FCC family Christmas Dinner. As you probably know by now I always look forward to Sunday!  Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 13, 2019 -- Christmas Shopping

John 3:30 "He must increase, but I must decrease."

I am so thankful for a good night's rest. Even with nearly nine hours of sleep I found myself taking an hour-long late morning nap. Then, I was ready to take on my day (it was almost noon). I spent the afternoon doing my Christmas shopping. It was a beautiful day and I think it was good for me to get out and be active instead of sitting at a desk all day. 


I received an encouraging phone call from my son-in -law, Jay this afternoon; it was a real nice 'pick-me-up' and it came at a good time. Physically, I felt pretty good today, but I seemed to have some difficulty emotionally. Can't put my finger on what it was, I guess I just needed some cry time. When I got back and told Debbie about my emotional day, she held me and we shared a few more tears; she is and has been such a great support. I'm not sure if all of this hasn't been harder on her then it has on me. Thank you, Lord, for giving me such a wonderful wife.

It was a good day all around and I am so ready for another good night's sleep. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 12, 2019 -- Party Thursday

John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life."

Well my hope for a good night's rest didn't pan out too well last night it was after 1:00 a.m. before I could fall asleep; so much for the sleeping pills. The lack of sleep tends to make me a little cranky. This morning, though I felt well, I was a little cranky. Our Bible study went well then, we celebrated with a pot luck Christmas luncheon fellowship and game of Dirty Santa. About half way through the game my stomach came back to haunt me and things weren't the same the rest of the afternoon. 

A side note: We have a wonderful Bible study group that meets every Thursday morning from 10:00 - 11:00. If you are free during that time we would love for you to join us. We make it very easy to just jump in and follow along. We will be starting back on January 9, 2020.

I got home early this evening and quickly changed clothes and got comfortable on the sofa. After about 30 minutes it was like someone flipped a switch and I felt really good all of the sudden. That was good for an hour or so before things started going back downhill. I remember telling someone one time that I can feel really good one day and bad the next and they replied by saying "chemo roller coaster". I guess that might be a real thing and I'm riding it for sure. It makes sense then if I didn't feel great today that I should be riding high tomorrow. To that end, I'm praying for a good night's sleep tonight.

Tomorrow I'm going to try to get my Christmas shopping done. This weekend I'm looking forward to our men's fellowship and bringing the message on Sunday morning. Hope to see you all there!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 11, 2019 -- Long Wednesday

1 Chronicles 16:11 "Seek the LORD and His strength; seek His face continually."

Typically, Wednesday is my longest day at the office, today was no exception. In fact, maybe I was there a little too long, time will tell. I felt really good all day and was able to accomplish quite a bit. I even made it over for a quick visit with the youth this evening. Wow, so much energy. 

As I was thinking about my journal a little earlier I wanted to take a moment to assure those who are reading that when I say "I feel good" or "felt good today" I'm not putting on a front, it is the truth. I know that many Christians think they have to say everything is good because that is how Christians are supposed to be. No, I'm not sugar coating or saying what I think people want to hear. I am sparing some details because, let's face it, there is such a thing as 'too much information (TMI)'. My journal is kind of therapy for me and for those who are interested in how I'm doing; so, I am just telling it like it is. Now, with that said, the fact that I feel/felt good really doesn't mean that I am without some type of discomfort. It is just that I feel good enough that the discomfort does not distract from the bigger picture. Whether it's been a good day or not so good in terms of my physical issues I recognize each day is a gift from the Lord and I thank Him for it. I am certain that without the Lord I would not have the strength to endure. 

Tomorrow is our Bible study and fellowship Christmas pot luck, I am certainly praying for and hopeful that it is another "feeling good" day. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

December 10, 2019 -- Tuesday

Psalms 19:14 "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O LORD, my rock and my Redeemer."

Well, I sure didn't have any trouble sleeping last night, thank you, Lord. In fact, I overslept a little. After getting around I stopped at the corner for breakfast and got to spend some time visiting with a friend. Then it was off to the post office, bank and office to settle in. Today was a very productive, but I just didn't feel near as good as yesterday. 

As I write it is mid-evening, dinner is over and I've settled in to do a little study and get the blog caught up. Debbie and I are watching the Chloe and Cason as Chad and Alaina are with Carter at a basketball tournament. It's so much fun having the young ones around us, I think it has helped me a lot. 

I'm now a week out from chemo and though today wasn't great I think I felt better than the last two times at this point. I remain hopeful for good days and good sleep because there have been many that have not been so good. Through it all, I have sensed the continual presence of Jesus and am reminded that this is His battle. I love that He has been so good to me through it all. 

Well, time for my evening meds so until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 9, 2019 -- Pleasant Monday

Psalms 35:28 "And my tongue shall declare Your righteousness And Your praise all day long."

What a busy day! After arriving at the office, I got busy getting organized for our weekly staff meeting - boy did I feel good! We had a good meeting and realized that we would soon be winding things down for this year and it was time to start thinking about 2020. 

During lunch hour the pastor from the Dover Christian Church stopped by to encourage me and see if there was anything they could do for me or the church. After our visit I had several phone calls to return from earlier in the morning. Then I had another nice surprise visit from Debbie, she makes me smile way down deep inside. Then I had a third nice visit from my good friend Clint who also dropped by some sweets. By late afternoon I started to feel the effects of going at a pretty good pace, so I decided I better get home and lay down for a while.

Other than a little stomach issue (which only lasted about an hour) I had a nearly perfect day. Thanks to all of you who encourage me, it means a lot to me and helps keep me going. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 8, 2019 -- Sunday's are Still My Favorite

Exodus 16:30 "So the people rested on the seventh day."

The morning was off to a great start. We got around, got things loaded up and were off to church. After spending some time with the folks at breakfast I made my way to the office to get prepared for the meetings that would follow worship service. Likewise, Debbie was busy with her Sunday morning tasks. 

I was able to get out to the sanctuary a little earlier than usual which gave me a little extra time to visit. There is just something about being in the church building with God's people. Just being around them tends to make me feel good. I spoke with as many as I had time for and loved every minute of it.

After church followed a congregation meeting then a board meeting and then an elders meeting. We didn't head out for lunch until nearly 1:30. We ate at our usual spot in Guthrie. After getting seated my appetite began to change. Sometimes nothing sounds good. I know I need to eat, but doing it when you don't feel like it is just not that easy. I was able to finish my bun-less bacon cheeseburger and a bite of chocolate cake. All the time, my stomach was beginning to stir. 

We got home about 4:30 and I was able to catch a little nap, but sure didn't feel like eating dinner. Debbie made me a power shake of some kind. It was good and over the next hour or so I was able to finish it. Still, the stomach continued it's disruption. Unfortunately, that continued through a good part of the evening. I was not able to get to sleep until 2:00 a.m.

Hope to have better news for you tomorrow, until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 7, 2019 -- Do Nothing Saturday

Exodus 33:14 "And He said, "My presence shall go with you, and I will give you rest."

Since yesterday was so yucky, I had determined just to stay down and watch tv today. Debbie ran the kids into town and made a quick trip to the city this morning/afternoon. I remained in bed and watched Columbo re-runs and football, in between naps. Fortunately, I didn't feel as bad today, but my stomach bothered me all day. 

We enjoyed homemade chicken and noodles for dinner and made it an extra early night. Debbie found us a Hallmark movie and we shut down before 8:00. 

Looking forward to attending church tomorrow, we'll see how I'm feeling in the morning. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 6, 2019 -- Yuck

1 Samuel 30:6 "Moreover David was greatly distressed because the people spoke of stoning him, for all the people were embittered, each one because of his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the LORD his God."

Who doesn't like Friday? Normally it's our day off, but since I'd been out so much this week I thought it would be a good day to do some catch-up work. Unfortunately, I just couldn't make myself feel good. I did have a nice meeting with Billy talking about his upcoming message. As time went along I just felt worse. After Billy left I stretched out in the recliner for a while. Even the nap didn't help today. I spent another hour or so before finally giving it up for the day. 

When I got home I just put on my P.J.'s and layed down. Debbie had gone into her office this morning then ran some errands before she got home. A little later, Cliff and Diane stopped by and brought some homemade chicken noodle soup and we had a nice visit. 

After our visit Debbie and I watched the Thunder for awhile before calling it a day. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 5,2019 -- Pretty Thursday

Matthew 5:45 "so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven; for He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous."

The day was beautiful! Sunny mild upper sixties, you couldn't ask for a nicer day. On top of that, today I was able to have the portable pump removed. As the nurse was working on removing the pump Debbie went down the hall to the oncologist's office. She was following up on my blood work from earlier this week. In particular she was looking for the CA19-9 count (they call it the tumor marker). This number is an indicator of pancreatic cancer activity. By that, I mean if the number is getting bigger the tumor is actively producing cancer cells (if I understand that correctly). If the number is getting smaller, the cancer is being killed or the tumor is shrinking. While my number is still high it has dropped considerably, praise God! 

We ask that you continue to pray for good results and thank you for your love, encouragement and support. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 4, 2019 -- Happy Anniversary

Genesis 2:24 "For this reason a man shall leave his father and his mother, and be joined to hiw wife; and they shall become one flesh."

Today, Debbie and I celebrated our 32nd anniversary. Typically, we like to do something special, but chemo kept us home this year. We are just so thankful to have one another that is celebration enough. We exchanged cards a small gift and that was celebration enough. I could not ask for a better woman than the one God gave me in Debbie. 

It was kind of a lazy day (for me) I felt pretty good other than the return of the hiccups. I got a little more sleep last night than usual following chemo. Still trying to get my appetite up, but it isn't easy when you don't feel like eating. Looking forward to having the pump removed tomorrow afternoon. I know the pump is necessary, but it is a hassle to lug around. 

I appreciate those of you who check in on us whether it's through the blog, by phone or text. You sure know how to make a person feel loved. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 3, 2019 -- Treatment Day

2 Chronicles 20:17 "You need not fight this battle; station yourselves, stand and see the salvation of the Lord on your behalf, O Judah and Jerusalem. 'Do not fear or be dismayed; tomorrow go out to face them, for the Lord is with you.'

Due to the Thanksgiving holiday last week, we had to have our 3rd treatment delayed until today. Usually, we get in first thing in the morning, today we were scheduled for 11:00 a.m. lab followed by a doctor's visit then the infusion. Because it was such a late start we didn't get done until shortly after 5:00 - the last thing they do is hook up a portable pump which will continue to dispense one of the chemo's for another 48 hours - long day... Of course, Debbie was there holding my hand the whole time and we enjoyed visits from Erin and Phillip. I was able to sleep a good portion of the time for which I was thankful. 

Thank God for the good blood work results. The counts have to right in order to receive treatments. One of tests they call a tumor marker. The tumor marker is just one of the things they look at as an indicator of the presence of tumor(s). The tumor marker results are numeric. From our lab work last time the marker was slightly down. That is not necessarily a reason to celebrate, but it is a good sign and we are so thankful for that.

We arrived home a little after 6:00 and I managed to eat half of a peanut butter sandwich and a bowl of tomato soup. This is one of the toughest things I've encountered is just not feeling like eating. I thought I was doing a little better but the scales indicated I had lost 5 more pounds. Much as I hate to ask, but if you wouldn't mind adding to your prayers my need to stabilize and maybe even gain a few pounds. 

The treatment went well and I'm hopeful to gain my strength back quickly. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 2, 2019 - Preparing for Treatment #3

Colossians 2:6 "Therefore as you have received Christ Jesus as Lord, so walk in Him, having been firmly rooted and now being built up in Him and established in your faith, just as you were instructed, and overflowing with gratitude."

Seems like Monday's come around pretty often. Thankfully this was a good one! Debbie went to her office this morning and I made my way to the church office. Monday is staff meeting day so we gathered to go over our calendars and discuss upcoming events and spend a little time in prayer. 

I had an afternoon meeting in Oklahoma City. Naturally my stomach started acting up so after the meeting I went home for some medicine and some rest. 

Well, tomorrow is chemo round #3. I have a good idea of what to expect now and I will say that I'm not really looking forward to it. We are believing that these treatments are helping and will continue to help as the Lord does His will. I just keep thinking "thy will be done, Lord". Until tomorrow, may the Lord grant you a peaceful evening and remember God loves you and so do we!

 

December 1, 2019 -- Christmas Season in Full Swing

Isaiah 7:14 "Therefore the Lord Himself will give you a sign: Behold, a virgin will be with child and bear a son, and she will call His name Immanuel."

As Sunday's have been, this was another good one. Church was good, but we had several either not feeling well or traveling over the Thanksgiving weekend. Of course, we have officially started the Advent season which is Christmas, yes, but it is Christmas with the looking forward to the return of Jesus. Each week leading up to Christmas we will recognize one of four special characteristics of the Christmas season. They are Hope, Faith, Joy and Peace. 

After church Debbie and I joined the Pairs and Spares Sunday school class for their Christmas party. We had a great time and sure do appreciate our hosts, Chris and Karen; for putting together a wonderful time of fellowship! 

As it goes, as the afternoon went on my stomach began cramping. I got a nap just as soon as we got home. After the nap it was time to celebrate Alaina's birthday. We enjoyed tacos, chips and salsa with ice cream for dessert. I had to leave a little early as it was elder meeting night. The meeting went well and we finished shortly after 8:30 p.m.

Back home by 9:00 and it's time to get ready for a good nights' sleep. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 30, 2019 -- Sunny Saturday

Hebrews 12:2 "fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

Debbie and I enjoyed a good day together. We met our KC kids for late breakfast in OKC and had a nice visit. We get such a kick out of watching baby John check everything out. He is a busy, busy boy. When it was time for them to hit the road, we ran a few errands in OKC before heading to check progress on the house. We were so excited to see the addition of overhead garage doors! It just keeps looking more and more like a house. 

For dinner, Alaina brought home some pizza, afterwards we recognized Chloe's 13th birthday. The bedlam game was the show of choice tonight. I watched the first half, but by then I was ready for bed. 

So thankful to God and Debbie for a really good day. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 29, 2019 -- Black Friday

James 1:17 "Every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow."

They call it Black Friday, it has something to do with 'officially' kicking off the Christmas shopping season. I would have thought that started a couple of months ago from all the Christmas items on display in the stores. Oh well, for me, it was a long way from 'black'. Though I enjoyed yesterday far more, what with all the family around, but today was a very good day. I got around early, stopped for a breakfast sandwich and made my way into the office for a productive day working on my message for Sunday. I always enjoy Christmas messages. Each time I read the Christmas story in many ways it's like the first time. Even though I know what's coming it's always exciting and humbling to read.

Debbie spent the day as she has for the last I don't know how many years, out shopping. She left at 5:30 this morning and as of 10:00 p.m. she's still shopping. I'm so glad she was able to go, I know how much she enjoys this special day each year. I not only could not shop that long, I can't stay awake that long. I slept in two hours longer than her, I've had two 30-minute naps and I'm going to bed now. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 28, 2019 -- Thanksgiving Day

Psalms 100:4 "Enter His gates with Thanksgiving And His courts with praise. Give thanks to Him, bless His name." 

Today we enjoyed a good old-fashioned Thanksgiving Day. We were so thankful to have all of our children and grandchildren together for the day (23 of us in all). Of course, we had more food than we could eat, but isn't that what Thanksgiving is all about? This was an extra special Thanksgiving as we have not had all the children and grandchildren together for Thanksgiving before. 

It was fun to watch them all (or most of them) engage in games in the gym. Funny, if my situation were different, I would have been right in the middle of them. Don't tell them, but several of them are getting a little old for games like dodgeball. Those who didn't play in the gym either watched football, checked out the Black Friday ads or played board games; there was something for everyone. 

As the day went on my stomach started cramping, but what's new. I think some of this stuff I'm just going to have to get used to while God does His healing work. We consider ourselves blessed to have had this opportunity this year. I doubt we'll ever take a holiday for granted again.

Well, it's getting to be that time so, until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we?

 

November 27, 2019 -- A Little Less Active Wednesday

Psalms 26:7 "That I may proclaim with the voice of thanksgiving And declare all Your wonders."

Debbie and I got around about mid-morning and went to Guthrie for breakfast and a little shopping at Walmart. The morning had been great, just like yesterday, but shortly after we arrived at Walmart, my stomach started cramping. Unfortunately, that would stay with me throughout the day. 

After we got back home we loaded the cars, kids and Alaina and went up to the FLC so Debbie and Alaina could work on our family Thanksgiving dinner. I went to the office and worked on my message and a few tasks. I wasn't as productive as I had hoped to be, but getting a little done is better than nothing. 

Debbie and Alaina had  completed their pre-Thanksgiving set-up about 4:00 and we made our way back to the house. Alaina had made ham and beans for dinner and they smelled so good! But, with my stomach being what it was I decided to just have some cornbread. For a good portion of the evening I slept on the sofa. If I sleep half of the evening no wonder I can't sleep half of the night, hmmm.

I think it's going to be an early evening tonight, like so many of you, we have a big day tomorrow. I pray this stomach issue subsides and that I will be able to enjoy having all the kids and grandkids together for the day. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 26, 2019 -- Active Tuesday

Isaiah 26:4 "Trust in the LORD forever, For in GOD the LORD, we have an everlasting Rock"

I woke up feeling really good, no stomach discomfort at all. Debbie went to her office for her half day and I got around and went by Riverside for an egg sandwich before running by to check on the house. After a quick walk through the house I was off to the city. I had decided to take today off instead of Friday so I could take care some errands I had to run in the city. Who wants to be running around in the city on Black Friday? 

My brother drove up from Dallas and met us for lunch. It was nice getting caught up with him it had been just over a year since we last saw him. After lunch he had some business in OKC, Debbie had a nail appointment and I took the car for an oil change. I was able to get some work done on my message while waiting on the car. After a couple more errands I made my way home, but by then it was after 5:00. 

Though my stomach was hurting a little throughout the day (it is almost always uncomfortable to some degree), I felt great and seemed to have a lot of energy today. Just two days until Thanksgiving and the whole gang getting together; I pray the Lord will grant me that same, comfort, peace and energy. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we.

 

November 25, 2019 -- Monday, Monday

Colossians 3:1 "Therefore if you have been raised up with Christ, keep seeking the things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God."

It's always good to report a 'normal' day, though none are what normal used to be. Each day seems to have some little hitch or two. Today was no different, there has been a hitch or two, but for the most part it was a good day. 

Debbie went to work this morning because she needed to be off Wednesday in preparation for Thanksgiving. I stopped by Riverside for a nice hot breakfast to go and headed to the office. We had our Monday staff meeting which went pretty quick as we have a limited week this week. 

I felt good most all day, but got tired and took a little late afternoon nap. I was able to get quite a bit done today which makes me feel good on a short week. I decided to take off tomorrow (Tuesday) instead of Friday so I could take care of some business in the city without all the Black Friday mess. 

We had a surprise visit from daughter Erin and her boys, Luke and Nash. They had a fun time playing with Cason. It sure warms the heart to see kids having so much fun. 

After dinner my stomach started acting up again and it was not fun. Thankfully, Debbie held my hand through it all until I got to feeling better. As I've said before, she is amazing! She is always there for me and makes sure I stay on top of all my meds, meals and water. No matter how bad I might feel at any moment having her arms around me is always such a comfort. Thank you, Jesus!

Enough for today, until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 24, 2019 -- Each Day Just a Little Different

Luke 1:78 "Because of the tender mercy of our God, With which the Sunrise from on high will visit us,

Sunday's are pretty busy for us and today was no exception. After arriving at the office this morning, I spent time putting finishing touches on the message and completing the Baby Dedication ceremony. It's an exciting day in other ways as well. After service this morning we enjoyed a wonderful church family Thanksgiving meal. 

After the meal the Worship team got busy decorating the sanctuary for the Christmas season which begins next Sunday, the first Sunday in Advent. 

I was rather tired so Debbie put me down in the recliner in my office while she and the crew worked in the sanctuary. The nap sure was good. I woke up feeling refreshed. The Worship crew finished the so Debbie I headed home. She dropped me off and ran to do some Thanksgiving shopping. It was such a beautiful day I knew I had to get out and get some fresh air. I have been getting noticeably weaker, so a good long walk might be just the thing. I was able to walk about a mile and a half before Debbie got back from the store. 

The walk and sunshine felt great, but it did tire me out, so after a bite to eat another nap was in order. These last few days have not been quite what I had hoped they would be in terms of how I've been feeling, but today was a little better. I am so looking forward to a good week since I don't have a treatment this week and we're planning a rather big family Thanksgiving dinner. All the kids and grandkids are planning on being with us this year which will be a first for Thanksgiving. Please join us as we pray for a very special Thanksgiving Day with our family. Thank you!

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we.

 

November 23, 2019 -- Kind of a Tough One

Romans 5:5 "and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us."

Not sure what a usual Saturday is, but I guess might be classified as one (for the most part). Debbie was busy preparing Christmas cards and wrapping presents while I got my blog caught up and worked on tomorrow's message. Unfortunately, the stomach issues from yesterday evening carried over into today. So much running to the bathroom can just wear you down. 

This afternoon we attended a birthday celebration for a dear friend. Afterward, we took a couple of other dear friends to see the progress on our house. While we were there we decided we'd run to Guthrie for a bite to eat. Stomach issues aside all went well. We enjoyed the time of fellowship and a good meal. 

Even though I got out and I'm thankful to be able too, I just haven't felt very good today. I hope I'm up to bringing the message tomorrow. I have so looking forward to church and our Thanksgiving fellowship to follow. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

November 22, 2019 -- Great Expectations

Luke 12:40 "You too, be ready; for the Son of Man is coming at an hour that you do not expect."

Before I began the chemo treatments the nurse explained a number of side effect I could experience. While I did experience several of them, I was most thankful that I did not have them all. As I mentioned previously, following round two the symptoms didn't seem as bad and I figured by the middle of the week following my treatment I would be doing really well. Though Wednesday and Thursday were alright I really expected them to be better than they were. Not to worry, I knew Friday would be good because it was the first real good day following round one. Needless to say, I was expected at least the same this time.

I slept until 9:30 this morning then decided I run to Guthrie with Debbie for breakfast and a couple of errands. Almost immediately after breakfast my stomach pain came on. I began throw whatever medicines I had at my disposal at it. After Debbie had gotten what she needed we headed back home. It was probably 1:00 when we got back to the house and I could not wait to lay down. I curled up on the sofa and had a nice two-hour nap. When I woke up I felt somewhat better, but something still didn't feel quite right. We were due to go to dinner with some friends and I did not want to be a party pooper. So even though my stomach didn't feel quite right I thought it would be good to get out and visit for a while. Our time together with friends was great, but I could not get my stomach to behave so I was somewhat a distraction to our evening out. 

I believe it is important to have a positive attitude and outlook and, for the most part, I believe I do. But having no more experience with chemo I am a long way from an expert. Therefore, while being positive I think it is important to be realistic as well. I need to realize that I can't just 'push through' everything. When I don't feel good I need to simply rest and take it easy and by all means stay close to a bathroom:) 

From now on I will be hopeful, but remain more sensitive to what is going on in my body. With that said, here's to a better tomorrow! Until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 21, 2019 -- Looking Up Again

Isaiah 40:8 "The grass withers, the flower fades, but the word of our God stands forever."

Here it is Thursday and time for our weekly Bible study. We have such a good time reading the scriptures and discussing what they mean and how they apply in our lives. It is such a great fellowship and spiritual time. 

After Bible study Debbie and I had to meet with our builder out at the house and then we went home for a bite to eat. I got back in the office early in the afternoon and spent the rest of the day in front of the computer, studying and writing. As the afternoon wore on I could sense my stomach starting to hurt more and more. 

I picked Carter up from basketball practice at 5:00 and we went home for supper. After a couple of stomach meds and a good meal I started to feel better. I'm now a week and a day from my last chemo and expect that for the next week I will be feeling close to my old self. 

Look forward to seeing you all this Sunday for church and our Thanksgiving dinner. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 20, 2019 -- A Pretty Typical Day 

Psalms 19:1 "The heavens are telling of the glory of God; And the expanse is declaring the work of His hands."

Today was a pretty good day. As I've mentioned, the side effects don't seem to be as bad this time, but they seem to be hanging around just as long. I tell you, if this chemo is doing to that cancer anything like what it's doing to the food I eat, the cancer doesn't stand a chance.

Debbie had a dentist appointment in Kingfisher this morning and then she went to her office for the afternoon. I settled into the office here at church at started chipping away at things again. I got through the mail and updated some reports then I was able to get my message for Sunday lined out. That just means I know what the message will be about and what particular passage we will be reading. Courtney came by so we could go over some of our social media ideas/changes and later Bill came in so we could work on our next chapter of the Bible study. After Bill and I finished it was time for a siesta. To round out the day I got the Bible study questions typed up and printed off so we could distribute them tomorrow. 

I had intended to check on the house on my home, but it was already dark. Instead, I stopped at the dollar store and picked up a little something for my sweet tooth. When I got home, Debbie and Alaina had prepared a wonderful spaghetti dinner. We ate together and then moved upstairs for the evening. 

We're looking forward to be back with our Bible study group tomorrow at 10:00 (if you're looking for something to do, drop in). Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 19, 2019 -- Every Day is a Good Day

Psalms 44:8 "In God we have boasted all day long, And we will give thanks to Your name forever. Selah.

Today was an office day, me at the church office and Debbie at her office in the city. I had a lot I wanted to get done, from getting a start on this week's message to catching up on some of the admin tasks. This time of year tends to get a little hectic with all of the holiday planning and preparing for the new year. Unfortunately, I just didn't feel great today. Not sure why, usually as I get further away from my treatment I get feeling better. It wasn't bad enough that I wanted to go home, but it was just kind of tough to concentrate. 

At the end of the day I ran by the house to see the latest progress. They are finishing up hanging the dry wall so the floor plan is now really shaping up. It is exciting to see it all coming together. 

I met Debbie at home and we ran out to get a quick hamburger. It wasn't even 6:30 when we headed back to the house, but of course it was dark out so it seemed more like 9:00. The kids were busy with school events this evening so I watched a little TV while Debbie wrapped some Christmas presents. I did get to feeling a little better as the evening went along. I had some desert tonight, but decided to avoid the ice cream for at least another day. Hopefully the cold sensitivity will be gone tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow, until then - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 18, 2019 -- Saying Goodbye to a Friend

1 Thessalonians 4:13 "But we do not want you to be uniformed, brethren, about those who are asleep, so that you will not grieve as do the rest who have no hope."

Praise God for another good night's rest. I had to get up a little earlier than usual this morning as I had much to do in preparation for Kelly Morrisett's funeral service. I spent a couple of hours working on that before preparing to head to church. We had our regular Monday morning staff meeting before we each went about our day. I needed to read through and make any last minute adjustments to the funeral service before following up on a few other duties. 

Shortly after noon I went next door to check in on the Morrisett family and enjoy the wonderful meal our Hospitality Ministry Team prepared. 

I thought the funeral service was truly a great tribute to Kelly and I think the family was pleased as well. By the time I had returned from the cemetery it was after 4:00 and I was getting pretty tired. Debbie and I drove out to check on the latest work on our house before heading home for the evening. Again, I found a nap to be in order before dinner. Have I mentioned how much I love my naps. After about an hour I feel so refreshed. After the nap was dinner followed by a little cake and ice cream:) I had been warned that one of the chemo meds would make me cold sensitive and to be very careful. Well, I had yet to find anything cold that really bothered me so I thought I escaped that side effect. Not quite. When that ice cream hit the back side of my lower lip I discovered cold sensitivity. Not enough to keep me from finishing the ice cream however. 

That's probably enough for one day so, until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 17, 2019 -- I Love Sundays

Exodus 20:11 "For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, and the sea and all that is in them, and rested on the seventh day; therefore the LORD blessed the sabbath day and made it holy."

Since I had a chemo treatment this past week I won't be personally involved with this weeks' worship service. I have to say, it's kind of hard to just sit and not worry about all the details, but I did it. Debbie and I enjoyed the service and were really proud of the job Chad did with the message. 3 John 1:4 "I have no greater joy than this, to hear of my children walking in the truth." Not only is he walking in the truth he is eager to share and help others to grow in the truth. 

After church we went to lunch in Guthrie. We had time to pick up our Christmas cards, make a stop at the storage unit and shop at Tractor Supply. By that time most of the day was gone and I was begging to tire. We headed home where I enjoyed a nice nap followed by dinner and then began a less traditional cancer protocol. You'll have to ask me personally about that for now. I concluded the evening by working on tomorrow's funeral service. 

Again, I am very thankful for a good day with minimal side effects. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we.

 

November 16, 2019 -- Lots of Rest

Isaiah 57:10 "You were tired out by the length of your road, Yet you did not say 'It is hopeless.' You found renewed strength, Therefore you did not faint."

I hear that you need rest to get your strength, I hope that's right, because I'm getting pretty good at resting. I felt good when I got up this morning. I got cleaned up and went to the church to meet with a family for an upcoming funeral service. Debbie enjoyed the morning with her sisters and their monthly breakfast outing. By early afternoon we were back home both with stomach issues. We had hoped to attend an anniversary party, but neither one of us were feeling up to it. Today, for the most part we just relaxed around the house. We are looking forward to attending church tomorrow if all goes well this evening. 

If these first two days are any indication we may have a quicker recovery this time, I pray that's the case. Time will tell. Please keep the prayers coming and until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we.

 

November 15, 2019 -- Good Sleep Makes a Difference

Isaiah 40:31 "Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired They will walk and not become weary."

Debbie and I drove to the cancer institute about noon today to have the pump removed. That officially ends round two of chemo. The problem is, the side effects don't usually start showing up for a few more days. Please pray they would be minimal. After stopping at a couple of stores we were on our way home. I was feeling well enough to drive so I let Debbie out at the door and I stayed and rested in the car until she had accomplished her shopping goals. 

Alaina made some delicious pizza for dinner and i had my share. As early evening came around, I began to get a little sluggish. As has been the case, my stomach gets really busy and disrupts my whole system. After a couple of hours of discomfort, I was finally able to get to sleep. Other than a couple of wake ups through the night I did really well. I can sure tell the difference the next day after having a good night's sleep. 

Well now only time will tell how we handle the side effects of this round, but at this point I am very optimistic. 

Thank you again for all the prayers and well-wishes. Remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 14, 2019 -- Sleepless in Cedar Valley

Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous? Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."

There must be something in one of those meds they give me that just wouldn't let me fall asleep last night. I did sleep some, but not near enough so today was a lazy day for this patient. We enjoyed visits from daughters Ashley and Erin and surprise visit from Diane who brought by some chocolate cake from the Bible study November birthday celebrations.

Today was a good day all-in-all, I had some bouts with nausea and the hiccups have returned, but it's not been bad at all. Debbie had to leave early to run some paperwork down to Integris first this morning, but was back home by 10:00. In the mean time she arranged to have Ashley come out and stay with me as Alaina had to take Carter and Chole to their orthodontist appointments. See what I mean, Debbie is on top of everything. 

Here's praying for a good night's rest and thanking God for another day. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 13, 2019 -- The Day of the Second Chemo Treatment

Psalms 118:24 "This is the day which the LORD has made; Let us rejoice and be glad in it."

As I write this it is just a little after 2:30 p.m. I have about another 30 minutes of treatment before I get the pump that will go home with me for the next two days. I'm in a nice recliner (not as nice as the one in my office), with Debbie at my side. Son Phillip has been here for a couple of hours, daughter Erin left a short while ago after being with us since early this morning. 

We arrived at 8:30 this morning for blood work followed by a visit with the doctor. Thankfully my numbers were all good (blood work) so we could move forward our treatment. I take three different types of chemo meds and each has its own set of side effects. While they provide some other fluids and medications to help ease the side effects, but unfortunately, they are not able to prevent them. 

Things are going well, but I am feeling a little nauseous and sleepy. We should be finishing up here shortly and heading home.

We got home about 5:00 and I was still a little queasy so I just claimed my spot on the sofa. A little later I got to feeling a little better so I had a bit to eat. For dessert I had some delicious homemade coconut cream pie:) 

I have probably said this before and there is a very good chance I will say this again, but I feel it is important to recognize those who are having such an important impact on my life. I begin by giving thanks to God. When I say "God's Got This", I mean that this is His battle and have been called to walk through this to His glory. God is victorious and I take much comfort in that. I am so grateful to have at my side my loving wife who is carrying such a heavy load, keeping me on med schedules, seeing to it that I eat and drink enough, hauling all of our junk around and more. When you see her please give her a big hug, she is truly amazing. I am also grateful for our 5 children and their spouses. They are willing to do whatever needs to be done to help us out and they are so good to keep in contact with us daily. My grandchildren have been such a blessing too, from sending me text messages to face time (for the ones we don't live with) to helping to see that I have anything I need (the ones we're living with). I am grateful for the elders and staff of FCC for their prayers, support and encouragement and willingness to do whatever needs to pick up a bunch of slack I've left them with. And of course, my extended family, the church and my many friends. So many nice comments (web page, FB), cards, calls, text messages, food and goodies. It has just been incredible! Thank you all for helping to make lighter our load at this time. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 12, 2019 -- Treatment #Two Eve

Psalms 29:11 "The LORD will give strength to His people; The LORD will bless His people with peace."

This morning I dropped Debbie off at her office and went about my list of chores. I picked her up at noon for lunch at a nearby Braum's. After lunch, Debbie went back to work and I continued to check things off my list. About 3:00 I checked into the hotel and unloaded the car. Debbie gets off at 4:00 so after picking her up we had a light dinner then went to the hotel.

We have been staying at a Hampton Inn which is located just around the corner from the cancer institute. Many thanks to Phillip and Maritza for making this possible for us. This is a real nice hotel and we can't beat the location. 

Tomorrow morning, I will have some blood work done, see the doctor then begin the second round of treatments. I might be a weenie, cause I'm not really looking forward to this. Last week I heard about a lady with pancreatic cancer who had 132 treatments - WOW! Thankfully, the treatments were working for her. Of course, our prayer is for similar results. We appreciate all of you who are standing with us in prayer. Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we. 

 

November 11,2019 -- Happy Veteran's Day

Psalms 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble."

I like Mondays. For most people it's the start of the week, for me, it's day two. I look forward to our staff meetings. It's a good time to get caught up with one another and make sure we're all on the same page. I am thankful for the group I work with, all are willing to do whatever is necessary to get the job done and keep us on track to Reach, Grow and Build. 

The day was pretty normal, I worked at getting caught up on some admin duties, going over the notes from yesterday's board meeting and writing a few thank you notes. Everyone has been so good to us. We get cards, calls and text messages on a regular basis and it's so heart-warming to know that so many are praying for us. 

Debbie came by about mid-afternoon and brought me a sandwich. By 4:00 I could feel myself winding down. So I finished up some last minute things so as not to have them hanging over my head and we left about 4:30 to go check the progress on our home. 

The evening was pretty normal as well. I lay on the couch covered up with my blanket and watch Cason play video games. Debbie was busy rounding things up for our overnight stay in OKC. 

Tomorrow we'll be in OKC all day and then Wednesday all day back at the Cancer Institute for round two of chemo. We'll play Thursday and Friday as they come as far as whether or not I'll be in the office. 

I've got to say, I'm looking forward to getting this cancer out of my body I'm not all that excited about the chemo treatment. Now I have a better idea of what follows. Thank you for your continued prayers and would appreciate an extra one as we prepare for this next round. I'm hopeful to see everyone again this Sunday, but we'll have to see how I'm feeling. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 10, 2019 -- How About Three!

Lamentations 3:22 "The LORD'S lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail." Today completes three days of feeling really good. I was able to share the message this morning at church then hang out with some family for lunch and into the afternoon. 

Yes, I'm feeling really good, but I'm cautious because I know that round two of chemo is just a couple of days away. I understand the symptoms and responses are different for each person, I am hopeful that this round won't be quite as hard as the first. Even so, it is well worth it if produces the anticipated outcome. 

By mid-afternoon today Debbie and I were both feeling a little tired and thought we would head to the house for a little nap. I wanted to go out for a walk since it was such a nice day, but tired won out. 

We just laid on top of the bed and watched some movies for the remainder of the afternoon and early evening. I think Debbie got something to eat around 6:00, but I wasn't feeling it just yet. Finally, about 8:00 I had a small peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Once again it was an early evening for us. It is so much easier go to bed early now that it dark so early. 

I know I say it a lot, but I don't think I can say it too much, how much we appreciate all the love, support, encouragement and especially the prayers from all of you, our loved ones. 

Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 9, 2019 -- Two In A Row

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."

So happy to report another good day, that's two in a row! This morning Debbie went her sister-in-law over to the lake to get the trailer cleaned out and the rest of our belongings moved to storage. I stayed at the house and worked on my message. By early afternoon I was ready for my token nap. Usually I get about 20 - 30 minutes in, but today it was closer to 90 minutes. I've got to say every minute napping is a good minute:) 

Debbie arrived back home around 3:00 and we went for a walk with a couple of the grandkids about 4:00. I actually tried a little trot/jog, not much, about a 1/4 mile. I can tell it's been a while. While I'm jogging, Carter is not even walking fast, I wish I had those long legs. 

Chad grilled up some tasty steaks and chicken for us for dinner then we all settled in for some football and/or video games. 

Grateful for another great day! Hope to see many of you tomorrow. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we! 

 

November 8, 2019 -- Blessed

1 Timothy 1:14 "And our Lord poured out His abundant grace on me and gave me the faith and love which are ours in union with Christ Jesus."

Thank you, Jesus for a wonderful night's rest. I actually received a couple of 3 to 4 hour stretches of sleep, it felt so good. I think the good night's rest helped me to have a really good day. This morning I updated this page and spent some time on Sunday's message. Just before noon Debbie and I went to town to go to the post office and bank and then we were off again to OKC. We enjoyed a great lunch at Outback Steakhouse then visited our friends at two of the B.C. Clark stores. We ran a couple of other errands before heading back to Crescent around 5:00 p.m. On our way home, the events of the day started to catch up to me, but thankfully I was just tired. After a light dinner I made myself comfortable on the sofa with my favorite blanket and managed a good 45-minute nap. Dessert time!

I am so thankful to have had such a great day. I think I've found a new appreciation, not just for the good days, but for each day. I am thankful for a loving heavenly Father who has blessed me with a loving family who have all been so supportive and my precious wife, Debbie, I couldn't do this without her. I am also so thankful for our extended family (that's all of you), for calls, texts, messages, etc. You all are helping to make this heavy journey a little a little lighter for us - Thank You! 

Who knows what this evening or tomorrow holds, but we know who holds them, our Loving Father God. Remember, He loves you and so do we!

 

November 7, 2019 -- Not So Fast

Psalms 30:12 "That my soul may sing praise to You and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever." 

I had had such a good day Wednesday, but could not seem to get to sleep Wednesday night. I didn't feel bad during the night, I just had trouble getting to sleep and staying asleep. I think that combined with an expiring pain patch led to a rather rough day today. We enjoyed our time at Bible study, but toward the end I was feeling the lack of sleep. After a meeting with Logan, Debbie and I had to meet with our builder at the new home site. I had an appointment with the dermatologist later in the afternoon so we left for the city and ran a couple of errands before the doctor's appointment.

I normally do the driving, but was not up to it today so along with keeping everything else together in our lives, Debbie did the driving today. She is an amazing woman. I have never doubted her love for me, but I'm not sure I really understood the depth of her love until we hit this bump in the road. There is nothing she would not do for me, I am truly blessed beyond measure.

Yesterday was good, today not so much so here's hoping for a better night tonight and better day tomorrow. Until then - remember God loves you and so do we. 

 

November 6, 2019 -- Looing Up

James 5:14 "Is anyone among you sick? Then he must call for the elders of the church and they are to pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord;" 

Today started about like the others, not bad, but not great. I stayed home a little longer this morning because I knew it was going to be a long day capped off with an elders meeting this evening. Last night was pretty good, but I woke up with a tooth ache (this can't be good). So, when I arrived in town this morning I went to the dentist office to see if he had an opening in his schedule. Fortunately, he had an early afternoon opening. After the dentist took a couple of x-rays and took a close look at my mouth he concluded that I did in fact, have an infection. Add Amoxicillin to the mix of current medications and a root canal in the future. 

After I got back to the office I noticed that I was feeling somewhat better. Typically, that lasts an hour or two however, today would be different. I felt good enough to get a good bit of work done, catch a 30-minute nap and ready to go for the elders meeting. 

At the conclusion of our elders meeting the elders prayed for my healing and anointed me with oil. What a great spiritual moment with these special men of God. I am so thankful for each of them and their love for the Lord, their families and their church. I am proud to serve alongside of them. 

Thank you for your continued prayers and support! Until tomorrow - remember God loves you and so do we!

 

November 5, 2019 -- The Cycle Continues

Psalms 36:5 "Your lovingkindness, O LORD, extends to the heavens, Your faithfulness reaches to the skies."

I was able to get in another full day at the office today, with the help of a noontime nap. I actually felt pretty good most of the day and I thought maybe things were going to be a little better. Well, come evening time I was well reminded that I'm still sick. Unfortunately, Debbie had a stomach bug, so we were both in a bad way tonight. That seems to be the cycle for now; feel good a while, feel terrible a while. 

I often wonder about all of this, but I'm reminded that God is not only intimately aware, He is intimately involved; this is His battle. He has chosen us to participate and His Word assures us that all things will work together for good (Romans 8:28). So we walk by faith, trusting Him with everything that comes our way. 

Here's looking forward to a good tomorrow! Until then remember, - God loves you and so do we!

 

November 4, 2019 -- The Good Bad Cycle

Philippians 1:6 "For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus."

Thankfully we had an uneventful night. I still tend to wake up about every hour, but am able to quickly go back to sleep. Perhaps this hourly thing is just the way it will be for now. Either way, I'm thankful for the sleep I do get. 

When the alarm went off this morning I was feeling pretty good. I decided I would go into the office at least for a couple of hours. Debbie went on to her job today as well. The first hour or two went well, but then I started feeling bad. We had our staff meeting (while I was in the recliner), other than a couple of unplanned breaks it went well. I appreciate Judy, Cara, Courtney and Logan, they are willing to do whatever needs to be done and showing me such grace. 

I was able to do several of the things I needed to from the comfort of my recliner - thank you, church, it is the perfect gift!  I continued to feel poorly until early afternoon, I think the pain patch and medicine helped get me past it. I was able to finish out the day at my desk. I am thankful to have been able to put in a full day (for the most) part. 

I expect to be in the office most of the week. If I can only get a couple good hours here and there it sure beats none at all. 

God bless you all - until tomorrow, God loves you and so do we!

 

November 3, 2019 -- A Good Sunday

Psalms 106:1 "Praise the Lord! Oh give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; for His lovingkindness is everlasting."

I am pleased to report that we had a good night's rest last night. We woke up feeling good enough to get around and attend church this morning. It was so good to see everyone, though I missed a lot of hugs and hand shakes. The doctor has cautioned me to keep a safe distance from people due to my weakened immune system. At least for those days immediately following my treatments. While I missed bringing the Word I am thankful for guys like Chris who are willing to step up and proclaim the Gospel, to strengthen and encourage our church family. 

While my schedule for the next couple of months may be a little "up in the air", my plan is to be in the office as much as possible and preach on the "off chemo" Sundays. The doctor thinks I will pretty good after several days following the treatments. 

After church we usually like to go out for lunch, but thought better of it today. It's funny how you can get run down so quickly. We went home for a light lunch followed by, yes, a nap. After the nap, Debbie and I and the grandkids went for about a mile walk around the neighborhood. It was good to get out and get some fresh air. I know that getting that exercise is important so I intend to get out as much as I am able. 

After the walk I started feeling a little nauseous, so, you guessed it, I took another nap. Still feeling a little queasy, Debbie made some delicious potato soup which seemed to help settle my stomach. 

Tonight, we're just sitting around with the kids watching some tv. I expect it will be another early evening. Until tomorrow - God loves you and so do we! 

 

November 2, 2019 -- A Restful Day

Matthew 11:28  "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest."

So, the rest thing didn't turn out too well last night. I had a hard time sleeping and suffered with chills and shakes for a good part of the night. After that rough night God blessed me with a very restful day Saturday. I lost track of the number of naps I got, but I enjoyed each one of them. We also had some visitors later in the day which was a nice break for us. 

We are hopeful for a better night tonight. We were told to expect the side effects to be at their worst about day 3 or 4 which seems to be just about right. Maybe this will be as bad as it gets for this round, I pray. 

Tonight, has us making our way to be early looking forward to some refreshing rest so we will feel up to going to church tomorrow. Until tomorrow - God loves you and so do we!

 

November 1, 2019 -- Round One Done

Exodus 14:14 "The Lord wil fight for you while you keep silent."

This past Wednesday I received my first chemo treatment. We were at the cancer institute for about 6 hours that day. At the end of the day I they placed a battery-operated pump on me to infuse the final med for this round for the next two days. Thankfully the two days were over about noon today. We went back to the cancer institute to have the pump removed. Other than some low hydration issues everything looked good. I've got to remember to drink, drink, drink! 

As the afternoon wore on some of my pain symptoms and stomach issues began to surface when I realized that the pain meds were due. It took a couple of hours, but by early evening things seem to be much better. 

I can't help but feel sorry for Debbie when my discomfort increases because I have a tendency to become a little cranky. She handles it all in stride and stays focused on me getting better. I love her so much! I would not want to walk through this without her. 

I pray that Debbie and I will get some much needed rest this evening. Until next tomorrow remember, God loves you and so do we! 

 

October 31, 2019 -- Happy Halloween

Psalms 91:3-4 "For it is He who delivers you from the snare of the trapper And from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His pinions,  and under His wings you may seek refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and bulwark."

 

Sleep was a little hard to come by last night. The nurse had warned us that might be the case. I also developed hiccups which tend to be a side effect of one of the chemo drugs. Other than having the pump to deal with things are pretty much the new normal. Debbie and I went into town and I spent some time with the staff getting caught up and lining things out for the weekend. I'm so proud of Judy, Logan and Courtney (along with a number of other volunteers) as they are so willing to step up and do whatever is necessary to help us through this time. 

 

It has also been so nice receiving so many calls and text messages. Our children have been so good about being available to do whatever they can for us. Likewise the check on us each day. 

 

Chad and Alaina took the kids out trick or treating tonight while Debbie and I stayed in. I napped. It was early to bed for us hopeful for a little more sleep tonight. 

 

 

October 30, 2019 -- The First Day of Chemo

Psalms 91:1-2 "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High Will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, "My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust?"

 

Our day started with breakfast at the Hampton Inn then off to Integris Cancer Institute for an 8:30 appointment. We had some blood work done and got the 'ok' to receive the prescribed treatment. We chose to follow the most aggressive chemo for this cancer. The Dr. felt like I was young enough (haha), and otherwise healthy enough, to tolerate this treatment. We'll see. The treatment took about 5 hours. Near the end of the in-house treatment I was equipped with a pump I wear around my waste which continues to provide one of the drugs for an additional 46 hours. On Friday we'll return to the cancer institute to have the pump removed and the port flushed. The next treatment is scheduled for November 13. As far as I know, it will be the same drill.

 

During our time at the cancer institute we were thankful to receive many texts and calls from our friends checking on us. We had visits from daughter Erin and son Phillip and a surprise visit from a friend who was also receiving chemo yesterday, Rob Felts and his wife Stephanie.

 

We arrived at our new temporary home about 4:00 and quickly got settled in. So grateful to Chad, Alaina, Carter, Chloe and Cason for allowing us to disrupt their lives for the next couple of months. We are so blessed by our children. Bob and Shannon drove down from Kansas City last weekend to spend time with us (second time in three weeks);  Terry, Ashley, Erin, Chad and Alaina helped us get moved last Monday. Ashley, Erin, Maritiza, Alaina and Phillip have been with us at several procedures and Jay has had some great encouragment for me. They are all so willing and doing whatever is necessary to help us through this time. The same can be said of our many friends and prayer supporters. We are receiving such great comfort from your love, prayers, support and encouragement. I can't imagine having to walk this road without you all. Of course, I'll save the best for last, my wife Debbie. She has been amazing! I don't even have to think, she's got it covered. When we get this behind us I think I'll have to arrange a spa week for her.

 

The most difficult part of this journey so far has been seeing my loved ones hurting like they do. While I know there is nothing any of us can do to ease that pain, your reaching out and checking on them gives them so much comfort and encouragement. Thank you for that.

 

Please pray for Dr. McMinn and the staff at Integris Cancer Institute, they have been incredible. We also thank you for your prayers that these treatments will be effective and through the power of Almighty God I may be healed - glory to God. Until tomorrow - remember that God loves you and so do we!!

 

 

October 29, 2019 -- The Night Before The First Chemo Treatment

Acts 11:23 "Then when he arrived and witnessed the grace of God, he rejoiced and began to encourage them all with resolute heart to remain true to the Lord;"

Step one is now behind us, the port was successfully placed this morning, praise God! For this procedure they use a sedative and pain medicines. Since I have been on pain meds for a few months now the doctor had to use a little extra which was fine with me. The procedure went great, but because of the extra meds I was kind of nauseous this afternoon. The good news is, when we got back to the hotel I was able to sleep like a baby for a couple of hours. 

Debbie and I received a number of text messages today letting us know that you were all praying for us and checking on us. We appreciate you all more than we could ever express in words. 

After having a bite of dinner in our room we've settled in for the evening. With all that was going on today we really haven't had time to talk about our thoughts/feelings about tomorrow. Like so much of this process we just don't know what to expect from one day to the next. We continue to hold on to one another and Jesus and as the Bible says, "4 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! 5 Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near . 6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:4-7) His peace does in fact guard our hearts and minds. 

We've heard many stories about the different side effects of chemo, but we also know that each person is different. We will continue to trust God with every minute of every day. We are hopeful to continue our daily routines pretty much as usual. We appreciate you coming along in prayer with us for this. 

As this day winds down Debbie and I pray you all will have a blessed evening and once again we look forward to bringing you a positive update tomorrow. Until then, remember God loves you and so do we! God bless you!

 

October 28, 2019 -- The Night Before the Port

Romans 8:28 "And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."

I really wanted to start this journal with the events of last spring when this all started, but I think I better just get started where we are and if time allows I'll go back and fill in as I can. 

Today has been a busy day. Debbie put in her full day at the office while, with the help of several of our children, I winterized the trailer and moved our belongings to one of our children's home where we will be staying with his family for at least the next few months. Due to the upcoming treatments we felt it best to move closer to the church and the medical facilities. As you probably know, we sold our home last June and moved into our travel trailer in preparation of building our new home which has been under construction since mid-August. We had hoped to stay in the travel trailer until our home was completed, but things don't always go as we plan. 

We decided to stay at a hotel in Oklahoma City tonight and tomorrow night as we have early appointments at the hospital and cancer center the next two days. Tomorrow I have the port placed and Wednesday I will begin the chemo treatments. 

Debbie and I enjoyed a nice dinner this evening. We talked about how surreal this whole thing seems. While there are so many things we just don't know, we have the peace and courage to move ahead trusting that God is guiding our every step. I told Debbie about my most recent prayer. I have expressed to God that we will move forward with confidence trusting that if there is something or someone who is not a part of His plan that He would close that door. On top of everything else, we don't need to worry about whether or not we are making good decisions. We believe that Holy Spirit is directing our every step and this is all part of God's glorious plan.

I have felt pretty good the last few days, in large part to getting the pain medications on a good schedule. Likewise, I've been getting a little better sleep at night, but still would like to have more of it. 

Well, that brings us to tomorrow. We will check in at Integris Baptist Hospital at 8:00 a.m. The procedure for placing the port is scheduled for 10:00 a.m. They have told us the procedure will last 30 minutes to an hour followed by another 30 minutes to an hour of recovery time. Since I cannot eat anything after midnight tonight I expect we'll stop for lunch before returning to the hotel for an afternoon of rest. 

I believe that summarizes today rather well. I look forward to giving a positive report tomorrow evening. God bless you all! Tell your loved ones how much you love them, everyday! 

 

In The Beginning

In March of 2019 Debbie and I decided to take on the challenge of building a house. We purchase two lots from a friend and began by cleaning up some of the smaller trees and brush. In the meantime, we began the search for a floor plan and builder. In April I started to experience some pain in the middle of my back. I thought at the time that it was perhaps a muscle thing due to the tree trimming. As the days went by I found it rather difficult to sleep at night, I just could not get my back comfortable. I continued to think that given some time it would get better. After a couple of weeks not only did the back pain not get better, but I developed some incredibly painful stomach issues. In early June I went to see my primary care physician and described my symptoms to him. He didn't think the back and stomach issues were related. Initially, he ordered a back x-ray and encouraged me to keep track of how my stomach reacted to the different foods I ate. 

The back x-ray indicated some degenerative disc disease which seem to satisfy the reason for the back pain. The doctor suggested some PT or exercises that might help that. In order to confirm he also wrote an order for an MRI of the back and an upper right quadrant abdominal ultra sound to take a look at the gallbladder. The MRI confirmed what the x-ray showed concerning the back, but the ultra sound was negative. Next up would be a HIDA scan to determine whether or not the gallbladder was working properly. 

The HIDA scan, like the ultra sound came back negative so the physician decided I should see a GI doctor. Getting into some of the specialists is quite a task. We could not get in to see the GI doc that was recommended to us for 3+ months, so we went to her nurse practitioner. 

After a series of questions and a quick exam the NP was pretty well convinced that it was acid reflux or GERD and prescribed a proton pump inhibitor (whatever that is) and a probiotic and asked me to come back in 3 months. I suggested to her that if I still hurt like I did in 3 months I would not be a very happy patient. At that point she agreed to schedule a colonoscopy and upper GI which would still be 6 weeks out. In the mean time I was able to get in to another GI doc for an exam and he followed quickly with the colonoscopy and upper GI, both came back negative. 

At our next meeting with the GI doc we suggested the (now long overdue) CT scan and he agreed. It was the CT scan that showed the mass located on the tail of my pancreas along with some possible signs of the cancer being elsewhere. The doctor quickly ordered a blood test and biopsy, both confirmed that the mass was cancerous. At this point, the GI doc referred us to a wonderful cancer group and we were fortunate enough to get a well-respected Christian oncologist. 

The oncologist suggested a couple of different chemo treatments, but thought that I was in a good enough place health wise to tolerate the more aggressive treatment which also offered the best chances at slowing down the cancer. 

That pretty well brings us to the daily updates which are above starting with October 28, 2019. 

I share this story because I believe that God is up to something big and He wants someone out there to see what an awesome God He really is. 

Comments

Pat and Jerry Hopson on 11-16-2019 at 9:39 PM
We are keeping you and Debbie in our prayers.
Ricky Bengs on 11-02-2019 at 11:03 AM
Praying for you and Debbie
Erin Gordon Luttrell on 11-01-2019 at 7:22 PM
I’m so proud of you, Dad! And, I love you so very much!
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